Wings of desire

She was laying in bed half- awake, looking straight at the ceiling in the semi-dark room. One hand was lazily playing with a lock of hair. The alarm hadn’t rung yet but, surprisingly she was already awake! “That’s new!” she thought! She had been so tired for so long that waking up so early in the morning was very uncommon for her! She slowly grabbed the phone from the nightstand to check the time. “5:45? Yes” she thought smiling! Finally one day when she didn’t had to rush up and around, getting the girls ready for school and kindergarten! She finally had a moment to enjoy a cup of coffee without running out the door! She turned her head around to the other side of the bed, now empty! Rob had left really early that morning to catch his flight . He and his business partner had a big meeting that morning with a potential client and wanted to be on time to be able to discuss the project agenda! She remembered him kissing her and telling her he loved her before he left! She heard him, she was awake, but did not tell him “ I love you” back! Over the past few years she rarely felt truthful saying those words, preferring instead to smile back and look away, pretending to be shy. In reality, everything that happened between her and Rob made her fall out of love with him a bit. Oh she still cared deeply about him and missed him and felt anxious when he was away on business, but it wasn’t that burning love and passion that brought them together in the beginning. That was long gone, and she preferred now to abandon her mind to the consuming affairs of love novels. And of lately, dreams! She was still thinking about the dream! THE dream! That damned dream that has been haunting her for months now! She closed her eyes for a moment trying to reminisce the exact moment she had awaken and maybe, just maybe, could fall back asleep and continue dreaming! In her mind she saw him again- dark, alluring, and oh God, so f*****g hot! Like one of the characters from the fantasy romance novels she usually devoured. The sexy strands of jet black hair, those amazing deep blue eyes, that chiseled jawline, those full lips kissing her, caressing her lips, her jaw, the line of her neck and down on her chest! She sighs and grabs the sheet that was covering her, throwing it away, feeling like she was suffocating! Her skin felt hot and her temples were pulsating. Her mind kept playing the scenes faster and faster to the point that she struggled to keep up with the narrative. It was always the same never ending narrative - he was towering over her, half naked, his dark jeans hanging low and opened on his hips, his chiseled tanned torso above her, one hand risen holding her hands captive while the other was digging into her hips, holding her, dragging her closer to him! His hot breath fanned over her breast and her n*****s hardened, his kisses were like molten lava over her body and her insides moistened. He raised his piercing blue eyes to look at her with hunger, panting, and with his free hand he snatched the elastic of her panties and dragged them down. Her breath became more erratic in her half- asleep state, trying to keep up with the dream. She touched her breast, squeezing them and bit her lower lip. “Please keep going” she thought. “ don’t go again, don’t leave me like this again”. In her mind, the man was pinning her down with his hands and under the intense gaze of his eyes she felt hypnotized. Every thought, every sensation faded away except for lust. A lust for love, to be adored, a hunger to feel wanted, to be devoured, a feeling that she knew only the man in her dream could extinguish! He looked at her and smiled a naughty, half sided little grin and then licked his lower lip. He bowed his head to go lower, kissing her flat abdomen and then she saw it again - the tattoo on his back that terrified and excited her in the same time, those two black angel wings that covered his entire back and looked almost real! The way he swayed on top of her made the wings look almost lifelike! She bit her lip and sighed, shifting into a more comfortable position, when the most annoying sound made her open her eyes! “Argh” she groaned in frustration opening her eyes and furiously tapped the snooze button on her phone! “ Damn! Damn you, you stupid little machine” She closed the alarm and let out a frustrated sigh! What time was it again? She checked the phone and her eyes widened. 