Alone Since Birth

Hi Everyone, Im Dan17, This is my first time i write long story because ever since im 7years old i like imagining and daydreaming and because im also fan of other love story, And Not knowing One Day I Will Write A Story, And I Will Take this opportunity to Thanking To This Flatform to express my random thoughts, feelings and writing and mindful skills that I think I have so please support me guys to every story that I post, this will help me a lot of being a beginner writer and story maker and if you have any concerns and suggestions please direct message me or email, Because this will make me improve to a better story creator, Thank you so much all! Hi welcome to my story ^_^ This story is about a person who will do everything just so she doesn't lose the person she loves. If the translation of the word is not correct, I'm sorry because I'm not an expert in the English language and just use google translator to understand the reader, I hope you understand and I hope you like my story which is half based true to life story. Happy Reading! Introduction: Hi Have you ever cried and chased someone you just met online? The type who gambled and spent all your time and attention on her because you thought she was the one, But it turns out you're not the one she wants. The type that you go to sleep and she wakes up is the one you always look for and think about, The type that you gave everything, including effort and love, but she just didn't have all of that. Character Daniel Lexa Flory (Daniel Mom) Azh (Daniel Niece) Adrian (Lexa's Brother) How do I start this? (2020 POV) Hi, I'm Daniel, 20 years old Lives in Manila (Philippines) morning I have no energy :( How come when I was about to apply for a job, you suddenly put a lockdown on us. Uhmm I'll give you a Little Idea and Introduction of who I am. Ok let me start the introduction again HAHA Hi, I'm Daniel, 20 years old, Thin, Curly haha ​​and Very Shy Haha, I'm going to start this story with myself and so you can get to know who I am. In 2017, I stopped studying in college because of financial problems and maybe because of the lack of ideas in the course I entered and maybe because of the intense pressure and problems that come to our family every day. That same year, I was hit by a severe depression that made me lose my confidence and self-confidence, I still remember the nights I cried because of how heavy I felt, Blaming myself, For the time, tiredness and money I wasted because in tuition at my School. I feel like no one is there for me and no one wants to help, And that's when I was able to prove what everyone's habits are and learned that no one else will help me but me. There are many regrets that came into my life, I blamed myself for my problems, There were times when I almost broke myself and I almost wanted to give up on my life. Fast forward to 2018 Not even a year was wasted because of the regret I went through last year and I have not yet recovered from the depression I experienced. Nothing has changed, I often blame myself for what is happening, I want nothing more than to go into the room and cry. Fast Forward 2019 In this year, here my life got a little colorful, I learned a lot and experienced but I remained jobless and prioritized the well-being of my emotions because of the severe anxiety and trauma caused by depression last year. This is where I learned to start playing mobile legends because of my sister's influence and also because I was curious, I tried it. And as the week passed, I learned it easily, that's why I became a bit addicted to this game as time went on, even though it helped my anxiety and depression, I still have bad effects. Way back 2019 same year, Month of july, I met a girl at that time, she was 15 y/o and I was 19, even though she was younger than me, she was quite mature in her thinking. We always play and uhm it also takes us a few hours to talk until we don't realize the time with the person talking on the cellphone. (Daniel) Uhm, you can't sleep yet? What time is it? (Aira) I fell asleep too after a while. And because of our frequent contact caused by talking and playing, our feelings for each other gradually deepened. Way back September 2018 We got confused and had misunderstandings, Things that we often fight about but at the end of the day we get along, But By the month of October here it got worse. He always makes excuses, He always avoids, I ask him a lot of questions but he doesn't answer, He is losing the desire to talk to me until our relationship has completely turned cold. November 2019 Here I even tried to chase him and Tried to save our relationship but no matter what I chased and tried to do, he kept avoiding me and making excuses to break up at that time I was hurt and my heart was broken. December 2019 When my cousin came from the province, he advised me to put myself first and avoid relationships because I would only hurt myself if I continued. He also advised me to look for a job because I was too focused on that girl. January 2020 Little by little I get to know myself and avoid things that will break me even more, I have learned not to chase after those kinds of people and even though I am not fully healed from my depression, I have become a little better compared to last time year. February 2020 I have already obtained application documents and am preparing for my upcoming job but I still