I can fight too

Chapter 6

"what the...." I jump out of the table and quickly pull out the earphones as I shout out the words because that was uncalled for!

"Karma is a b***h" I remind myself and try taking a deep breath to calm myself down.

everything is fine. It was just that your RINGING TONE WAS TOO HIGH AND YOU FORGOT TO PUT IT DOWN WHEN YOU USED YOUR EARPHONE!

"what happened? Are you okay?" Ryan rushed through the door as he tried to check the surroundings and check for danger.

"nope.. I am okay... It was just... this stupid call...that... that surprised me is all" am I shivering? I don't know but I sure and stammering.

Ryan looks at me once again and extends his arms as if to hug me and then take it back.

good choice!

I hate it when people touch me unnecessarily. So, I reward him with a smile to assure him that I am fine and also to express my gratitude.

"Well then, be careful next time." why is he being sweet now?

I look at his green eyes to assess his intention but I found none. I didn't even find pity there.

damn! he is good at covering his feelings.

"thanks again" I mumble as I look at the name flashing on my phone Benz.

I roll my eyes as I answer his call "What's up?" I growled

"Hey, are you okay? what happened?" now that's my bestie. 

I feel my mouth curving automatically when I hear the concern in his voice.

"Nothing, your phone call scared the hell out of me" I laugh as I try to ignore the assessing green eyes who is being rude enough to listen to a phone conversation.

"well, that's why I ask you to not get too deep into reading" I can literary see him shaking his head and smiling. 

"And I say that you are the best friend ever!" I reply as I smile broadly.

"so, are you coming tonight?" he asked skeptically and I know why.

"hey, I think I won't make it because I am still not done arranging the books. you guys enjoy" I whisper as I turn away from arrogant B(Ryan I mean).

"and why are you whispering?" He whispers back and this makes me laugh out loud and this moment makes me forget all the bad things that have happened till now.

"see you tomorrow Benz," I say as I put my phone on the table.

"so it's your best friend Benz?" why does he sound so serious? And I almost forgot that I had a company.

"well yes. Is there anything I can help you with?" I ask as I look at his green eyes to show him that I am not scared of him and I am not going to back down from a fight either.

"Yeah, I want you to tell me why you hate me" he folds his arms as he tries to intimidate me with his strength but I am not going to back down now.

"can we sit before we share that story? my neck hurts" I complain as calmly as possible because I don't want to end my day being sad and angry.

 I might be mistaken but I think I saw him smiling when I said that but I can't be sure because it disappeared too soon.

He sits down on the other side of the table facing me and looks at me pointedly.

"I thought we were sitting and talking?" he asks as he scoffs.

guess I am just taken aback by the way he listened to what I said. seems like no one wants to end their day being sad and angry.

"well, I didn't expect you to obey me too quickly" I retort and I can literally see his jaw clenching. But I don't care!

"sit" there goes the roar again. Arrogant B!

I take a deep breath and try to calm myself down as I take my seat.

"so? why do you hate me?" He repeated his question.

"who said I hate you?" I sassed back. 

"I know it when I am not wanted, Carrie" his words scream warning but I am not at all scared of him.

"well, I give back what I get so I guess it must have something to do with your arrogance Mr. Ryan" I try to use that motherly tone with him and I am sure that this will work with him too because it always works with other students.

" my arrogance?" he is now fuming and this makes me even happier. I found the faulty button for Ryan after all!

"well, the way you speak, it leaves no room for argument and your tone gets into my nerve!! The tone might work magic on others and you get what you want but it won't work on me. so basically, I have a problem with your attitude, tone, and arrogance" I didn't expect myself to sound so serious and calm at the same time but I did it anyway.

"Well this is me and you will have to deal with it" he shrugs as he looks at the window and it must have something to do with my eyes or something because I saw his jaw clench, I mean, he is not angry, he seems more hurt if that's even possible. But hey, I do know that everyone has their own battle and I am not going to judge. The look on his eyes though seems like he is longing for something and yet he can't get it. I noticed that he hides his emotions well and this makes me feel sorry for him too because I know what's it likes to not get love from the only parent you have, I know what it's like to have the world turned away from you and having to live alone. I know the feeling of crying myself to sleep because I don't have anyone that tried to protect me. I mean, Benz has a huge role in my happiness but he can't always be with me and there are some things that I haven't told him yet. 

"don't look at me like that!" He snaps as he bangs the table with force. Just when I thought he can be my friend.

"like what?" I question back at him as I grab my phone, earphone, book, and take my reading glasses off. Yes, you guessed it right, I hate this conversation and I don't think I can deal with him anymore. This is getting way more serious and I don't want that to happen. so I am going to run. Well, deal with it because, I am tired of fighting, and according to my experience, it is always better to run away from the problem and ignore it if that's possible.

"like you feel sorry for me. I don't need your sympathy and I don't want you to run away either!" he screams as he looks at me with a warning in his eyes. His eye color has turned a little dark and this is carrying the s**t out of me.

"I am not looking at you with pity. I never will because I know how it feels okay? and I am packing because it almost 9:00 PM and we have to leave. I would love it if you can keep your voice down too" I smile as I say the last word and pick up my bag to leave. I don't care that I will have to walk through the dark hallway alone. All I care for now is to avoid this guy and to get away from him.

