DIARY OF TWO LOVERS

OCEAN EMOTIONS SPROUT

It has been there years that Ocean and Shelly started their friendship, wherefore, they are in 300L in Dwarka university. Maybe not a thing modified rather than the river of friendship they swum in without aversion for years but, for Ocean, it was no routine friendship neither does he acknowledge it oweing to the fact that his emotion arouse.

Sometimes Ocean would be on isolation to conclude on the game to play because his emotion could be misfortune or yield effective. It is unpleasant but he admit the friendship above every little thing which means to jettision everything, he’s not ready for such. This go ahead for succinct time then he come to conclusion to free his mind to the one he selected.

Days after Shelly went to Ocean apartment for the usual visit, to gist, cook if needed to. Later the long dialogue and amusement, Ocean could play along but his heart won’t continue to put it into dark. He have to speak it out, whatever he thinks and wants. He make path for his throat, he was ready to talk with courage. “It won’t and doesn’t go with his plans”. he has no knowingness of what to say, that was his first time in such circumstances. Anyway, he pull together his, faculty, courage and whole lot he could use to split sense out from his heart. “yes, the talk could worth an applause but it doesn’t”, his voice shakes and the talk won’t be considered. It never happened, “the talk” because Shelly won’t try to convince his innocent heart to take heed to her response.

“I have a boyfriend, fiance I meant. I can’t give all away because of you………He stays somewhere far to this place, another town though,” Shelly responded.

“Shelly, just stop the drama, you’d never give talk about him yet we had varies of discussions. This is not a trap for you but it’s what the heart wants and think it is correct. Please Shelly don’t turn this down, I really love you,” Ocean begged earnestly.

. Shelly couldn’t aid it, she has no feelings for Ocean. Even if he is sick emotionally over this talk, Shelly won’t consider him instead the conservation seems like drama and one more thing, “comedy”. They were together till dusk in Ocean room, there was not much chattings after Ocean heart was stoned. “He should be moody and disenchanted”, but he would be considered as a feeble being to respond to the disgusting incident. He was a man but, “emotions surpass gender and title”.

How would I sleep tonight? That was Ocean thought all through, why? He is continually sick emotionally, ounce his heart it sent out for free he dearth control over it when if yield uneffective. Now shelly disregard his proposal, he feels severe pain like the world would be vanished on the instant.

Now both of them are mute so Shelly go over her messages on f*******:, to reply a hundred and thousand messages and disremembered one being stays beside her who beseech for compassion to give efficacious answer to his request.

Later some minutes, “I would be on my way home” Shelly tells Ocean.

She stood to find her way out. Ocean won’t escort her due to the happening, Shelly knows as well, the aftereffects of what she did. Both of them won’t be real and free, Ocean affirm to give her a call before it is black. Shelly use the door later the goodbye wave to Ocean which is strange.

Before this time, Ocean would escort her on every visits at least for lot of minutes. Now the friendship isn’t firm, “it could burst or hold”. That was Ocean greatest terror, the relationship and friendship, he wished to make effective one of them without ending.

Ocean laid on the bed pondering why he was rejected. “Am I not handsome?” He asked himself a hundred and thousand questions, he could think not a thing. For the whole day he stayed in his room and went late to bed at night.Though he took the oath but he never called Shelly before he slept off.

Ocean was no novice again, he has Shelly as his first girl notwithstanding that he was abjured. Ocean speaks same thing each time there was a convocation but Shelly was stubborn to it. She won’t talk again, her being the reigning princess, she would do anonymous things to guys when elevation talks about her beauty in the campus. She was one of top beauteous around the school. This get ahead between them until they went on a month break.

During the break when everyone went home, Ocean still reverence and expect gladen outcome from Shelly. He talks about it, on f*******: together with countless calls but not a thing modified. Even if it is destined, many times we longed for what we can’t have, we still believes with time, commitment and hardworking we could come to have every little things our hearts desires.

“That was human instinct who stays to hope and die without the accomplishment of what he hoped for”

He confide on himself and his tactics, with time Shelly will be his own lonely. “But many times we are meant to perceive one another which the impact to our lives are differ to what we claimed to be right”. For weeks Ocean lived on this fact but he won’t disturb Shelly like he persistently does, that way he won’t lose her to be the loser.

Months after, he was weary to follow his heart, “his instinct lied because it guessed”. He feels the relationship won’t be of much benefit than agony so he hoped Shelly would be the best friend of all time.

“Shelly won’t be mine” Ocean's remarks each time he comes to remember Shelly.

Now the world knows both of them are not made to domicile under a roof. “Just friends and nothing more”. Ocean would concede than swimming in the pool of relationship which could be ambiguous. This great strive of Ocean never moved Shelly to take every little thing solemnly. Despite the fact that the gate of hearth was shut to discern to the friendship and beshield it.

Ocean doesn’t change, he go on with his deeds and trail after what he cares for, to shield them all.