It took me a long time to stop with the crying. I never knew I could cry for that long. I didn’t know I had that many tear inside me.
It also took me a long time to start eating again and to start talking to people. I had completely shut down for a while. But I liked it that way.
Her funeral was three days later and my parents and I had decided that we were going to cremate her body.
For two reasons.
The first reason was because it was how our family did it. I personally didn’t want her young and perfect self to be underground, alone, in a cemetery.
The second reason was because my parents and I wanted her to always be beside us. Her ashes would sit in her room, next to her toys. We didn’t want to display the ashes in our living room, like some people did.
She was always shy with gue
