The past and present

May 22nd 1:45 pm Hi, my name is Alyssa! I'm 17 and right now it's just my mom and I. It's been like that for awhile now. My father left when I was 5. I never really knew him as much, but that's okay. He still sends me birthday cards and tells me how he's doing, just wishing he could be here physically, but that's okay because I have my mom. My mom's name is Jess and she's 32. She's old, but everyone swears she's young. My mom sometimes spaces out in the middle of a conversation and then forgets what I say. That's why I call her old, but anyway, tomorrow is my 18th birthday. I'm really excited, but at the same time I'm a little worried. My mom's been excited about my birthday. She might be more excited than I am to be honest. She's been dreaming about this day since I was born. I know because she tells me every birthday and now it'll be here. With my birthday coming and me being 18, I just had this thought in the back of my mind that my dad might even show up and actually see me. Enough about this boring stuff, let's get into the good juicy things now.