Kayla POV
I closed the bedroom door and leaned my back against it, sighing deeply.
In just over 24 hours, my life has changed drastically. What's sad is that, right now, it's not just my life is a mess, but Alice's life too.
I don't even know how to resist Lucas' intoxicating scent. My connection to Mia would make me feel the mate bond to the fullest. I just don´t feel it all now, because Mia is still weak.
Mate bond is something unique to Werewolves. Vampires have their soul mates. Humans have love, but Werewolves have mate bonds, which means each of us has someone destined to them, by the Moon Goddess, the other part of themselves.
This is a characteristic of wolves, it is a bond that is born with them. If a werewolf, for some reason, doesn't have his own wolf, he won't feel the mate bond either.
I recognized Lucas as my mate, but he's actually not mine, it's Alice's because our wolves swapped... Lucky for me, Mia is still weak, so the mate bond is not working fully. Today I was able to resist it. Tomorrow I don't know if I will. And I can't do that. I can not accept him as my mate. I would be betraying Alice and also Leon, who I love deeply...
"Kayla..." I hear Alice muttering...
"Alice, please, not today... Let's rest. We can talk about this when we wake up." I actually don't think I have the emotional capacity to deal with this now. I need to sleep and think about this clearly.
"Okay." I heard Alice's sad voice answering and my heart is so tight hearing it... I feel like crying but I don't have any more tears and much less energy to do it.
When I woke up, I wanted to believe that it all had been a nightmare. Watching Alice's face suddenly pulled me back to reality.
We were dressing in silence, none of us said anything. When we were ready, we sat on the bed, facing each other. Each one of us was clinging to a pillow.
"I'm going to reject him, Alice," I told her with determination. I'm sorry about Mia, I really am…but I can't be with someone else right now.
“Please, please… don´t reject him!” Alice pleaded to me.
"So you want me to accept him? To accept a mate that is not mine? I already have one!" I reminded her that I have MY mate.
"Let's find a way to reverse this, please! We have to find someone able to help us!" Her pained voice hurts me, but I won´t be able to resist the mate bond. Hope is a positive emotion, but believing too much in such a thing is a huge risk... I really hope... but is it possible? To reverse?
"Alice, are you out of your mind? How do you want me to resist? How is an Alpha going to accept not touching his mate? How about heat?“ I almost screamed at her… This is all insane… How can she ask me this? If I fail, I will betray us all.
"Kayla, please! You have to tell him! He might help us. Please!”
"And you think he'll believe it? I had a hard time believing it, imagine him!”
"He's my mate! Don't take my fated mate, please. I begged you! Please, Kayla!”
If I feel Lucas... can Alice feel the mate bond with Leon? I wonder now as I think of it.
"Can you ask Thea if she feels my bond with Leon?” My voice has some hope now.
Thea says that she can't feel the bond… but she says she doesn't feel the pain of losing her Mate either. Thea thinks Leon is alive. Some relief, my lips twitch in a low smile…
Damn! Relief? If you find him, he'll be linked to Alice! The bitter Mia who overcomes my block kindly informs me. Take me to my mate. Maybe he can help you, and don't you dare reject him! Mia orders me, like she owns me. What a delusional wolf!
"Alice, let's have breakfast then and talk to Lu... Alpha Lucas." I managed to agree with them... i can understand them, because i know how it feels, and in fact i need Alice too. I need to find Leon.
We're in Lucas's office now, with his Beta Smith, who I invited to join in the conversation, and Jacob, who stuck in and Lucas allowed. I invited Beta Smith, because I wanted him to help me control Lucas, if necessary. Or so I hope.
Alice told them everything, since I didn't want to go throw it all over again.
Beta Smith had to sit on the couch to recover from the shock.
Lucas almost shifted twice. To calm him down, I had to put my hand on his forearm, calmly asking him to breathe. I know how the bond works and used it in my favor.
At this moment, I still have my hand on his arm and Lucas is communicating with his wolf and sending mindlinks to someone.
"AHAHAHAHAHA” Jacob's laugh surprised everyone. This is not fun! How can someone laugh after hearing all this??? Just a heartless one.
“You’re kidding, right?” He asks finally, to both of us. Roaming his eyes between me and Alice.
My and Alice's voices almost came out at the same time. "No!".
The laughter faded but a mischievous smile emerged. How irritating this man is, I thought to myself, ready to punch him hard and remove that smile.
" How lucky of you, my brother! You won not one but two shewolves. You've got a wolf in one and a human in the other. The dream of every man!” Jacob said and my jaw dropped in disgust.
Mia growled loudly and Alice opened her eyes, with a look that would kill if she could.
“Shut the f**k off!” Lucas yelled. His voice echoes in the office and I think in all Pack too.
“I have to go for a run!” Lucas said as he left the room, leaving us all in silence.