From Beta to Luna, an Alpha's love

Chapter 13: Beta or Luna?

Kyle

Sorry, the doctor said what? How can’t she connect with her wolf? How can’t she shift? That was bad news. Big bad news.

-Will she be able to shift again?

-Probably. What I can’t ell is when. She needs to recover from the trauma. Our animal side suffers even more.

Eleonor put her elbows on her knees and held her head. She was about to cry.

I sat next to her and put a hand on her shoulder.

-It’s okay. We will follow the doctor’s directions and you will feel yourself back.

She just nodded.

-Good – de doctor interrupted – I’ll leave you now. If you need anything just call.

-Thank you, doctor.

-You are welcome, Luna.

The doctor left and we were alone, me and my mate, on my bed. I could tell she was upset, but I didn’t know how to cheer her up.

-Ely… I never wanted you to suffer. I promise I will do everything I can to make you feel good, make you feel welcome, safe, healthy – She turned to look at me and I held her hand – make you feel at home.

-I’m going to need time Kyle. It’s hard to feel at home when you are kind of forced to be here…

Here we go again, I thought. Eleanor wasn’t going to give up. I can’t help but think she will run away when she feels better.

-The flowers were pretty, by the way, thank you – she said with a half-smile on her face

- Oh yeah, that… that was Claire. – I didn’t want to lie to her – but I’m glad you liked them.

- I see, you could have just lied and told me it was you.

-I’m not a liar, not to anyone, especially to you.

She smiled, I move some of her away from her face and y cupped it with both of my hands. I want to kiss her so bad but I don’t think it’s the time so y put my forehead against her.

-I won't rush things, I promise.

-Thank you.

-Is there anything you need?

-hmm – she thought for a minute -maybe some food?

-Sure baby. Oh! Sorry, too soon, right?

-Yeah, probably.

-Sorry, I’ll go downstairs and bring you some food.

I left the room why am I so stupid! Baby? really? I’ve never called that to someone before I thought to myself. I guess I couldn’t help but feel happy she was going to stay next to me the following weeks.

Eleanor

Kyle stayed 30 minutes downstairs till he came back.

-Hey, are you okay? – He asked. I guessed he notice the redness in my eyes and cheeks.

-Yes, I am. I just called Alpha Parker and I explained the situation. He is going to find another beta. Supposedly It’s going to be temporary if at the end I go back to The Blue Moon Pack. And he is going to find another Omega too.

-Well, he is not putting you under pressure at least.

-I know, he has been kind, but I know I should make a decision soon.

- Hey – he put some bags on the table next to his computer and got closer to me- now let’s focus on your wellbeing. Health comes first, okay.

I’m not going to lie, that comforted me. I didn’t expect he was so sweet and attentive. I just nodded and looked at the floor. I think I need a hug.

And as he could read my mind, he surrounded me with his arms. And I did the same. This feels so nice I said to myself.

-Thank you. - I said in a low voice.

-You are more than welcome.

We stayed like that for a minute. His essence is so good, fresh, virile, with touches of wood…Even if my wolf side was “missing” I could still feel him as my mate. It was so weird, I feel protected and cared for. I feel safe. When we meet and kiss in the forest the sensation I had was a different connection, it was more focused on flirt and lust. This is completely different.

But the growl coming from my belly interrupted the hug.

-Sorry – I said.

-You must be starving, look I didn’t know what you like or what do you fancy to eat so I ordered from different places, pizza, sushi, burger, and kebab.

-Oh! You should have. It’s very considerate, thank you.

I picked the sushi bento box and sat on the bed with Kyle who picked the burger. We went quiet a little bit, I didn’t want to speak with my full mouth and I also didn’t know what to say.

-Ely – Thank Goddess he had something to say – I know my relationship with your brother is not the best, but he can come whenever he wants, Like Sophie or any of your friends.

-Thank you, my brother is not in the best time of his life, so I don’t know if he would like to come. But I’ll ask Sophie.

- Whatever makes you happy.

The little bit I heard about Kyle as an Alpha was that he was cold, demanding, distant, dominant, and even cruel. Is the Kyle I’ve heard about the same that is sitting in front of me?

-Can I ask…what’s in your mind? – he asked curiously.

-It’s just… I don’t know how to say it, or if it says it or not.

-Go ahead.

-Well, before I met you, I didn’t head about you too much. But what I’ve heard is that you were a distant, dominant, and cold Alpha…

-So?

-You don’t look like that. At least now.

-Well, because I’m not going to be like that with you. Am I cold and distant? I guess I can look like that. I don’t want to look like I’m a weak Alpha. We once looked like a weak pack that can be taken. That is not going to happen again. Not as long as I’m Alpha. Am I dominant? Yeah, I’m an Alpha, after all, I want things to be done as I asked, because I always want what is best for my pack and family.

- I understand that.

-It’s funny, the little bit I know you are similar to what I read about you.

- You read about me?

-Not before I met you, but after that, yeah. I asked for news, reports, documents about you. Even when I was in the Blue Moon Pack.

-And how I am? You are committed to your pack, you care about them. You are close, but you are also dominant, strong, and fierce.

-That’s what you’ve read about me?

-And also, what I’ve seen.

-You beat Josh in the arena, you face that stupid beta and his Alpha, What was his name, River?

-Yeah…

-You raised your voice with me and kicked me out of your pack, you suspended your brother as an omega, and you put your health in danger so you wouldn’t leave your pack alone.

-I think that’s more stubbornness than commitment.

-Maybe. But I would be happy and relive if my pack has Luna like you.

I went quiet and looked at the soy sauce.

-Beta and Luna aren’t the same role.

-No, you are right. A Luna needs to be stronger.

I looked at him confused.

-Not physically but yes emotionally. The Alpha may look like he shares the weight of the pack with his Beta, Omega, and the rest of the counselors. But he does it with his Luna. An Alpha listens to the advice others may give him, but he will pay true attention to the advice his Luna gives him. A pack needs an Alpha, but an Alpha needs his Luna. So, to sum up, what the pack truly needs is a Luna.

I was paying attention to every word he was saying. It’s like he has been thinking about this all his life. As an Alpha, he knew for sure the role he had to play. But he also knew what he needs, and the weakness of an Alpha.

-That day, in the forest with you. I marked you because I lost control. I lost control as a male who finds his mate. But I also lost control as an alpha who finds the perfect Luna for his pack.

-You don’t know me that well to know that.

-I trust the moon goddess. I trust my instinct. I trust the potential that I see in you. Everyone always said that I would end up with a delicate and calm Luna to make up for my personality, but I’m glad you are a fighter.

-Thanks. But I’m not that good. A good Luna would have accepted her mate the minute she knew she was destined to play that role.

-You didn’t reject me either.

-I pushed you away.

-I made a mistake too.

I touched my mark, it still burns like a recent burn, and hurts like a massive bruise. And my wolf…gosh for a few minutes I forgot about that. Will I be the same again? If I lost my wolf forever, I will never be able to be a Luna or a Beta. When I exile Kyle from the Blue Moon Pack was because I needed time to think, I needed time to make a decision. But maybe by doing that I passively made one. Not be any of those options, be just a human.

The thought of that terrifies me.