My Cold Blooded Luna

LILY’s POV July 2000 I gingerly brushed my fingers against my pregnant belly. As much anxiety as I felt about this baby, I somehow felt comforted, something beautiful was coming. Alpha Luke was not my mate, and he definitely was aware of that, but to our parents status was far more important than love. All were under the impression that this baby was his, but I always had a sneaking suspicion that this was not true. My mate had found me a year after our wedding, and to say we are heartbroken that we can’t be together is a gross understatement. We had however, been sleeping together and sneaking off to hang out. While I had done a great job keeping it from Luke, I think he knew. We would all know when the baby was born based on its gender. Alpha wolves almost exclusively produce sons as first Born heirs. However, Ezra was not a regular male wolf or an alpha for that matter. He was a hybrid warlock/wolf with many abilities. His attempts to separate my husband and I safely had been in vain, he simply was not powerful enough. If this baby is his, that will quickly change. The female hybrids born to his family are a different breed, gifted with many special powers and abilities from childhood. His family was awaiting a special daughter though, one that would avenge his great grandmother. The moon goddess had promised them revenge on the wolves that took part in her mistreatment and untimely deathly of his great grandmother. She has been brutally assaulted and beaten by various men before they ultimately killed her. Her crime? Marrying a warlock. Despite them being destined, this was far too revolutionary in her time and they’d rather her be dead than have him as a mate. So, the moon goddess promised all first daughters after that would not only be strong hybrids, but would he alpha females- a rare feat. This also meant, first born children would be female/ I rolled over to face Luke who was sleeping peacefully in bed beside me. I had been feeling contractions for a few hours now, but I think it was almost time. I hesitated before reaching out to wake him. The moment my arm touched him he shot up and looked around the room before landing his eyes me. I groaned as a other wave of contractions racked through my body and his gaze softened slightly. “Is the baby coming?” He whispered, I offered only a nod. Without another word he lifted me bridal style, and began to carry me to the medical ward of the pack house. Luke had always been kind to me through our marriage, he wanted me to feel love even if we couldn’t be with our mates. He had, if nothing else, a great respect for me as his luna and his heirs mother. He planted a gentle kiss to my forehead and I wrapped my arms around his neck as we entered the delivery room. Sometimes I felt bad for my affair, as he always treated me kindly. Sometimes though I reminded myself that almost all of our relationship was a sham to make the pack believe we were stable and in love. I was laid on a bed, with my feet in some stirrups while doctors and nurses flanked me to the delivery room. “She’s already 8 centimeters” “Her blood pressure is pretty high” “Get me a baby monitor” voices began to ramble over each other as we approached the room. Luke was holding my hand the entire way. No sooner than the door to the room had shut, another grueling contraction hit and I screamed, squeezing his hand so tight I thought I actually saw him wince. That’s when I noticed something. The doctor standing between my legs was not the doctor, rather Ezra waiting to catch the baby. I knew better than to raise any alarm and began to push, ready for this pain to end. His laughed and smiled the moment I felt so the pressure release. A loud babies screaming pierced the now quiet room. Everyone stared in awe as he held up the baby for all to see. “It’s a girl!” He bellowed. Lilith’s POV *15 years ago* I sat in my little brothers room playing with his toy trains, he sat beside me playing with another train. We sat in comfortable silence as we rushed then around the tracks, occasionally getting a giggle or a “choo choo” from him. We often played together like this, I actually liked how peaceful and quiet playtime with him could be. Our other brother Liam was not so calm and quiet; he had broken many of my toys lately with his banter. Lucas on the other hand, was not average for his age. At four years old he should be social and playful. However, he barley speaks, and my dad seemed to think he was just too stupid to do so. My mom seemed to explicitly know this was not the case. I could tell something about him was special. My mom told me often that we were both special. For example, I had first been able to connect with my wolf, Astrid, at the age of six. Astrid had first started speaking to me during a rogue attack. I remembered being so scared in that moment , as rogues seemed to be everywhere I looked. I surely thought I would be unable to escape and would be kidnapped or worse. She was able to guide me out quickly taking control of my body, she was far more coordinated and agile than I am. I had not shifted yet, but she had given me heightened senses in the mean time and often would speak to me when I was upset. She also seemed very