Lone girl

Hey my name is Subhy...I am 17 years and I am gonna narrate my real story life..."Heart" though present in your body but don't underestimate other people can break it too...Many ups and down...family, school, friends,  crush, love, betrayal, misunderstandings, pain...ouch!!! Believe me that s**t hurts...easy for people to say don't cry over someone who doesn't cares,don't run behind desperately to someone who left, don't forgive n let him pay, be tough, payback...blah blah...but if we truly madly deeply love someone can we really consider these options...no matter what...heart wants what it wants...I have cried,thought of committing suicide left alone when I needed someone by my side,desperately gave many chances to a person repeating same mistakes but atlast found my solace within my own self...lone girl but not weak one...now I am gonna start telling my story... It was the month of August of year 2015...ahh life was going so perfect...wake up in early morning carry out morning routine have breakfast ,go to tuition at 7 am...I was in 6th class 2nd batch tuition...then come back home at 8:30 and return back home in 15 minutes as it was pretty close to my home...do homework then get ready for school by 10:15 then walk to school which was also nearby and reach by 10:40...Actually I didn't know who my true friends were...one moment one of my friend will be greeting me and we will ne laughing and talking and will be sitting together in one bench...but when students will start filling in she will leave without a word and I will be left alone till my other 'friends' arrive...but still sometimes I will b excluded...Almost all the times either I will start the conversation and they will either ignore or reply in one sentence or when they need something always they will directly come to me not the ones they were gossiping with...why?(sighs) I never was able to identify who is my bestfriend because they all were same...then comes teachers...I admit they were a little friendly and most students in the class talked freely with the teachers and believe me I also wanted to talk freely like them but I was so shy that I would back off even when I had so many questions...I always used to think about the daily soups I am gonna watch and about the episodes or write poems or daydream in classes...then in lunch break same silent lonely me,I wish someone would have actually talked to me and I would have shared so many things like normal friends share...(sighs again)then return home at 5 PM get freshen up watch TV while having snacks then same lonely me in tuition but atleast some used to make conversations but only when they had no company...then return home listen to music for sometime then study then dinner with family talking all about study well do hardwork blah blah then go to sleep...In between who was there to listen to me?But I didn't know everything was gonna change...I still don't know more weigtage was good change or bad change but I will leave that to readers!