The shy's girl crush

Chapter twenty - She makes me feel different

Dylan's POV:

I noticed that Loren was changing her mood quickly. I don't know what the problem is, but she looks upset. That is one of the things I don't like. I want to help her, but I don't know how. It seems like she wants to fight alone. I have no problem leaving her, but I feel bad for her. We are friends, and she can tell me if there is a problem. I'm not Alice, but I can help her with what I can. It's better than nothing. Maybe I have to give her some time. The problem is that I want to be with her. I should tell her how I feel. The thing is that I need to find the right moment. It's not like I know when it will come. Let's hope that it won't be too late. I don't want to wait much. The other thing is that I'm afraid. Loren might reject me, and I don't want this to happen. I can't tell her who to date, but I will love it if she chooses me. I want to be the one who will bring a smile to her face. I am dreaming too much. Let's take one step at a time. Going out with her will be like a dream, but it won't happen soon. Mom can tell me what to do. We should have a conversation about that. After all, she has been in love as well. Times back then have been different, but she can give me advice. Also, I want Loren to receive my dog necklace. I don't know why I gave it to her the first time, but now I do. I'm sure she will keep it. She already proved that. It means a lot to me. That's why I want her to take it. She is the only person who is allowed to have it. I won't give it to anyone else. I have no idea when I will do it, but it better be soon. I hope when I ask her out, she won't reject me. That is the last thing I want to happen. Loren is the girl with who I want to be.

I woke up and checked my phone. It was only 8:30 am. One day, I secretly took a picture of Loren and used it as wallpaper on my phone. I know it's wrong, but I needed to do it. I love her hair and freckles. They might be tiny, but I have noticed them. Lately, my feelings have been playing games with me. Let's hope that I won't do anything stupid. I want to do things slowly. After all, Loren gets shy and nervous quickly. I don't want to give her heart attacks.

Finally, I got out of bed. I went to change my clothes and get ready for the day. Later, I walked into the bathroom. When I was ready, I walked into the kitchen for breakfast. Mom was making pancakes. I took a glass of water and went up to her. I don't know how to tell her about that. The truth is that she is the only one who can help me. Also, she can talk with Loren and make her feel comfortable. It won't be easy, but I have to do it.

- Hey, mom.

- Hi, honey. Breakfast will be ready soon.

- Thanks, but I'm not here for that.

- Ok, can I help you?

- I need to talk to you about something.

- Is there a problem?

- No, don't worry.

- Ok, then. Go on.

- When you and dad started dating?

- Well, it was in high school.

- How was your date? I mean, when was it? What did he prepare?

- Your dad asked me on an official date after two weeks since we started getting close. It was a simple date, but I liked it. We walked around the town and ate ice cream.

- Was he nervous?

- Yes, he was. Not that much, but he wanted to do everything perfectly. I told him not to do it. I don't need people to do everything for me. I enjoy the little things.

- But he did well since you two stayed together.

- I was already in love with him. No matter what he has done, it wouldn't change my mind.

- Ok, thanks.

- Why are you asking? Do we have a crush?

- No, but I want to ask a girl out.

- Do I know her?

- Not much, but I have mentioned her.

- Is it Loren?

- Maybe.

- All you have to do is be yourself. Girls love this. If you want her to be with you, don't hide anything.

- I want to give her my dog necklace.

- Why? You got so worried when you thought you had lost it.

- I know, but I want her to keep it. Also, I already gave it to her once. I don't know why I did it.

- I think my son is in love. Am I right?

- I don't know. Loren is shy and gets nervous quickly. I don't want to give her a heart attack. The other problem is that she might reject me.

- I don't think she will do it.

- Can I invite her today?

- Yeah, sure. I would love to talk with this girl.

- Please, don't pressure her. Take things slowly with her.

- Don't worry.

Mom and I went to eat. Dad has a weekend with his friends. It will be only my mom and me. It's not like I mind. I like spending time with her. She is the person I go to when I have a problem. I texted Loren, and she said she would come here. I don't have a plan for the day, but it doesn't matter. I will leave her to decide.

After an hour, there was a knock on the door. Loren was standing outside with her head down. Lately, she has been upset. I let her in, and both of us walked into the kitchen. Mom came in and sat down.

- Hi. You must be Loren.

- H-hi.

- Hey, are you ok? You can tell me if there is a problem. - I said

- I-I'm fine.

- Are you sure?

- Yes.

- Do you want something? We have pancakes. - mom said

- T-thanks, but I-I had breakfast.

- Ok, then. I will leave you to talk.

- Let's go to my room. I need to talk with you.

- Ok.

Loren and I walked into my room. I don't know what is happening, but it hurts me to see her like that. I would do anything to take her pain away. We walked in, and she sat on the bed. I did the same and looked at her.

- What is going on? You can tell me.

- I don't know. I woke up like that.

- Can I do something to cheer you up?

- Thanks, but I'll be fine.

- Look, I want to give you something. I know you will keep it. - I said and took off my dog necklace

- But that is.

- Yes. I will like it if you take it.

- No, I can't do it. That means so much to you.

- You too. That's why I want you to take it. Please.

- That feels wrong.

- I already gave it to you once. Will you take it?

- I can't.

- Please. - I said and put it in her hand

Loren didn't say anything. I slightly lifted her head and saw the pain in her eyes. I pulled her for a hug and felt how she relaxed. I took the necklace and put it on her. She tried to take it off, but I didn't let her. I want her to keep it.

- I can't take it.

- Yes, you can. You are the only one who is allowed to do it.

- Why me?

- Because I want to do it. I know you will keep it safe.

- I promise I won't lose it.

- What do you want us to do? I can take you for lunch if you want.

- Thanks, but I'm not in the mood to be outside.