in-tune with others. She could warn me if someone was lying, and often could predict other people movements. Due to my impecable hearing, I could hear my parents whispering outside of his room, arguing about Lucas again. My mother told me that dad couldn’t know about Astrid yet, simply stating that he would take it worse than he did Lucas. I couldn’t bear the thought of more insults. My moms piercing blue eyes definitely told me he would be 6 feet under right now if looks could kill. My dads brown eyes just bore right back into her, but we all knew she wouldn’t be backing down to him, even if he was her Alpha. A luna could not and would not be commanded. Something always told me she didn’t really love my father, but I always was told they were fated, so I assumed she must love him at least a little bit. My dad was an overbearing and traditional man, with uptight views placing men as leaders and women as caregivers. Truly outdated of a view in my mothers eyes, she would never submit to that. Perhaps his views are why my little brother would take over the pack instead of me. At the tender age of 6 they had already began Liam’s alpha training. He was away with a group of other young alphas doing a survival retreat in another pack. I missed him dearly, even if he was a know-it-all..and breaks my toys. “You’re being too hard on him Luke. He is still a child! Your child”she emphasized Lucas being his, but it sounded like she was convincing herself too. He did not at all seem persuaded by this, and shot her a look. My dad definitely wishes Liam was his only son. He always had resented not only me, but Lucas even before we could talk or walk or show any potential. Liam was the golden child, I never really understood why besides being his eldest son. Growing up I’ve always been ignored, but at least I was never insulted. I doubt my mother would have allowed such a thing truly. I was her favorite, she always was sneaking me treats and taking me out to train herself. “You are letting him get away with it. No son of mine will be a antisocial freak!” He snapped. My mothers eyes widened at the word, and she slapped him so hard I’m sure the entire pack house could hear it. This wasn’t new, they had argued like this for almost two years now. I looked back to Lucas who was none the wiser of the altercation. My dad stood planted in place and watched my mother storm into Lucas’s room. “Let’s go Lilith, we need to prepare for your brothers homecoming tonight.” She whispered to me. I dared not to argue, we always had to dress nicely for pack events. My mother had always been the pride and joy of the pack in both emotional and aesthetic ways. How could she not be, her blue eyes were like an ocean and she had curly brown hair that fell to her waist. She looked kind and charming, not even a slight bit intimidating. Her voice was soft like honey, she always managed to soothe not only her children but the back when she spoke. As we went to leave I could sense my dad mind linking, causing me to focus. “Come to my sons room” rang my dads voice in my head. I had been getting better about tapping into the private mind links. I wondered who he had spoken to, but it didn’t take long to get my answer. His beta approached him and they began speaking so softly even I couldn’t hear them as we walked away. The last thing I saw before mom ushered me around a corner was his beta going into the room and my dad walking away. Something in my gut was screaming to go back and protect Lucas. Something was very wrong, my wolf began to stir, sensing the very same. I knew it was a bad idea to leave my mother, but I could not justify staying. I waited for her to follow her maids before I bolted back to my brothers room. I prayed I would have a few minutes before she noticed my disappearance. “Danger” my wolf kept repeating in my head, though she refused to elaborate. I suddenly felt it, a sharp pain in my right cheek and I stopped in my tracks. I wasn’t sure where it had come from but suddenly I knew what that sensation was. It was like I had been slapped, except I knew very well no one has touched me. The anger that followed was one I will never forget. My own maids soon chased after me to ask what was wrong and were met with eyes black as coal. They stopped in their tracks, obviously shocked and went to find my mother. I could feel the beta beating my brother, feeling the pain in my ribs and extremities. Then something my brother saw obviously struck fear in him, I could feel his terror. What followed was the brief pain of my bones snapping. I was shifting, I knew for sure. Everything after that was mostly a blur, I allowed my wolf to take control of our body. When we reached the room I could hear my brothers choked sobs and was faced with the beta standing over him screaming at him. Then my own blood ran cold, he was holding a knife up above his head, ready to plunge it into my baby brother.My wolf lunged at him without even hesitating, she was going to get that knife out of his hand immediately. The beta had been caught off guard and she was successful at throwing the knife across the floor and away. However, this was a powerful beta and he was able to push back at me a bit. While inexperienced, my wolf