My Addiction

Chapter sixteen

Ryan's POV

Miserable is an understatement for what I'm feeling. Maybe it's dumb but I was expecting a call or something, anything at all. What makes it even worse is when

I saw her with James in the pack all close and happy, if it wasn't for Tom I would have jumped off the bridge. I'm trying to get a hold of myself but considering the amount of broken furniture in my bedroom I don't think I'm doing a good job

" come on man you need to stop this" Tom scolded as he judged into my room

" no one asked for your opinion" I seriously need some alone time I need to process what is going on

"Okay, what seems to be the problem?" he asked as he sat on the floor beside me

" you know what the problem is, why are you even here if you are going to pretend you know nothing?"

" look bro I just want to hear it from you, besides you look miserable I think you would use a listening ear" I sure do need that perhaps I'll feel better

" I saw her at the Park today with James," he gave me a raised brow " I know, I know but it still hurts so much I can't bear It" he just starts laughing " I'm trying to open up and the first thing you do if laugh? " I say frustrated

" well, I think you are just jealous. I mean I don't think he is his type of guy, honestly, you have nothing to worry about"

" maybe, but it still doesn't change how I'm feeling about it," I say while looking down

" sure but isn't that what put you in this position In the first place? if this is how you feel imagine how she felt, maybe you need to cut her some slack" he's right about that " speaking of cutting someone slack, let's just say you could start now" he said as he rose from his sitting position

" what do you mean by that?" I asked as I followed suit

" Someone is here to see you, I suggest you clean up brother," he said and closed the door behind him. I had been angry a few moments ago but when he said that, a wave of excitement surged me and I wanted to jump around or even dance. I quickly went to check myself in the mirror seeing that I was a mess, I washed my face, fixed myself until I looked presentable then I headed out to the living room. she stood when she saw me which I wasn't expecting at all

I was contemplating whether to greet or not and she bit me to it

" I know you probably don't want to see me right now but we need to talk," she said going straight to the point.

" oh yeah? what about, that you had someone follow me? seriously Jessie I thought we were past that!" I said trying to calm down as my anger came rushing back like a storm

" I knew you would think that but maybe if you gave time to speak then you'd view it with a different light" I could work with that, I went and sat beside her

" I wasn't stalking you," she said " someone sent me those photos that night when I came back from lucy's place

I didn't know what to think of them then when I found the envelope on my office desk, I stopped thinking I just wanted some space. " she looked up to face me and I could see the honesty in her words

" Why didn't you ask me then? I mean, you could have said something "

" yeah right, and look like the jealous girlfriend when we don't even know what this is yet? no thanks " that hit me hard, now I know, so that is what all that was about? giving the cold shoulder and all, I should have noticed but still, it doesn't justify what she did. It wasn't entirely her fault and I kind of get her. I could have done the same or even worse if Just seeing her at the park with James almost made me commit suicide then I can't begin to imagine how she must have felt. and maybe it's about time we gave meaning to whatever is going on between us

" so what are you trying to say?"

" what I'm trying to say is that I'm sorry, I should not have just assumed things like that and I'm sorry I walked out on you that night," she said then paused " well you better accept it because that's the best I can apologize and it might probably be the last you'll ever hear it from me" I laughed at her humor and pulled her into a hug.

" you hear that?" she asked at the sound of a car driving off

" Yeah, it must be Tom he was here earlier, " I tell her

" off cause he was I told him to fetch you" the mood has lightened up a bit, the tension has gone and we can now talk freely

" About what you said that we don't know what this is ...." she cut me off by crushing her lips with mine, my guess is she doesn't want to talk about it and could roll with that usually but then this is a different case. I pull back for a moment then I crushed my lips back on hers you never know when else you'll get that opportunity so I wasn't going to let it just pass. After a long while, we both separated gasping heavily for air

" I think I should get going now," she said and I just pretended as if I didn't hear her

" I'll offer you a drink and then we can talk more later, we still have a lot more pending matters to discuss " I announced and went to the kitchen to get us some drinks

" I seriously have to get going"

" oh come on I'm sure you could use a drink" she insisted

" well, fine then I'll have a drink " she exclaimed.

jessie's POV

Apart from me wanting to go and kept telling me this was not a good idea but another was begging me to stay and it is worn mostly because it was the one I was willing to listen to. we were having a heated moment when Astrid can in

" ah sorry guys, I'll just come back some other time maybe tomorrow," she said and was about to turn and leave

" no it's fine I was about to leave," I told her

" no you weren't," she argued and looked at her brother

" you were?" Ryan asked while raising his eyebrow and a wicked smirk formed on this face. I didn't know how to respond to that so I chose to be quiet besides, I knew it was a war I wouldn't be able to win

" I'll give you guys some space then good night," she said and left in a rush

" so where did we stop?" Ryan questioned

" I think we were about to..." he cut me off as he leaned in and put his lips on mine

I want things to go much further but I had things that needed my attention so I pulled back and bead him good by

" I have to go, I have a lot of documents I need to review before I go on vacation, I want to leave things in order,"

" I can help you with that if you don't mind " he offered

" sure but there is no turning back once you take that step" I teased and he frown acting as though he was hurt

" I'm not one to chicken out " he complained

" let me be the judge of that, " we returned together at my place and started working on the things at hand