6:45?! “ s**t!” She jumped out of the bed and ran to the bathroom! “ So much for not having to rush around “ she bitterly thought. She did her business and brushed her teeth and hair in record time! She internally hugged herself for laying out clothes for her and the girls the night before and after she got dressed, she hurried to wake the kids up too - her two beautiful little girls Allie and Carrie. After a lot of bargaining and lots of kisses the girls finally got up and ready for the day. While the girls ate their cereal she fixed herself a cup of coffee and took a sip, feeling better! Traffic was moderately busy but she got in time to school and kindergarten. Once again she was grateful for being self employed and not having to explain to some grumpy old boss why she was late every other day! She got to the office from where she and her husband ran the construction company they owned and sat down, taking a moment to breathe. Firing up the laptop, she reheated her coffee in the microwave and then got to work! It was Friday so today she only worked until 2 pm. The girls also finished early and they were scheduled to spend the weekend at their grandma’s house. She smiled! She loved the girls more than anything in the world, but sometimes she needed the time alone! Her to- do list was a mile long nightmare but thankfully she managed to get the most important stuff done before the week’s end. Nobody worked anymore after 12 on Fridays so she decided to take a longer lunch, get the groceries and go pick up the girls early. She would have time to leave them at grandmas and fix dinner before Rob came home! On the way to the car her phone rang. It was Rob. “Hello?” “Hi baby!” “ Hi! How is it going?” “ Great, we signed the deal! The contract is ours!” “That’s amazing! We need to celebrate! I’ll make something for dinner” “No baby, don’t worry about it! I’m taking you out tonight! The girls will be at your mom’s place this weekend, right?” “Yes, that’s right! Can’t wait! What time are you back?” “ We’re going to lunch with the clients and then catching the last flight back, so by 6 I’ll be home.” “ That’s good, you’ll have time to rest a little before we go! You’ve been up since 4!” “ Yeah, I’m not really that tired. I don’t know why!” “ Must be all the excitement! It’s a pretty big client!” “ Must be! Okay baby, I gotta go! See you later! I love you! Kiss the girls for me, will you?” “ Ok baby, I will! Love u too! Bye!” She hung up and sighed! The feeling of emptiness saying those three little words sank like a rock in her stomach, filling her with guilt! She quickly shook that off and got in the car, driving away! At least she didn’t have to bother shopping for food and cooking today! That was a relief! Half an hour later she was on her way to her mom’s house! When she pulled up her mom got out of the house to hug her and the girls, like always! Her mom had been her rock and her constant help, even if they have had their differences! She was the one person that she knew she could count on, no matter what! And she loved the girls more than anything, spoiling them rotten every chance she got! “Hi mom!” “ Hi darling, how are you?” Her mom gave her a tight hug, knowing that she needed it! “ I’m okay. You know, one day at the time” she answered with a half hearted smile! Her mum simply smiled back! She knew and she understood not to push for more information! Instead she turned her full attention toward the girls, asking them how their day was and if they were hungry. Ava got in the house listening to her mom happily chatting away with the girls, her own thoughts scrambled together. She felt a wave of anxiety crippling in but tried to push it away. If Rob were home he would’ve called her already, asking for help with a million stupid questions about the business or when she would be back home. He hated when she went to her mom’s house; he said that her mom would influence her against him, which was entirely untrue. Her mom only wanted her to be happy, and she knew that she wasn’t. She sat in the plush sofa scrolling aimlessly on her phone, half listening to the giggles and chatter that came from the kitchen. She smiled, her mom loved the girls so much! Unfortunately she was a workaholic and rarely got time off work just to relax, which was a thing Ava never understood! Her mother was a perpetual powerhouse while she barely scrambled to get out of bed every morning! Must’ve been her dad’s side of genetics, she thought with a dry smile! “Are you hungry baby?” Her mother asked. “I don’t know, not really! Actually I think I’m gonna go now! I still have a few things to prepare before Rob gets home!” “ Ok, then I’ll just pack some stuff for you. That way you can eat later and you won’t have to cook this weekend either!”, her mom said and winked at her! “ Oh Rob is coming back later this evening and we’re going to go out to dinner, but not having to cook this weekend sounds good!” Ava grinned and thanked her mom for making her life easier! She got ready to go, kissed the girls and made them promise to be good and listen to their grandmother, then hugged her mom, grabbed the bag and got into her car. On her way back she started to relax a bit. She plugged her phone to the car and put on Lose Control by Teddy Swims. She loved driving, and she especially loved