Always watching

Amelia p.o.v Yes a normal day in paradise.... if only . The alarm sounds ... I get up turn it off , make my bed , if you can call it that , rug with a blanket and a make shift pillow , take a shower, take care of my wounds from last night , cuts and bruises even though they have mostly healed, with every day beatings my body is getting slower at healing , pack treats me as their own punching bag. Yes I'm the least favourite in our pack im the bottom of the bottom. With no parents, no one to care for me ive learned to only depend on myself no one else. I'm the pack slave . I now drag my sorry little arse to the kitchens even though I can barely move after my bones have healed from them being broken from the beating . I'm glad that I haven't bumped into any one yet . I can at least try to heal some more Before the beatings come again and hopefully get some food in me . Yes I've got to wait until every pack member has had their's first. If there is any left at all. I try to make extras to see if I can have at least something. I'm sure our Alpha has caught on to it and seems to put more and more on his plate. He's the worst at all the beatings , I have no idea why he's like this to me . Its only me he does it too. Our luna is next to be awful to me , anything goes wrong even if I'm no where near the incident I'm to blame according to her. No one goes and help me when these 2 start on me . The last time someone did they paid dearly for it 50 lashings with the silver dipped wip she Nearly died. I have thought of many times of making myself go rogue but where would I go ? What would I do ? . Our Alpha also said if I did he would hunt me down and give me the most slowest painful death possible . So thats out of the question . Food is all set out ready for the pack all tables are set . I go back into the kitchen to clean and tidy it all up . Still thank full for not bumping into anyone . This is fantastic this is the first for me . Not 1 punch kick or slap before 7am has got to be a record . As I'm about to get some more cleaning supplies out of the cupboard I hear footsteps, please goddess for once in my life can I have 1 day without a beating.. fat chance of that I'm kicked into the cupboard with a punch to my side, another kick another kick. Laughter and footsteps slowly going away . Well my hope went straight out the window . Why are they like this to me ?? moon goddess why ?? . I just sit in the cupboard crying . Dont know how long I'm sitting here for but all of a sudden I hear the kitchen door being slammed open . Oh goddess please just either let me die ... cant take this anymore,I hear foot steps and almighty roar of my name being called """Amelia """ I know that voice - our Alpha Here goes ... I hold my breath looking down at the floor wincing from the few kicks I had earlier , my side aches. " Amelia look at me " he says in his Alpha voice. Oh no !! he is going to kill me , please make it quick. I look at him . He says "We have the Alpha kings beta Ryan coming in 3 days time . In these next few days I want the ultimate 3 rooms cleaning . ( thats 3 nights without sleep .. Great) Kitchen will be also you're responsibility . This is getting better by the minute, just grand not . Also don't want you to be anywhere near the beta or any of the warrior's thats with him .Do you understand. !!! " " Yes Alpha Mark " Good . If you do cause me any trouble i will KILL you without hesitation. Not that I was planning to meet or even speaking to anyone from the kings men. Just before Alpha Mark was about to leave he punches me in the face . Just dandy "Thats for looking at me " Another punch in the gut... Great "Thats for you're ugly face " Kick .. "Thats just because I can " Kick another one and another one. Stomp on my head. I pass out . Goddess why ??? . .... Dont know how long I was out for but I look at the time its 11am ... oh great time for lunch to get ready . I have to collect all the dirty breakfast dishes first and clean the tables. So I do that even though I can't hardly move. Once that's done. I start with the lunches also Prepare for our main meal. Once this is all done its 2pm . I collect all the dirty lunch dishes clean up the banquet Hall and clean the tables . Set about to clean the pack house knowing that it will be empty due to them training. On the way there im thinking " Shall I just leave and let Alpha Mark just kill me ???? " Also getting a feeling of being watched , I look around i cannot see or hear anything. Am I being paranoid? . I enter the pack house i clean this is ridiculous dont these people know where a bin is ? Or how to use the frigging washer ? For flip sake !! I curse them all tutting every now and then. By the time im finished ( well sort of ill come back ) its 5pm I head to the kitchens to do dinner . Oh goddess why do they treat me this way. I'm so tired .... Hurting everywhere.... So so hungry ..... I set up dinner , tidy and clean the kitchen, I head back to the pack house to do the rest of the cleaning . While they are eating . I get the feeling I'm being watched. I look around . ... nothing . Am I really being paranoid???? Am I loosing my mind ????