was already very powerful, the beta was exerting all his skills trying to get me off of him. He looked horrified. My wolf growled and lunged again, being angry now about being provoked. She was out for blood, he had certainly been making an attempt on Lucas’s life. My dad had just rounded the corner to the room when she lunged again. This time, she did not miss. She grabbed him by the throat and yanked it before he was able to shift. She landed over him and was heaving, her kill still in her mouth, bl**d dripping down her chin. There would be no more secrets with my father now. There he stood , like a deer in the headlights just horrified. My mother rounded the corner and the same looked crossed her face. “Is that..” she started only for just dad to confirm. “ Lilith” *10 years later* Lilith’s POV The pack had not discovered that it had been me to kill their beta, rather my dad passed it off that he died protecting Lucas from a rogue attack. This had left me angry and bitter for years. He was recognized as a hero rather than the monster who attacked my baby brother. His son had been my best friend for years now though, and I didn’t want to tell him either. A pant of guilt hit me when I thought back to Forrest, his only son and someone I considered a friend. I prayed he never discovered the truth. It was the day before my 18th birthday, and I was not too thrilled. It was decided by my father that his second born would take over as alpha rather than me. This decision was made solely on the basis that I was born a girl rather than a boy. I loved Liam to death and was happy for him, but I genuinely felt more qualified. My 16 year old brother was quite mature and smart, I knew he would be a wonderful leader, but the jealousy ate away at me. “You have something far more important to do” my wolf reassured me. I nodded, walking slowly to my dads office. I stopped before a mirror and looked at myself. I was very pale, with freckles crossing my face, shoulders, and arms. My hair fell in shoulder length brown waves and my blue eyes popped against everything else. I smiled softly at myself, and continued my walk. When I reached the office, I knocked and heard a few voices stop. “Come in” came my dads voice after a few seconds. I opened the door and stepped in. I was met with my dad were two men whom I didn’t recognize . An older blonde man stood in front of the desk, he turned and eyed me up and down, nodding slowly. The boy behind him sat in a chair, he looked up at me and smiled wickedly. I gulped and looked to my dad for help. “Lilith, this is Alpha James, and his son, future alpha Jackson.” He explained with a smile. “Hello Alpha James and Jackson” I greeted them quietly, keeping my tone devoid of emotions. James shot me a look, obviously not pleased with this greeting. “You should be nicer to your future father in law” he sneered. This elicited more of a reaction from me, I felt the color drain from my face and I looked at my dad who refuses to meet my gaze. I burst into laughter, assuming this was some kind of joke. “I’m not even 18 yet, we don’t know who my mate will be.” I finally responded, looking between the men. Alpha James looked at my dad and raised a brow. “You haven’t told her?” My dad looked up at me and bit his lip before speaking, “You will not be waiting for your mate Lilith, you are betrothed to Jackson.” My face paled, I shook my head and bolted out the door. There was no f**king way I was going with these guys. Something dawned on me, is this what happened to my mother? Is this why she had been so unhappy with my dad? There was no way this was real, it has to be a dream. My dad surely was not this much of a monster. However If he was willing to sell me off to a suitor, what else was he willing to do? What if he had asked his beta to kill Lucas? My racing thoughts were stopped when I ran into something hard, rather than something, someone. “Why are you chasing the princess?” Forrest “I am to be her husband” Was Jackson’s cold reply. “Like f*****g hell you are.” Forrest’s eyes were black; he was absolutely fuming. “Step aside.” Jacksons alpha voice shook the house, I stared between them, Forrest did not move aside. This was odd, only an alpha or Luna could ignore such a command. I felt faint but wanted to fight back. “I don’t want you” I spat “I’m waiting to meet my mate.” Tears were forming in my eyes but I refused to look weak and kept my voice even. “I’m afraid the deal is done Lilith.” My dads voice was cold, but he would not look at me. “Where is my mother?” Now I was the one who was cold. “She’s asleep, I’m afraid you’re leaving now and won’t be able to wake her.” This was a set up, and I was overwhelmed. Forrest suddenly went limp and I realized he had fallen to his knees. I noticed he had been pricked by a warrior behind him. “You can’t do this alpha.” He pleaded. A clock struck midnight in the back ground, it was my birthday. All the energy left me and began to plummet to the ground, I realized they had managed to prick my neck as I was distracted by Forrest.This was all too much. The last thing I remember was a warm comforting fragrance, and a single word, “Mate.” My win voice, but I heard someone else say it back, though I can’t remember who.