Two hours later.... Rachel I was sitting in the hospital staring out the window. My son was kidnapped. My mother-in-law was dead. My brother, dead. My husband, wishing he were dead. My sister heart-broken and destroyed. Our kids traumatized. I looked at Maryah and Tasha who had finally fallen asleep beside me. My mind was racing at two hundred miles an hour. My chest felt as if it were going to explode. The rest of my body hurt and ached. All I wanted to do was sleep but I couldn’t. My newborn son was missing. Is he still alive? He didn’t look too good when we came out the water. Did he die and no one wanted to tell me? I went through all of that hard work growing and nurturing him for the last nine months only for him to die like this? I swore I would neve

