Her secret mate

The pain of betreal

His words echoed in the room.

My own pack tried to kill me.

Nausea started to rise in my throat.

A pack is everything to a wolf... it was family, but on a much deeper level.

You may not like a member, but you will still protect them with your life. That was how werewolf instincts worked...

Well I guess not in my case...

In my case, my own pack was ready to kill me for cash.

My wolf was crying in my chest out of pain and betrayal. There was no way to describe what she was going through.

Sure, I was an introvert that did not enjoy the company of others as much as a regular wolf, but a pack was everything to my wolf. The connection to the pack is each wolf's reason to be... and the betrayal I felt right now has severed that bond. I could feel the connection to my pack disappearing. Before I could crumble to the ground from the pain and shock, I felt Darcy's hands wrap around me, saving me from crumbling down completely. His voice echoed in the room, but I heard it though this fog of pain and overwhelming feeling of loss. There was another sound in the room that my brain tried to recognize. I think I heard Darcy's phone ring. It was probably my father, because he must have felt it. He must have felt the connection that tied us together severed and from this moment I no longer belonged to Pheonix pack.

Darcy kept calling my name, while whispering something in between the rocking motion, but I could not understand a single word he was saying.

After what must have been six calls, Darcy finally answered my father and had a short conversation with him... well it was no realy a conversation, more like Darcy told my father to shut up and told him that I was with him. He ended the call and concentrated on me again.

"Val come baby... please..."

He said again and again while rocking me back and forth. He kept kissing my forehead, but nothing was working. I still felt like I was underwater.

"I'm sorry baby... you know that I would never do this under any different circumstances..."

His words were so cunfusing... I was so confused as to what he was talking about, but then I realized what he was about to do.

He turned my head, so I was looking him directly in the eyes. His eyes were shining a dark red hue as he took a deep breath and released a deep alpha growl, that forced my wolf instantly to submit. My body went limp and all I wanted to do was curl up in a ball at his feet and beg for forgiveness.

But it worked, the stress of the moment mixed with the adrenaline forced me out of the trance I was under.

I felt him lift my body, but I was still in shock mode. My wolf was still scared of making the alpha angry, so it forced us to stay frozen as he carried me back to our bedroom.

Gently, he laid me down to bed and laid down next to me, himself. He pulled me in to curl up next to him as his warm hands pulled me into his chest. The soft beat of his heart, mixed with all the stress from what just happened, knocked me out completely.

My sleep was dreamless, but not very refreshing.

Once I felt myself waking up slowly, I tried to move, but pain shot through my body making me freeze and release a little cry of pain and distress.

"Shh... stop, baby stop."

Darcy's calm voice helped the panic that started to rise in my chest to settle down, and I concentrated on him for a moment.

I stopped just as he said, and slowly my eyes found his. Once our eyes met, I saw his body visually relax, but his eyes were filled with worry and concern.

"Here, let me help you."

He whispered as he softly pulled me up to a sitting position. My mind was still hazy as I tried to figure out whats wrong with me. With every passing second I felt panic rise in my chest, forcing my chest to lift faster and faster, as I felt like I could no longer take in a normal breath.

"Shh.... Val... baby, it's okay, take a deep breath in... and now a deep breath out... Shh everything is okay, it's just lingering after the effects of my suing my alpha growl on you. Your body is still in shock mode. It usually takes from a few hours to a few days for the after effects to clear up."

His words made sense as I tried to access my memories from the night before, but my brain still refused to work.

"Val, I know that you are trying to think, but you have to stop, it will only make it worse. Concentrate on me instead, okay baby? Concentrate on my voice. Good girl, just like that..."

Bit by bit, I managed to flush everything else out and just concentrate on him. It was a bit easier as his hands kept slowly brushing my skin, and so I could concentrate on that instead of the storm in my head.

That felt like a moment, but probably was a lot longer, but the panic finally settled, and I could take a normal breath in... but it did not feel normal.

My whole body felt strange... my wolf felt strange...

"Val, baby... can you listen to me for a moment?'

His voice was calm and monotonic, and it felt good to hear it, because it soothed the animal in me.

"Do you remember what happened yesterday?"

I took a deep breath and tried again to remember.

This time it worked and was flooded with memories from yesterday and a realization hit me...

I broke away from the pack...

I no longer have a pack.