When love becomes a sin.

Hey, my name is Alexis. I’m a college student fighting for a scholarship to Oxford University or even better. I don’t know how to do everything to perfection so I need the of help my lecturers, at least one who likes me. I have a tendency of freaking out before every little thing. And before you ask i have a boyfriend. Calling him handsome would be an understatement, he’s all shades of pretty and adorable mixed together in one ….. If he was in a cup he’d be a mixture of lattes and cappuccinos, he tastes good too(just saying). I don’t do too well with relationships. My past ones have been trash if not bullshit. I would never date a man with with some sort of popularity, at least until now. Alex is a young and successful CEO at a very popular real estate company called Hayes consultancy and estates. Rumor has it he’s one of the most feared young men in town, everyone knows who he is. He owns very expensive houses and vehicles, trust me when I say he smells expensive too. He has millions of girls desperately following him like he owes them something. The question is what is a renowned CEO of very high standards doing with a country mouse like me? What is Mr Alexander Hayes doing with basic Alexis Lightwood. He can be with a trillion other girls. Girls who are willing to lay their lives for him and girls who can offer more than he needs. I’m not too confident with my body so I’m usually insecure even when he lays his hands on me. Okay away from that…. He’s about 6ft tall. Brown eyes, veiny arms, dimples, beautiful pink lips,no tats,no braids ,no piercings. I don’t think I’m allowed to say this but he has one hellllllllllll of a fine waist… Am I even supposed to call it that? I don’t know what to call it. Does that make me sound gay? I’m not gay, he’s my man!!!!! He’s the perfect man for me, seeing that my parents are as strict as a librarian during library hours….so yeah His name is Alexander Hayes but I call him Alex.. Yes we thought dating with similar names was fun until people called both of us by one name.....yes Alex was the name. Back to my unnecessary freaking out. I have to be ready for my date at 9pm, this is already 08:30PM and I'm still trying to decide between wearing a dress and a jean. Before you ask I'm not the type of girl who wears dresses , i think sweats are more comfortable and convenient. My boyfriend will be here in the next 30 minutes,that’s if he gets the correct map this time at least . Last time i checked he used the wrong location for everything which made him at least an hour late. so I hope he uses the wrong map again, fingers crossed. Or maybe there was no wrong map he just wanted to arrive a bit late to give me enough time to get dressed and ready to leave. At exactly 08:50pm my roommate gets back to the room and i feel a bit relaxed just before i see my screen light up. Yup..... he sent a text saying I'm outside. Like my night couldn't get any worse, i see my roommates boyfriend walk in shirtless. The boyfriend who happens to be my younger brother and I'm immediately disgusted by his face . I said nothing because my night was already long. So i put on my mascara, lip gloss and blush. Picked a bag and a pretty red dress i got for my birthday photoshoot a few months ago. I apply some sweet smelling body mist with a finishing of yara pink and I'm smelling perfect to step out. So I shut the door behind me because i know things are about to get messy in there. As usual he waits downstairs,with some flowers in his hands. He’s dressed in black…… his posture is perfect and he looks amazing. Lilies..... he knows how much i love Lilies so he brings them for every special day we have. On random days I get roses Preferably a mix of pink and white roses with chocolates on the side. So i smile and blush as i walk down the flight of stairs. Damn!!!!!!!!! I can smell him from up here I wonder what he tastes like right now. Focus Alexis focus focus He's your man Your only man!!!!! When i get down the stairs it's like I can't breathe His cologne is suffocating me,in a good way " He smells so good I can have him for supper right now" My thoughts wonder off into more inappropriate places like his jeans. [Alex] :"Perhaps a bouquet of sweet smelling flowers for the Mrs." He smirks as he holds out his hands for me to pick the flowers on my own. "Perhaps a good kiss too for my perfect gentleman ", I whisper, as I lean towards him for a kiss. I grab him by the collar and get on my tippy toes. I can feel his moist lips pressed against mine and godddddd how I love the taste of his lips. I only realized I was loosing it after I felt him smirk. His grip tightened on my back and i flinch a little. He doesn’t allow me to pull away even a single bit. Damn! I did it again !!!!!!!!!! Stupid slow girl !! I lost control without being undressed, Not only that……outside too. . So I quickly pull away immediately and fix the hair that fell in my face. Before I could finish, he pulls me back in for the kiss with his hand on my lower back, Just how I like it. I'm literally screaming. How masculine of him to make sure he messes up my hair and makeup but not the flowers. He finally decides to pull away. He looks straight into my eyes and I try to hold up a serious face but I accidentally let that tiny smile escape. So I grab my flowers and walk away so I could leave them in my room. [Alex]: "Hey princess, make sure you leave that attitude right next to the flowers on the bed or I might have to fix it very soon" I look back at him and stick out my tongue like a little child and I continue walking up the stairs. [Alex]: "oh and make sure you change your shoes too duckling", Shit.... I'm still in my comfortable house slippers, I'll have to put some heels on. So that explains why I didn't feel tall enough. So I finally reach my room and the door is open, So I assume my little brother is done banging my roommate. But then, that was either quick or I kissed Alex for a really long time. Anyway.... I push the door open and with so much regret, I shut my eyes immediately. Ewwwwww guys !!!!! I just saw my little brothers naked ass over my roommates naked ass. Naked asses everywhere I can’t even see clearly. I think I'm seeing stars now. I feel like throwing up too. So I yell "Ewwwww guys, have some decency for once in your lives and lock the door , it's enough that you two are dating please I don't want to see your forbidden fruits in my room!!!!!!" I didn't even finishing breathing out, My brother stands up and flashes his very huge d**k in my eyes and now I feel like I'm cursed and I swear I'll never unsee that Ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!