" huff.... let me drop you home" he coos as he runs his hand through his perfect gold hair.

and what's up with this guy? one moment he is all heated up and fuming and the next he is calm and sweet. Is he having a mental disorder? Seems like I have to find out.

"sneakers! I asked you something" what?

Did he just call me "Sneakers?" like the running shoes? 

"Sneakers? What did I do to get that name?" I fired as I look him in the eyes and fold my hands.

"well, what can I say. Because you love running away from arguments and problems instead of dealing with it!"  he roars back as he clenches his jaw once again and his fists look like he is about to punch something or rather me?

"That's because angry people cannot do anything more than beating the hell out of whoever is in front of them and I have had enough share in my life!" I try to control the tears that are fighting to get out of my eyes. I cannot let him see me as vulnerable as I already am. He had seen me once and I am not going to show it again.

There is only silence and when I look at him, his eyes are softened and he is clenching his fists again as if to control himself from doing something that he would regret later. I don't have time to analyze his postures anyway. I have to get out of here and quick.

with that thought, I sprint towards the door but just as I am about to take my fifth step, I feel a strong grip on my right wrist and I know who it is so I just let him have his grip on me. I am really exhausted and I cannot deal with anymore fight today. So I do the only thing that I am good at; Pleading.

"Please, just take me home" I whisper and I hear him breathing quite heavily before he turns me towards him. I look at the wooden floor pretending to study the patterns but it's short-lived.

"look at me,  dear" how can one be so harsh and so sweet and calm at the same time?

I lift my head and look at his green eyes just to see them swirling with so many emotions. What can I say, when you have fewer people to interact with and share your time with, you naturally learn to study their actions. For me, I like reading their eyes because I feel that eyes reflect their souls.

"never run away like that. Ever again. Especially from me okay?" he whispers back at me as he looks me in the eyes and waits for my answer.

what can I say? I am too exhausted to think but I feel my head nodding on it won and this makes him smile and may I add that his smile is the best thing I have seen so far!.

"good girl" he smiles as he pats my head and leading me through the counter. Speaking of which, I don't see Kate anywhere. 

"My aunt had something that needed her attention and she had to head home early" he informs me as we get out of the library and wait for Benz to lock the library.

"Why didny you tell me earlier?" I mean, if I was the only one there, She should have at least informed me about it.

"well, I tried but you had to be a child and pretend that you didn't hear me talking to you...so I had to wait" he shrugs as he starts walking through the hallway.

" If you knew that I was the only one in the library you should have tried harder" I snap at him because I don't know what to think of all these events happening to me.

" well, I looked at you and you seemed to be enjoying what you were reading. so darling I didn't have the heart to disturb you" 

"you are so confusing, Ryan. Why are you so arrogant one moment and so sweet the next moment?" I blurt out because it's really confusing me and I would love to get an answer.

"that's who I am and like I said before, deal with it!" There goes this arrogant B again!

But I am exhausted and I miss my warm bed already so I will just have to stay quiet and save the fights.

"well, cat got your tongue little girl?" he jokes as he smirks at me before continuing his journey.

But I am not going to do anything because I am really tired mentally!

"let's just go home. I miss my bed" I pleaded as we walk through the gate and head towards the parking lot.

I hear him sighing and huffing before he opened the car door for me. I am not going to fight today so, I will let him do whatever.

"did you have dinner?" he mumbles as he starts the car.

I am hungry but more than food, I need rest.

"No, I will have something in the morning" I sigh as I close my eyes to take a small nap.

"you must be the only person on earth having dinner in the morning" he scoffs 

"I need to rest more than food. It has been an exhausting day" I fill him in as I continue closing my eyes.

"it won't even take 5 minutes to heat the meal and eat you know!" He suggests and I can hear the confusion in his voice. I am truly exhausted and I am not going to share about not getting any dinner from home. I mean, I rarely eat dinner at home. My mother is busy with her work and she fired the only maid last Saturday. I don't even know why.

seems like he got my message because he is quiet for about 3 minutes now. Thank god!

"We are here" He announces as he stops the car.

I open my eyes and it's not my house at all! This is a mansion and there are fountains in all directions, Branded cars, securities, and a garage that's as large as our basketball court.

"This is not my house!" I am trying to control my emotions, mostly fear right now.

"I know, It's mine" he smiles as he gets out of the car.

"so you have kidn*pped me?" I am now fuming

"why would I do that? I just wanted you to have dinner " he shrugs as he pulls my right hand and drags me inside the house.

" I didn't ask you to do that! I want to rest and not eat food!" I shout at him because really, that's all that I want to do right now.

"Okay okay.. spitfire, Calm down! I will cook and in the meantime, you can walk straight from here, climb the stairs, and head right. Open the second room and take a nap.

why is he so cool right now?

"I don't want to sleep in your room!" I retort back as I fold my arms and he is smiling again. Really?

"who said it's my room? That's a guest room dear. Just go and take a rest. I will call you when I get everything ready.

"This sounds okay. But don't you dare do anything funny with me while I am asleep" I warn as I turn away from him and head towards the guest room.