A Forbidden Love

Safety in surrender

Living back with my mother is not something that I had ever planned on doing. Especially not in my thirties, but here we are. My mother and I are currently sharing the main room in a two bedroom flat, and my son has the second small room.

I try my best to stay out of my mother's way, as we don't really see eye - to - eye. This is due to a family feud between myself and my siblings. My mother wants me to be controlled by herself and them and I don't want that. So for the time being till we manage to go our separate ways, we are living together.

My passion has always been writing, I am good at it and it comes quite easily for me. So why not try to make an income doing something that I love, and something that I am good at?

My family would rather me be their doormat and do as they want. Which I have done all of my life thus far, and no matter how hard I tried, no matter how I changed myself to suit them, I just was never good enough. A breaking point came when I left the family business after 15 years of working there. I just couldn't be controlled by my brother in my personal and professional life any longer. It was just too much for me to continue to take.

The sun is crashing into the lounge where I am trying to work. "If it is going to be this hot inside, then I may as well take my work outside, under some shade, in the fresh air." I say out loud to myself

Mike has gone out with my mother to the mall and should be back in a few hours.

I pack up my laptop and head downstairs.

I make my way to the jungle gym where some shade has just begun to touch it.

My other favorite spot now has a bit of shade. Lucky me. I perch myself into the corner of the jungle gym, take out my laptop and continue writing. The complex is surprisingly quiet today, nearly everyone is out.

I'm sure that it has only been about 15 minutes, when a familiar voice says behind me.

"She moans as his hand slides up her dress." Nathan reads the words on the screen.

"f**k me! Nathan!" I turn around startled "Do you mind?"

"No, I don't mind and I am sure that you wouldn't either" he says with a cunning grin and wink. While climbing up to sit next to me.

Blushing, I close my laptop and try to clear my thoughts.

"What's up, how can I help?" I ask, trying to change the subject.

"Where's Mike?" He asks as he makes himself comfortable.

"At the mall with my mother" keeping things normal and surface level with this man is near to impossible

"Little miss V is all alone?" He teases as he looks from my eyes to my mouth to my breasts.

"Where's your mother?" I ask, again, trying to change the subject.

"Out, she will only be back later tonight or early tomorrow morning, I guess I'm all alone too." He licks and bites his bottom lip while taking me all in.

"Nathan" all I could get out is his name. Oh f**k , I really like this kid. Damn!

"Yes" he says in a low seductive voice. Maintaining eye contact, staring into my soul.

I swallow hard, I've run out of words, I've run out of thoughts. All I want is his body pressed against mine. His mouth and hands all over me. I allow myself another look at his mouth. He smiles

"I know that you want me" he says, snapping me back to the now.

"Excuse me?" s**t, he saw that.

"I know that you want me" he repeated "Do you want to know something?" he asks.

"Sure" my mouth dry and my brain frozen.

Leaning forward, he whispers "I want to f**k your brains out"

A dry gulp is all that I can manage.

Yeah, I'm screwed right now. My brain forgot how to function correctly. My mouth is hanging open, I don't know how to respond.

A sly little chuckle escapes his mouth, with a victory smile on his lips.

"Let's go for a walk" he suggests climbing off the jungle gym

"Are you coming?" he asks as I stay motionless.

"I think so, I mean yes, No, I mean … sure, let's go for a walk" fantastic my brain finally caught up, while exposing me in the process.

He laughs, obviously amused at my malfunction.

I pack up my laptop once again and I follow his lead. He doesn't waste time leading me back to my place.

Staring at me, my mouth, my breasts.

"That's a very pretty little dress" he admires while lightly tugging the flowy material at the base.

"Thanks" I say nervously, unlocking the door and heading inside.

Locking the security gate and closing the door behind us, I can feel him standing behind me. I'm scared to turn around, I fear that once I do, I'm screwed.

Both literally and figuratively.

I lick and bite my bottom lip, breathe deeply, building the courage to turn and face him.

Before I have another second to brace myself, his hand is around my waist, he is moving my hair to the side his mouth has found my neck. He holds me close, I can feel how hard he is already as he presses himself onto my ass.

I moan as pleasure starts to build.

"Nathan, oh my God, we can't do this" I just manage to get out.

"I won't tell if you don't" he whispers in my ear. "I'm having fun, aren't you?" he asks as he removes his hand from my waist and slides it up my dress and inner thigh.

"Oh God, yes"

"So then, let's have some fun, no one has to know" he reassures me.

He slips his other hand down the low cut front of my dress, moving my lacy blue bra, to cup my breast and play with my n****e. I moan and surrender to his touch.

His hand has found my p***y,

"No panties, naughty little girl"

he starts to slowly rub my c**t with his thumb, while sliding his middle finger between my folds.

"Ahhhh, Nathan, Yes" I encourage as he starts to put his finger inside me.

"So wet for me, already baby" sounding pleased as he continues to finger me.

"f**k me I've been wanting you so bad." He continues building the pleasurable pressure going harder and faster, his thumb still teasing my c**t. Until I can't hold back anymore.

He is my undoing, my unfolding, my release.

I whimper moan as my legs shake, the heat in my stomach rises, my p***y starts to throb. I cry out in ecstasy as I am taken higher and higher. Unlocking new found desires, revealing hidden ones that were buried deep within. He is both satisfying and intensifying my need for him.

"Oh my God, Nathan, Yes, Yes, oh God, Yes, f**k me"

I turn around as he removes his finger from my now dripping wet p***y.

I make eye contact with him as he tastes me off his finger.

