Alpha Kawan Wolleson

Chapter 5

I waited for Kawan to start laughing at me but he just continued to look confused, I cried harder, I didn’t try to get out of Kawan’s hold even though my hands were becoming numb.

“Huh?” Kawan finally asked.

“Castiel is my teddy bear. My mom took him away from me because she thought I was too old for a teddy bear, but my dad gave me Castiel to me when I was younger, and I can’t sleep without him.” I rushed out not stopping to even breathe. Kawan let go of me, I almost fell to the floor not knowing my legs had given up on me until he let me go. He looked down at the blood on my arms but didn’t say anything about them even though he had given them to me.

“I’m sorry Alpha Wolleson but I need to go home,” I tell him, falling to the floor to pack my suitcase again. I had dumped everything out on the floor looking for Castiel. I knew he wouldn’t have been there but it didn’t stop me from looking.

“No!” Kawan growled, I flinched. I was after he’d grab me again.

“I-I c-ca-can’t-t” I sobbed in fear, I was scared. I stopped what I was doing and sobbed. I couldn’t sleep without Castiel. I couldn’t stand up for myself and now my mate was the cruelest Alpha around, and he could hurt me if he pleased.

“You're not allowed to leave me!” He shouted at me, I cried harder as his face turned red, and he stormed out of the room. I have never been yelled at before. I have never been so scared. I missed Liam and my parents and the quiet of my house. My parents were quiet people who only listened to the tv or sat and talked to each other. They worked a lot so they didn’t do much at the end of the day.

My sister was barely ever home, always out with friends, and I was with Liam most days. The front door slammed so hard it shook the house, I flinched at the sound. Jasper sat in my lap and licked my face, I just patted at him. Loving that I wasn’t alone at this moment.

Finally my tears ran out, and I stared up at the big window in my room. It was dark outside, and my head, and healing cuts hurt. My eyes I knew would be red and sore. I missed my mom and dad, my sister too.

I had finally curled up into a ball on the floor, before I sat up. Jasper sat up with me at my sudden need to get up. Was the front door locked? Were all the windows closed? I think to myself. That was another thing about me, I never felt safe.

I opened my bedroom door, Kawan had also slammed it shut when he left me sobbing on the floor like a pathice child. I really hated that he thought I was weak, I wanted just one person to believe in me, maybe that’s why Liam took so long to claim me. He didn’t want me because I was weak, and he just didn’t want me to leave so he was going to claim me.

I crept through the house, I didn’t know where Kawan would be sleeping but I didn’t want to see him again tonight, not if I could help it. I did my best to walk quietly. I looked around for windows first because I knew that wouldn’t take me as long as the front door did, the first open was closed. But I unlocked it and opened it, the cold air hit me, and gave me goosebumps. I closed it and locked it again. I did that twice before feeling slightly better.

I crept over to the other and did it again, there were three windows in all in the living room. I did the kitchen and the one by the front door before I unlocked the door, as I was locking it again Kawan’s voice scared the s**t out of me. I felt as if I could get a heart attack.

“You planning to murder me?” He asked.

“W-w-what?” I gasped out, putting my hand to my chest trying to slow my racing heart.

I couldn’t be bothered by the fact he caught me locking the door, I wondered how long he saw me.

“Well first you made sure all the windows were locked.” He comments. s**t so much for that. “And you're unlocking and locking the front door.” he had a glass in his hand. He took a drink. “I want to know if you're planning to kill me in my sleep.”

“Of course not,” I snapped annoyed. It was the first time I ever snapped at anyone.

He raised an eyebrow at me, it took me a moment to realize it was in surprise then it was in anger. “The name is Kawan, stop calling me Alpha Wolleson.”

“Sorry,” I muttered the fight leaving me, I sighed heavily and my eyes felt heavy.

“Kerse?”

“Yes?”

“Was the man who tried to claim you was he your boyfriend?”

“No, he was just my best friend.” I say. “I never had a boyfriend.”

“Good.” Kawan says. Not taking his eyes off of me. “Now, it’s time to get your ass into bed, it’s late and you're tired.”

“No!” I cried out. “I can not sleep without Castiel.”

“It’s just a stupid teddy bear,” Kawan snapped aggreively.

I did my best to not cry again, I cried enough for tonight or a lifetime. “I can’t,” I tell him. “He’s not just a bear to me.”

Kawan stood in front of me, looking at me I stared back holding back the tears, he sighed annoyed before stomping away. He opened a door somewhere in the house, my sharp hearing picked up, I could hear him moving things around before he stomped back to me. In his hands he held a gray looking teddy bear. It was smaller than Castiel, and he smelled of dust and sat on a shelf for years.

“His name is whatever you call him.” Kawan snapped at me. “Now, go to sleep Kerse you are tired, I’m tired, and I’m tired of playing games with you.”

I went to my room, I tried to sleep. It was hard the bear Kawan gave me didn’t sleep like home, didn’t remind me of home. It frankly didn’t help me at all with sleeping, and I kept getting up, and when I did Kawan did. It looked like it was going to be a longer night now.