driving her new car! She got it a few weeks back, when the bank approved the loan. It was a great deal, because she traded in her Volkswagen and got herself a brand new, red Mercedes Benz CLA 220 with only a couple of payments left. She loved it and driving it gave her such a rush! Getting a new Mercedes was on her priorities list for far too long and she was ecstatic that she finally got it! She pressed the pedal slightly more and smiled at the purring sound of the engine and the numbers on the speedometer that kept rising. Her adrenaline was rising and she loved the sensation, combined with the sensual music and the promise of a night out and s*x made her feel so free! 120…140…160km/h…she zoomed down the highway, the music blaring in the speakers and her mind getting drowned in thoughts, when she suddenly remembered him. The stranger in her dream, and how real it felt! She took a deep breath. It felt like she had seen him somewhere before but she shook her head. It was impossible for her to not remember ever meeting such a hot guy in person. But then again, she DID have such a lousy memory and often forgot things, which is why she wrote everything down! From her life goals, her daily to-do lists and grocery lists, to her passwords, important dates, everything worth remembering was noted in her calendar. She often joked that if she ever lost that calendar she would have no idea how to further function in life. She wrote down the first time she had the dream, it was last year, after Christmas, December 26th 2023. She and Rob had an argument during Christmas Day - something about him not being in the mood to celebrate Christmas with her family and friends and preferring to stay home, which happened every time they had to go at a gathering with her family- later that night she had dreamed about him for the first time! It started with her “ dreaming that she was sleeping “ then suddenly having a feeling that she was being watched! In her dream she opens her eyes to see a tall, dark stranger leaning against the wall with his arms crossed in the corner of her room, watching her, his amazing green eyes burning in the dark background. He gives a soft chuckle and takes a few steps towards her, while she rises on her elbows. He moves like a feline towards the foot of her bed where he stops and leans forward, grabbing the edge of it. Then, with a low, sexy and dark voice he asks her: “Hi baby, did you miss me?” She woke up that night panting, her skin burning and glistening with a thin sheen of sweat and wetness pooling between her legs. Her eyes quickly darted around the room, but only the flickering candle was moving, Rob snoring softly next to her and no sign of the stranger. She got up to splash some cold water on her face and checked the window and the door, but everything was locked. She brushed it off as it being a dream, but it left her feeling so horny and needy that she quietly took her vibrator, went to the bathroom, locked the door to block out the noise and m*********d until she came so hard she had to muffle her own sounds. The dream has since never stopped and it progressed slowly, but always with the same stranger and the same narrative! In the beginning she wouldn’t remember much of it, or specific details - like his face or things like that, but as it progressed, she remembered more and more, more details were coming through and every night the s****l act would go just a little bit further than the previous night, yet she had still to find out his name or to “actually “ have s*x with him. The thing that actually stuck to her was his eyes, his amazing, piercing blue eyes. But the outcome was the same - she woke up incredibly excited and horny every morning, dreading the alarm and never again feeling completely satisfied sexually. She and Rob used to have an amazing s*x life, it was one of the things that connected them so well in the beginning of their relationship. They fed off each others s****l energy and it made them open up completely. But that was a long time ago, and between kids and the huge amount of pressure that their job requires, that passion had to climb down their list of priorities. They still had great s*x, she thought, but she no longer desired Rob the way she used to. She craved something now, fresh and exciting, with a hint of danger and of course, someone who was really f*****g hot! Like book hot! Like the-man-in-her-dream hot! She left it a small chuckle thinking good luck on someone “actually “ existing that looks like that. Damn, that would have been a sight to se! She left out a shaky breath and tilted her head backwards on the headrest. She was feeling herself getting hot and bothered again. She peeked at the watch on the console display- almost 4 pm- she would have to hurry home and get ready for her and Robs night out. She huffed dejected and pushed the pedal once again.