"Here, taste what you taste like for me"

He commands before his tongue is inserted into my mouth and his lips are caressing mine. A soft, sweet, passionate intoxication fills my mind and my body.

I am willing and wanting to be his. I moan against his mouth, I comb my fingers through his hair and grab pulling him tighter to me. My back is slammed against the wall as our bodies are together as one. Our tongues dancing together, never missing a beat. I bite down a little on his bottom lip.

"f**k me little one, come"

He takes me by the hand and leads me to my room. He has been in this flat way too many times to hangout with Mike, and now I suspect with me too.

He turns me to face my bed, leans me forward, lifts my dress over my waist so all of me is on full display for him. I hear a satisfied groan deep from within him.

His fingers have found my p***y again.

Easing them in and out slowly, first the one finger then the second. I back up to him, giving him better access.

"Looks like someone is enjoying themselves" he says from behind me, removing his fingers then rubbing the head of his c**k through my folds, lubing himself up.

I moan and push back more, I want to feel him, I want him to make me his.

He slides himself in, I feel his big hard c**k filling up every inch of me. I feel full, I feel whole.

"f**k me you are so tight princess" he moans while slapping and grabbing my ass , spreading my cheeks. Slapping my ass again, and again.

"Oh God yes, yes. Oh ,Nathan, touch me"

reaching forward while penetrating into me over and over again, he rubs my c**t.

"Oh my God" I cry out "I'm cumming ... Nathan!"

I feel him still as he releases into me. Feeling his hot load filling me up.

When we both finally find stillness and are coming down from our high, he pulls out. I miss him already.

We lay down on my bed motionless, just being in the moment with each other.

After a few more moments of stillness, he leans on his side facing me. Tracing his fingers up my thigh, while his tongue ravishes my mouth. His fingers have found my p***y again, and his thumb is circling my c**t slowly and deliberately.

Stopping the kiss, he looks down at his hand on me, my gaze unintentionally following. I don't even notice that he is looking at me and that he is watching me.

"I like it when you watch me finger you, princess"

I can't deny that I like it too. To see his big, dark caramel brown hand working my pretty white p***y, is sending me into a frenzy.

I am all kinds of happy and excited. I don't want this to stop, but it can't carry on either. It is wrong.

"Nathan" I touch his hand with mine, to try and move it

"Don't you dare, I'm busy" he commands.

"This was so f*****g good, but so f*****g bad, this shouldn't have happened and it can't happen again" My hand still on his.

"I'm 18 in a few months, and this" he says, shoving two fingers into me "is now mine."

Kissing me slow and deep. This is what heaven must feel like, and I never want this to stop. He is ready to go again, I can feel him pressing into my thigh. I climb on top, taking him all in and intensifying the kissing

"I thought that you said, that this could never happen again"

"After today, it can't" I say riding him like a horse. He pulls the straps of my dress down, unclasping my bra, releasing my breasts.

I remove his shirt revealing his beautifully sculptured and muscular body. My breasts are in his hands and my n*****s are getting teased to firm erect points.

I think that I am falling for him. Damn!

I ride him until I hit my high again, I feel him release into me.

"Oh god! Nathan, f**k it I love it when you c*m inside of me"

"And I will continue to c*m inside of you whenever I want to, right baby?" He asks, slapping my ass and pulling me closer.

"Yes" I'm still busy coming down from my high, from my pure bliss, from my ecstasy.

He is my newfound happy place, being in his arms is the only place that I want to be.

Finally dressed again like nothing had happened

He takes me in his arms, holds me close. Tilts my chin up to meet his eyes, those deep, dark brown, intense, mysterious eyes.

Leans down slowly, his lips on mine, kissing me passionately.

"I don't want you touching yourself until I tell you to, or until I touch you" he ordered "Understand?"

"Yes" I answer

"Yes .. what?"

"Yes, I understand, Sir"

"Good little girl"

The next few days pass by without any s****l interaction. We just enjoyed each other's company. Spending quality time together in the summer sun. Speaking of books, music, movies, hobbies, school and work.

Light, soft "accidental" touches, knowing looks, text messages.

He always makes me feel like I can achieve more. Pushes me to be better, for myself.

"I think that I am falling for you" I admit while we sit on a bench enjoying the cooler night breeze.

"You think or you know?" He questions

"I am falling for you" I answer

He traces my hand with fingers, we are alone, it's dark, there is no one around, everyone is asleep.

"I'm in love with you" he finally breaks the silence after my admission. "I can't stop thinking about the other day, I can't stop thinking about you" he continues.

"Follow me" he says, we stand up, and casually start walking to a very secluded area of the property, behind a shed where no one can see us. Breathing deeply, looking into his eyes, I can never tell where his mind is, or where it is going. A very guarded look, like he is hiding his soul from the world.

He is always in his masculine energy, leading, giving, strong, protective, he is intoxicating. His honeydew scent fills the air around me, transporting me to a world of safety in surrender. He cups my cheek with his hand as he draws me in for a kiss. His one hand on the small of my back, the other holding my head right where he wants it.

"You've come closer than anyone" he says as he breaks our contact.

"And yet you are still so far away" I reply

"You are still the closest, and that scares me" he kisses me again, pinning me against the wall with his body, cupping my ass cheeks and pressing our pelvises together.

I can feel him hard against me, waiting for release, waiting for me to give him what he wants. Waiting for me to give myself to him again.

"Remember" he says as he slides his hand down the front of my pants and finds me wet for him "this is mine princess, and now I want to have some fun" he demands as he slides his fingers in and out of me.