Chapter 0: Ran Away
“The arrival of the unknown God was foretold by the ancient murals.”
“I’ve grown from a man to a God.”
Oh God.
Perhaps I'm the problem.
Silly me. This constant fear of making mistakes and becoming a disappointment has turned me perfect, too perfect.
Another hit.
"You're a disgrace! You always were, Ophelia! You have always been a problem since you were a kid. You never once made us proud like your sisters did. Why don't you be like your sisters! "
How many times have I been slapped in the last 30 minutes of an argument? One? Two? Or three? I laugh, holding back my tears so hard that my throat hurts and suffocates. I don't know what to do. I'm really, really tired. But I love my family. I really do.
"STOP!!!"
I'm sorry.
"You! You think I would have the nerve to take your girlfriend away from you? No way, dumbass! Not even a single strand of her hair! "
I'm sorry, my baby brother.
"The four of you! My four gorgeous and clever sisters, what is it about me that you are so insecure? Huh!? If you're insecure, then how about you try to dress up as a man and act tough despite being depressed! "
"Can't you even see it? I am always being compared to all of you, and it's already awful."
I'm sorry, my lovely sisters.
"Mom and Dad, how in the world are you still not proud of me? I'm already the top player, the president of the school, the top of the class, and even a champion in different contests. What else do I have to do just to make you notice me and be proud? You care more about money, reputation, and these four than me, who is known as the perfect child of the Angelus Family for being so fcking perfect at everything! "
God, I wish I didn't have to say this to them. I'm sorry, but I just can't take it anymore.
I grabbed my helmet and turned my back, letting the tears fall into my cheeks. Have I been this stupid? Pleasing everyone in this household despite being ignored, compared and abused. I've been working hard for them all this time, but how about for myself?
"Whatever I've done, I did it for this family." I said before leaving them behind.
I have to get away.
I have to leave this place immediately. I don't want to give in to them again.
Looking back at this big mansion where I grew up, it never once felt like home to me. This only adds up to the urge to leave this place and the unpleasant memories. I hopped on to my motorcycle and drove fast away from this nasty home. What's the point of living a luxurious life!? When you're surrounded by your very own toxic family members that will constantly judge and abuse you.
If only
If only I could have a sweet and loving family, I might still be able to face life.
I close my eyes slowly as a bright beam of light flashes out.
I don't care anymore. I just want to end everything and be at peace. Or maybe if there's another life, then let me live a better one.
