Cursed by his Love (Completed)

Chapter 11

‘If the world is going to end in the next few minutes, and What do you wish to do?’, I asked him just to break the long silence, while we were walking.

He smiled, ‘I don’t know’

‘You don’t wish for anything?’

‘I already have everything’, he shrugged.

‘Oh’, I said turning my lips because I was expecting a coy answer from him.

‘What do you wish for?’, he asked me.

I did not answer at first, after a moment of silence, ‘Do you remember what I said yesterday?’

He gazed at me after hearing this, narrowed his eyes, and I knew he understood, what I was talking about. But still, his face was emotionless. I was expecting him to answer but there was only silence. He blinked and looked down as if he was thinking something so hard.

I did not have any idea what he was thinking, or maybe he was pretending that he did not understand because he did not like me, or he did not want to. I could not bear his silence and felt embarrassed for a moment.

I was worried a bit seeing him, ‘yeah’, after a long silence he said.

Suddenly it started thundering and the weather had changed as if it was going to rain soon. So, we both turned back and started walking, then it started raining heavily within two minutes and we both were still far away from the villa. It was just trees and gray clouds all around us. due to the rain and fog, we could not see the path of the villa properly.

I was a little scared of that sudden change in the environment and the view, so, I held his hand out of fear. He held my wrist and took me to the house in the rain. We both almost soaked completely.

As soon as we entered the house, he saw my face where a few raindrops were dripping. He slowly moved near to me and touched my cheek with his thumb, he moved his finger to my lips from left to right. He stared at my face like something was fascinating to him and was reading my eyes. I could not bear the nervousness as he was gazing at me. I felt so shy and could not even breathe properly and I licked my lips and exhaled slowly.

He slammed his lips on mine, he kissed me almost savagely. I was fully happy and even got tears of joy. Usually, I would cast a glance at him and look away but that moment I too looked at him ignoring my shyness. The room was so cold, I was shivering before. But at that moment, I felt so hot and was sweating all over inside. He lifted me and carried me to the bed until he puts me on it.

He looked at tenderly which made my whole body trembled, ‘Are you sure, you want to do this?’, he asked me as he was looking at my eyes so deeply.

What a silly question? I was dreaming for this moment on my entire teenage, I moved closer to his ears and said yes in a husky voice and kissed his below tip of the ear.

My heart started to beat so fast because I had never done any such coy thing ever. His body was so near to me, he can no more come nearer any further. He started removing my clothes one by one, I was completely surrendered to him. Finally, I was wearing only my undergarments.

He lifted me up, holding my waist, he was still standing next to the cot, pulling up his black t-shirt and I did not know what I should do, Should I kiss him? or should I lick his neck or his body? should I remove his pants, I was so naïve, stayed idle, and nervous as well.

I had kneeled on the bed, he kissed me all over my face and neck gently. I could feel his tongue everywhere. He looked more attractive in topless. His masculine body exposed enough to make me afraid of his roughness, although I did not stop him. I want that moment to never end. We both kissed each other again and again as we both letting go of something that was bothering us.

I lied on my back and he was on top of me, I thought, ‘Am I really doing this? Jesus would never forgive me. I will go to hell for this premarital s*x’, but I did not resist him. He unhooked my bra and removed my panty. I was completely naked in front of a man. I wondered what I was doing but whatever it is I just feel so good.

He fondled my breast with his fingers. Before even I process the tickling, he put my left breast into his mouth and kissed for a long time until I groaned, which actually distracted him. He lowered his cold hand from my waist to my thighs which made me got goosebumps and slowly moved my both legs apart.

He did not stop looking at me which really made me feel so embarrassed and I looked away, but I did not want him to stop looking at me.

He tried to enter into me, which was a little painful since that was my first time. He gave a sudden look of gaze, narrowed his eyes, and asked me, ‘Are you virgin?’. Yes, I was but I refused to admit it, ‘No’, I snapped. But he smirked, kissed me, bit my collarbone and I knew for sure he found that I was lying about it.

He was completely into me, he started slowly, probably he was giving me a time to get used to the first pain. He stroked me so hard when he was on high and no one ever told me s*x would give you this much pleasure. I closed my eyes and feeling him inside me. He took my face in both hands and kissed me.

‘You okay?’, he asked.

I nodded slightly with a sigh of relief.

I was lying on his arm. We both were staring at the chandelier hanging from the ceiling. I smiled at thinking of the wrong kidnap and here I was, lying next to the kidnapper, naked. I was still curious how did he find out that I was a virgin.

‘How did you find it?’

‘find what?’

‘that I was a virgin’

‘I know’

‘So, you had many girlfriends?’

‘maybe’

‘How many?’

A long silence.

I guessed he might be sleepy, so I stopped mocking him with my questions. I was thinking and chuckling about the s*x and the kidnap for a long time until I slept later that night.

At midnight, I was startled by a sound, woke up. Frank was not in bed and then I hold a blanket around me and went out of the room. Frank was speaking to someone on the phone sitting on the couch in the living room.

I was on the stairs and overheard, ‘No Jason, no. This is dangerous. Let’s not do that.’

‘but, what about others?’

‘Do you think, they will leave us alive?’

‘Listen to me, taking all the money and running away is not that easy as you say. If we did so, we have to run for our lives every single day after that’

‘This is really not a good idea. Let’s plan something else’

‘bye, I’ll call you later’

I could understand something was not right, he and his friend, maybe one of the goons in the Super Lilly’s gang were planning to run after taking some money. I was so miserable. He did not even think about me. What will I do? Where will I go if he runs away? I was totally sad after hearing this. I realized he just used me. I realized he did not love me.

I want to go downstairs, slap him, and shout at him. But instead, I calmed myself down and went to bed. There was no way I could make him get rid of this Mafia and crime stuff. I just lost hope and shed tears on my pillow.

The next day morning, he noticed my gloomy face, he touched my forehead and asked, ‘Are you okay?’

‘Yeah’

‘You don’t seem well’

‘Can I ask you something?’

‘yeah’, he gave a confused look.

‘Have you ever dreamt of marrying me and having kids or we became a family and living in a house together?’

After a moment of silence, ‘No’

‘Can we go home?’

‘You said you want to stay?’

‘No, I am not feeling well. Let’s go home’, as I said this tiredly and turned around to start packing my things.

He abruptly held my arm, so tightly which was really paining, ‘what’s wrong?’, he was staring at so coldly.

I lowered my eyelids, and said, ‘I overheard, you speaking to someone about running away when you were speaking on phone last night. I didn’t mean to. I was looking for you and heard that’

He exhaled strongly, I could smell the cigarettes, he gripped my arm more tightly, he gritted his teeth, ‘I am not going anywhere. Anywhere without you’. He told me this eye to eye as he really means it. Did he really mean it? Or just pretending?

He never said he loves me. Most of the time, I felt like a chick whom he would just have s*x whenever he wants.

‘I am just a slut whom you would just hook up with, right?’

I should have not said that. I know this would hurt him, but I was more afraid of losing him.

He slapped me as soon as he heard this before even I figured it out what was happening, he kissed me vigorously.