I BLEED FOR HIM

Louis pov The room felt colder as I laid on my bed, my eyes glued to the ceiling. The text burning through my brain, "kill Zayn or we do it", and I have 24hours. This is all my fault I shouldn't have joined the----- Louis! Louis! Louis, if I come inside it won't be as simple as waking you up, I am gonna drag you by your f*****g brain face planted in the floor and watch you bleed like crazy. My brother Jake ranted as he knocked my door like a crazy man, bringing me out of my daydreaming. Coming, I will join you guys, let me freshen up man. I replied getting up from my bed. You know, I don't care if you f*****g freshen up or not, mom won't allow us to eat except you are there and I can't wait anymore, you rat. Okay, but if you could just go LET ME f*****g BATHE! I shouted my voice echoing the whole house, I know mom would be here any instant. I entered the bathroom and quickly did my routine, I stopped in front of the glass staring at my reflection, I looked so dead(sarcasm) and gorgeous. "Don't let them f*****g know what's wrong keep everything in". I quickly rushed downstairs before my brother will come and knock some sense into me. Hmmp! Down at last, I thought your stupid self will have to wait for me to come up and grab you; my father's voice sarcastic echoed in my ear. I paid no heed to him as I walked to my mom: "Good morning mom, how was your beauty night, hope you dream of me. I smiled hiding my ugly side. Oh my handsome son, you look too pale, what's wrong you didn't sleep well. Thank God there is no school today so you can have all the rest you want. My mom's voice was soothing, but it still can not calm the worry in me. Mom you worry too much, just some bad dreams and everything, I actually slept like a baby except a caveman that came to knock on my door for some banana. I muttered staring at him. Jake glared at me across the table his mouth full with food, I swear I will murder A look from my mom sent him on an edge, that word, is not allowed in my house understand: her voice brimming with dominance. Nodding like a frog, he frown at me and continues his food. I sat next to my favorite brother Bryan, a detective the man I loved most, he looked at me and shakes his head. I sighed degectedly I am still a mistake in his and father's eyes since I don't have high intelligence quotient like the rest of the family and that made me dig my grave by joining the organization. I stared at the food not finding a single appetite in my body, I looked at my mom and saw her staring at me, I smiled at her and started picking my food, I couldn't taste any flavor, maybe it's my nerve causing it. After breakfast fast everyone went to their usual routine living me to my thoughts. I raced to my room and puked all the food in my stomach, I have been doing that alot since I joined them. I took my phone with shaky hands, staring at the message again, I should kill Zayn, my childhood friend and the guy I had an hidden crush. I have 24hours or they will kill him themselves, I started pacing around the room trying to think. But when I am nervous I become stupid, I can't think my brain is shutting down. What should I do?. I laid on my bed and wrapped my self, thinking this is just a bad dream, but dream doesn't last this much. I pulled out my phone and messaged him I will do this myself, I will make him hate me than stay in a world without him. From Louis: Zayn, Zayn, are you there From Zayn: hello buddy, missing me From Louis: can you come to my house, by 8pm. From Zayn: okay, what's wrong?, are you okay. From Louis: Yes I am, just missing you. From Zayn: That's gay, you know, don't worry I will be there. I shut my phone and started pacing, what if I called my brother, will he help me. I remembered the look on his face, oh no I shook my head, bad idea. The clock begins to tick, the time moving fast, why are they doing this to me. Silence hung around the air, as I waited for him. The door creaked softly; Zayn tilted his head inside. "Should I still knock, or I can invite myself inside". He said striding in softly. "You look pale, are you okay?." He asked as he walked quietly to my bed. I am okay you fool, just brooding on something I saw on the Internet, I replied waving my hands and placing my fake smile. He sighed and muttered: thank God, I thought you are sick or going somewhere. My heart skipped a bit, does he know I want to escape nope he couldn't know. So I have something I want to give you, let say a surprise. He looked at me suspiciously; okay! I admit what's wrong with you?. What? I asked trying to hide my trembling hands. There is nothing wrong can't I just call my friend and give him something. Everything is wrong, you haven't given me something before, is this our parting gift. He asked still staring at me. I knocked him suddenly and he winced: I told you I am going no where, now let's go get your gift princess. But I will have to blindfold you. He giggled and joked, stop being kinky with me. I shook my head, bile rising to my throat but I swallowed it. Do you trust me ; I asked as I blindfold him. With my life: he answered immediately. My heart clenching as I led him to the edge of the stairs. I am sorry: I whispered What are you---- I didn't allow him to finish when I pushed him.