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HELLO THEA
T H E A
I couldn't sleep the entire night as I was bothered about Sebastian's release happening in just a few hours.
Thoughts were filling and piling inside my head one over the other and I don't know if this was going to let me sleep at all.
So I slipped out of the bed where Ben was sleeping soundly and headed out of bedroom to get myself a glass of wine from downstairs. I hate myself when I turn to alcohol every time my thoughts are fogged up and f****d up. I hate when there are questions left unanswered and my solution is alcohol.
I hated it.
I hated it so much I hate myself too.
I finished two glasses of wine and spent almost thirty minutes just sitting on a chair where I tried to drown and sort my troubled thoughts. I finally pulled myself up and headed back to m
