Their Switched Wolves

Will we be together?

Kayla POV

Since yesterday, I have been locked in my room or on scheduled outings to avoid meeting Lucas.

Let´s say it is not easy. This is his house. I can smell him everywhere. Luca´s smell of mint and cardamon invades my five senses, taking me to another dimension. I want to touch him and feel the touch, feel the peace it gives me, the pain it soothes. I want to smell and lose myself in the scent, trail it until I find him. I want to see Lucas and memorize every detail of his body. I want to hear his voice and let it soothe my insides.

He can take us and show us what heaven is. Go and f**k him! Mia asked, in her harsh words.

But I know I can't...he's not mine, even though every cell in my body is screaming that he is. He belongs to Alice. This is mate bond talking, and of course, Mia.

Being without them is hard. The strong connection between Mia and Aric, makes me feel as if I were torn between two men, Lucas and Leon. It´s like loving one, but all my body wants the other one. This is not something I feel is right. I feel guilty for feeling the way I do. Like I am committing a sin.

Please Moon Goddess, help me, help me resist Lucas and avoid this desire, this lust, needing him. I already have a mate, let me find him. I pray with all my energy!

Not knowing if Leon's alive or dead is worse than the doubt of not knowing. I don´t want to forget his sandalwood and cinnamon scent. I miss his kind words, how he would tell me how his day was, how I would hug him and smell his hair. How he would sit me in his lap and kiss me... I can't wait for this nightmare to be over.

Yesterday, when we were at Melanie's house, I was lost in Luca´s touch. It was hard to break the enchantment and remember who i am and who i belonged to. Lucas is a really handsome werewolf. He is 23 years old, he's tall, with a perfect muscular body, dark brown hair, brown eyes, almost black. His aura exudes power, it´s a dominant one, perhaps one of the most powerful Alphas I've ever met. He has, however, another side that is funny, carefree, and always worried about the ones around him. But he is not Leon, and feeling this is like betraying Leon, it´s hard and against my beliefs.

This morning I walked around the Pack, as Lucas was busy with his Alpha responsibilities in his office.

During my tour, I met several members of the Pack. They all radiated health and looked like they were eating well, even the omegas. There were no signs of fear or violence. I was glad to know this Pack has good leadership principles and the relationships among the members are healthy. This warms my heart and makes me admire Lucas more.

In the garden, I found some kids playing. I stopped because I wanted to watch them. I love children. I joined and tried to play it too. They were in role-playing games, and all of them had the role of Alpha Lucas because they chose it. He was their idol. Some were mimicking their idol as a great warrior. Another one, a pup around 6 years old, was representing Lucas as an Alpha who helps the weakest. This child told how Lucas saved his family, who were rogues at the time, from an attack, and received them in his Pack to protect them. The children see in him an example to follow, and the most curious thing is that all of them had stories to tell about situations in which they had actually been with him in person. It seems Lucas is an Alpha who is close to the members and respects them. He is not someone who appears only on magazine covers, he is a current leader, visiting them, and joining them in their activities.

Through the window, I can see him. Right now he is sparring with Smith. He is really a great warrior. I can see how he is powerful and strong. Lucas won!

You have to accept him! He is perfect! Don't ruin it, stupid girl, Mia complains. She is hard to deal with. She is always complaining about everything. I wonder if she was like this with Alice too. Maybe I'll ask her later.

Alice went by train too. I sense some discomfort between us, but I have dodged talking about it. Mia was upset because she wanted to go too. She told me how she loves to spar and how she is good at it. It was the first time Mia spoke without venom in her voice, but it didn´t last though.

Alice is perfect for Lucas! Your friend must hurry up and get us an antidote. The annoying wolf I have with me is always punching my mind with her demands. I wonder how Thea is dealing with Alice.

Thea is different from Mia. Thea is thoughtful and polite. Thea is also impulsive, like the alpha that she is. She also doesn't like to be contradicted. But Thea has some assertiveness, unlike Mia. Thea cares about others, she wants to protect them, maybe more than herself.

Mia is decided, strong, and sure of herself, but she is giving me hell. I decided to give the silent treatment to Mia. I can´t have her fighting me all the time. We need to reach some kind of agreement. Either she starts moderating her speech or I won't answer her. It's a drastic measure but really necessary. Mia doesn't respect me and I'd rather ignore her than argue with her. It´s insane having her with me, it´s like having the devil inside my brain eating all my patience.

I actually tried to negotiate with her, let her go running, as long as she didn't go looking for Lucas. Instead of accepting, she said she would strangle my mind until I was so weak and unable to resist. That´s when i decided to ignore her. I don´t want to block her every time, i need to coexist with her.

Alice is now sparring with Lucas, in their human form. I can see how strong and capable she is. I really admire her warrior mind and how she defends herself. Me, I've learned to defend myself, but actually fighting is something I don't enjoy much. I prefer to achieve goals through negotiation. I´m more into mind games than war games.

I can see how she looks at Lucas and how their bodies are pressing against each other. I know he belongs to her and I'm glad she has the opportunity to get close to him. Maybe she can get him to feel love for her. Maybe he can learn how to love her without a mate bond.

I closed the curtain. Hoping they will be happy is one thing, but seeing them like this is another... I try to push away the thoughts of possession and jealousy that have begun to arise. My heart clenches.

I pick up a book which Lucas brought to help me pass the time. The book still has his scent and I inhale it, bringing the book closer to my nose.

He is ours. You are happy to smell a book when you can have the whole package. Dumb!

I ignored Mia, opened the cover and started reading aloud. I read for about an hour. When I decided to close the book, it was a romance, the love story of Anna and Karl. The book was amazing.

Do you think Anna and Karl will be together? Mia surprises me, she seems to have been paying attention to the story.

I decided to answer. I´m feeling happy because she reached me and didn´t insult me or ask anything. I think so. If the story is about them, they probably will.

But they've already suffered so much. Mia says sadly

Yeah, sometimes we all have to go through negative things to be able to appreciate the good things we have. I even want to believe this.

Kayla, do you think Aric and I will ever be together? Mia is suffering, just like Alice and me. I know it.

I could tell her everything was going to be OK. I wanted to promise, but I couldn´t. I don´t know what awaits us. I hope so, Mia. I tell her with all my honesty.

I don't trust you. Mia says in a sad voice.

You should, I want everything to work out just as much as you do. I told her, trying to make her trust me.

The phone is ringing. Who could it be? I wondered about walking to answer it.