- Ok, we can stay here. How can I bring your good mood back? I want to help you.

- You can't. No one can.

- But seeing you upset hurts me.

- What? Why?

- Because I care about you.

- Really?

- Yes, I do.

- It feels good hearing that.

- Do you have tickles?

- What?

I didn't say anything and started tickling her. It's an old trick, but it always works. Loren was begging me to stop, but I didn't. She was laughing out loud. Mom will think I am torturing her. Soon I grabbed her hands and pulled her close. She didn't do anything and looked at me. There was only one thing there. It was pain. I carefully removed a piece of her hair. We kept staring at each other. Can someone tell me why I want to kiss her? It's not the time for that, but I want to do it. I let her go, but she didn't move. I pulled her for another hug.

- Thanks. I needed that.

- Kids, lunch will be ready soon. Will you stay? - mom asked

- Yes.

- Ok, you can come after thirty minutes.

- Thanks, mom. - I said, and she left

- Maybe I have to go home. - Loren said

- No. I want you to stay here.

- I don't want to interrupt you.

- You are not doing it. Also, I don't have plans. I want to spend the day with you.

- I appreciate it.

- Will you look at me?

- Why?

- Because I want to see your eyes. This time, without pain.

- You want too much.

- Are you sure? - I asked and lifted her chin

Loren looked at me but didn't say anything. I got close and kissed her cheek. That was probably a mistake, but I couldn't resist. I like her. I will tell her everything, but not today. She tried to hide her blushing.

- It's ok. Every girl does it. Your best friend too.

- I'm sorry.

- Why? You didn't do anything.

- Maybe.

- Let's go for lunch.

Both with Loren walked into the kitchen. Mom was setting the table. I helped her finish it faster. She put on the food, and we started eating. Loren was eating peacefully. I know she feels nervous. Honestly, I'm glad my mom is not asking her many questions. I think they will be good friends.

- Loren, do you want something else?

- N-no. Everything is d-delicious.

- I'm glad that you like it. Safe yourself some space. I made a dessert.

- Ok, I-I will.

- Honey, why don't you take her out later? You can't stay inside all the time.

- Mom, I will let her decide.

- I-I like staying at h-home.

- Why? Don't you like going out with your friends?

- Mom.

- I mean, with you and her best friend.

- Please, stop talking. You only make it worse.

- Ok, I'm sorry.

- It-it's fine. At home, I feel safe. - Loren said

- Did someone hurt you? - mom asked

- N-no. Not physically.

- I understand. Don't worry. My son will take care of that.

- Mom!

- I will be happy if he does that.

- What? Really? - I asked, looking at her

- It-it's not like you d-don't do it already.

- Do you want a movie after lunch?

- Why not?

- Ok, then. We have a plan.

After lunch, Loren and I walked back into my room. I left her to pick the movie. While she was doing it, I went to take some of my mom's desserts. She made brownies. I have eaten from the store, but hers are the best. When I walked back, I saw Loren smiling while she was looking at her necklace. I was sure she would like it. No matter that it took me time to convince her.

- I'm glad that you like it.

- Huh?

- Nevermind. Did you pick a movie?

- Yes, I did. I hope you will like it.

- I will. You have good taste.

- Thanks. - Loren said, blushing

- We have brownies.

- Yummy. Did you take all of them?

- No, I left some.

- Good. Your dad needs to try them when he comes home.

- He is gone for the weekend. Sometimes he likes to go out with his friends. I don't know what they do, but that's better. Mom is doing the same but during the weeks. She likes to go out after work.

- It's good that they have friends.

- They do. Let's watch the movie now.

- Ok.

- Do you want to snuggle?

- Can I?

- Of course. Come here.

- Thank you. - Loren said and snuggled

I am in paradise. We ate and watched the movie peacefully. Mom came to tell me that she would go out for a while. It looks like we'll be alone. It's not like something will happen. I don't plan to tell her the truth. At the end of the movie, Loren has fallen asleep. I kissed the top of her head and hugged her tightly. I don't want to let her go. Having her here makes me feel good. I regret not talking to her earlier.

After an hour, Loren woke up and looked at me. I only smiled, but it was enough for her to blush and nod her head down. I love this girl. She is adorable.

- It's ok. You don't have to be shy.

- I-I'm sorry.

- For what? You didn't do anything wrong.

- I was tired.

- Relax. What do you want us to do now? I don't want to let you go home yet.

- All I want is to lay in bed.

- Can I join you?

- Well, the bed is yours. - Loren said, chuckling

- I'm glad that your good mood is back.

- Thank you for that. I needed it. I'm sorry that I'm pulling my bad mood on you.

- Don't worry. I'm glad that I can make it come back in no time.

- Only you and Alice can do it.

- I have special powers.

- Really? What? Don't tell me. You can fly. - Loren said, laughing

- Very funny. I was about to say that I have the power to make you feel good. I mean, you are happy now, aren't you?

- Yes, I am. Thank you for that.

- You're welcome. I will always do it for you.

- I'm glad to hear it. Jackson is lucky to have you as a friend.

- He or me?

- Both. - Loren said, and I chuckled

- Thank you for coming here. Otherwise, I would've been bored.

- No problem. I like spending time with you.

- Me too.

The rest of the day we spent together. We took my mom with us and went to have dinner outside. Both of them were talking all the time. I'm glad they understand each other so well. Loren is still shy, but she keeps everything under control. I might tell her everything sooner than planned. I waited for the right moment, but it might never come. It's better if I make a move soon. After all, I don't want someone else to do it before me. It's not like there is a line of boys walking behind her. Some girls still chase me, but since I started going out with Loren, they back off. Let's say that they still don't like her. The problem is not mine. I hope when I tell her everything, she won't reject me. I don't want to know this feeling.