Dimension

Episode 8

        She begged to give away her son to her husband. But the court doesn't allow it. Slowly my mother's cruelty started to show on me. She doesn't feed me well. Always used to lock my door from out like a prisoner. So she wouldn't see my face.

        All my children are playing outside. I stand near my window and see towards them. For some years I also thought I was mute as a reward of my isolation.

         I forgot to speak for many years. Even while going out I've to wear a plastic bag around my face so that she doesn't see my face. If she sees my face.

        She reminds her husband and wants to dominate me. She used to tie my neck with a dog chain and I used to walk like a dog and feed like a dog for many years.

        She used to beat me a lot while I was a dog to show her dominance over me (in her vision, her husband) but due to my isolation, for time pass I used to study the old books thrown by the students.

        In this way I've got interested in physics. Once I've asked her to join me In a school. She beat me with a wine bottle on my head which unfortunately slapped over my nose. The nose palate had broken. No proper medication was taken so the palate has healed with dislocation.

        I still feel difficult to breathe sometimes. I've tried to suicide many times. But with my bad luck, I survived every time. I used to have a doll (showing his mask) a small female doll I've won in exhibition when I was with my father.

        I used to think of it as my mother and used to snap it and stab it with a knife and did so many things with it which I can't say and you can never imagine to relieve myself from the anger and the pain I was bearing from my mother.

         In course of time my pain increases and dolls can't stop my anger and make me relieved. From then I staged the next level of sadism. I used to kill my neighbour's dogs and cats. Lure them with food and kill them to relieve. As I said "I'm the victim of my own. I know killing innocent animals is wrong and sad. But I can't help it. It is not what I want. It is what I need" 

To be continued...