Alpha Kawan Wolleson

Chapter 4

It was strange to be in Kawan’s arms, no one has carried me like this before. Not even Liam, and at the thought of his name I felt tears come to my eyes, would I ever speak to him again? I knew why Kawan wanted to carry me, he thought I was too weak to carry myself.

I was tired so it was nice to not have to walk, I was emotionally tired as well. Today has drained me, I just wanted to sleep.

“You're tired.” He noted.

“I’m fine.” I yawned.

“Don’t lie to me.” He snapped at me. “If you're tired say so, no need to lie.”

I whimpered in fear, not looking at him. That only made him angrier. “Stop being afraid of me!” He growled out. His words shocked me, and I knew he could see it all over my face. “I know what others think of me, but you should know you don’t have to be scared I won’t hurt you.”

He set me down inside the house, I was about to look around the room. As Kawan turned on the light a ball of black fur jumped me, growling and licking my face. “Jasper! Jasper!” Kawan’s voice growled out.

“Jasper” turned out to be a black and tiger stripe pitbull. Werewolves could have pets most choose not to because cats don’t like dogs, and dogs don’t really like werewolves because of the alpha dog thing, but Jasper just sat at Kawan’s feet looking up at me. It was a surprise to see Kawan even own a pet, I really didn’t think he’d have a heart.

“Um . . . .” I muttered looking at the dog, his tail wagging as he looked at me.

“Jasper just showed up one day, he never left and no matter what I did he wouldn’t stop coming back.” Kawan explains.

“Hi boy,” I say looking at him. He takes that he could move closer to me, he licks my hands and I giggle. Kawan stares at the two of us for a moment before saying;

“Your tired Kerse. I’m putting you to bed.”

I look at him in fear, what did that mean? Did he want to mate with me? Tonight? My mother told me to wear sexy clothes under my dress, and had me waxed and smoothed down so I would look sexy for him if he wanted s*x. I wasn’t ready for s*x, but I was afraid of saying no also.

I looked around his place for a moment, it was simply too clean, black curtains hung over the window’s, tan couches that sorta matched the white walls, a tv in the middle of those couches. No pictures, no anything personal. It looked as if Kawan just used this place on weekends.

Kawan took me to his bedroom, it looked just like the living room, way too neat and no personal items. “I can’t.” I blurred it out.

“You can’t what?” Kawan asked me.

“I know . . . you might . . . .want to mate . . t-tonight b-b-but I can’t.” I stuttered. “I-I-m a virgin.”

“Your talking about s*x?” He asked me, my face reddens at the word. I nod at him. Not looking him in the face, I look at Jasper, and he seems to be staring at me, because he wags his tail at me.

I felt his hands under my chin making me look up at him. “Don’t look away.” He tells me. “I don’t want you to submit to me.”

“You're an Alpha.” I mutter to him.

“You are my mate. You do not have to submit to me.” He tells me. “I will mate with you when I choose you as my mate, and it is your job to please me and carry my children, but tonight you are tired. It will not do any good for you to fall asleep.”

His words sadden me, he acted so differently then what people said about him, but what he just said about it being my job to only please him and carry his babies, I knew that was all he wanted me to do. I shouldn’t have thought differently then what others have said.

“Go to sleep,” Kawan demands me. Leaving me in this bedroom I thought had been his. Leaving me also in a strange place so far from home. Jasper sits on the floor watching to see what I did. He didn’t fall after Kawan and Kawan didn’t call for him.

At the sounds of my cries Kawan came running into my room, I screamed when the door suddenly opened. Him standing in front of me, in just boxers. He looked annoyed, my things were thrown all over the floor. Jasper sat in my lap, as Kawan looked around the room.

When Kawan noticed that there wasn’t anything wrong from what he could see he crossed his arms over his chest. “What is the matter?”

“He’s not here.” I cried.

“Who?”

“Castiel,” I cried sobbing harder at the name. Kawan growled out his eyes going black, he stormed across the room grabbing me by my arms. Getting into my face he growled out;

“You. Are. Mine.”

I whimpered in fear, I was confused for a moment. But he started talking before I could explain. “How dare you speak of another man in front of me. You are mine, don’t think I don’t know about the mutt who tried to claim you after I already told my Beta to find you, be lucky my Beta didn’t kill him because if I was standing right there I would have killed the jackass.”

I sobbed harder, in fear and sadness, because now I knew I would never be able to see Liam again and now I knew he would kill any man I tried to speak to. I was scared of what Kawan will do. I never thought he would be aggressive. I whimpered in his hold, with every word he spoke he tightened his hold on my arms. I could also feel his claws came out, drawing blood. I cried out in pain. At this time Jasper started barking.

“Castiel is my teddy bear,” I whimpered in fear at what he would say now.

Kawan looked at me strangely like he couldn’t believe my words, I began to cry again my mom had been right. She told me Castiel would make my mate laugh at me and I would be embarrassed. I had hoped that I would be Liam’s mate so I packed him because Liam knew about Castiel. Now looking at Kawan I knew my mother was right and now Kawan was probably looking at me like I was stupid or a child.