have to wait a few weeks to see if I will be accepted or not so I better just put myself first and prepare it for my upcoming job. March 2020 The month in which there was a severe lockdown in our area, Actually the whole country is in lockdown due to the pandemic, This is what I don't want to happen because I should have re-prepared for my upcoming job. This month there was a severe outbreak of disease caused by covid-19 because our country is one of the most affected by the pandemic. Many have had this disease. Some survived well and safely and others unfortunately never recovered from this disease. Due to the severe effects of the disease and the lockdown, most people were forced to stay in their homes and wait for an announcement on when they can shop at stores, malls. Etc. Also because of this pandemic, my past trauma, anxiety and depression came back again, I remembered again what I went through where I stayed in my house and sulked in the room and regretted my wrong decisions in life. Past forward, Month of May 2020 Here I met a woman I never thought I would like, Little did I know that I would fall for her and learn to love again. I admit that I have not fully healed and have moved on from my past relationship where I was disappointed and hurt. (Daniel's POV) I'm here today at our house, As usual I can't go out because we're taking care of the pandemic, We're waiting for the announcement from the government when we can go out :( sadly, my depression comes back when I'm already better. Today is Sunday, and since everyone is inside, our Sunday service is online at our home and it was not easy because there are times when the signal is not good and it cuts out, causing interruptions and distractions in our service. Since it's Sunday and there's nothing else to do, I decided to re-install the mobile legends game and in order to stop being sad and bored, I decided to play it again. (Daniel's POV) (Open mobile legends app) It's been a while since I played, Since February, I checked my profile history and February 24 was written as my last game. I was playing normally until my fourth game in ml when someone followed my account, Since I just wanted a friend and was looking for someone to play with, I followed him back, It was also a normal game when I invited him and we are also on the same side. Since I already have a history of playing games, it was quite easy for me to rank up my account in ml and I was able to handle him easily in every game we played. used. (Lexa's POV) It's so boring at home and there's nothing to do, it's hard like this :( I'm more used to it at school. What's more difficult is that we left so many activities behind, so I thought I'd be able to rest haha It's also Sunday, maybe I can do it tomorrow and our school is still suspended and maybe the online class is next week, so I'll play first. I opened ml since I wasn't doing anything, When I was playing ml I saw a player who moved strangely, I just saw someone who is skilled in his hero so I was impressed and I follow him quickly. He accepted me and I was surprised to be invited to ml, he is good at playing and I told him in the chat that he is good with his hero. (Lexa) That's great, you're very good at being your hero (Daniel) Haha is that so, because I was playing this last year, it just stopped We also play games many times but not every time, There are times because he is online but I am busy with my school works and activities, There are times when I don't see him online and I play solo games. (Lexa's POV) 10 It's just am and there's nothing to do, I'll just play first. I've played a few games with a win streak and I'm also used to playing alone, There are times when someone invites me and there are times when I don't. I saw him playing and I didn't pay attention and played a solo game. (Daniel's POV) I just finished the Service in our online service at the church and I thought to play first, I was a little happy because my account was legend last night and roroad to mythic haha ​​well when I opened my account I was surprised by what I saw. Wow, she's already a legend, it seems like a while ago her rank gap was far away from me and she was just a loser haha! Maybe she has a friend and carries the whole game. I also started alone and still ranked up, but no win streak happened, my record was all win-loss and I feel like I'm just wasting my time. She is now Legend 4 and her winstreak continues when I see her offline, I wish I could invite her hahaha I looked at her pic and name. (Daniel's POV) She's not like my type of girl who's simple and boyish, not my type, because she's in a side view in the picture and her name is a boy hahahaha I guess I'm too judgmental. A few days and weeks came when we didn't play often, I didn't know what he was doing and I had no intention of finding out haha, There were times when I saw him online and playing alone. Past Forward July 2020 This is the time when the pandemic is intensifying and the number of people who are positive for covid 19 is increasing and many are in quarantine. This is my birth month and my brother and father have decided to sleep there first and come home from work in one my brother who also rents and only comes home every Saturday. Mind you, I was alone in the room, so I decided to sleep in the other room because it was air-conditioned haha There are times when we can play and often. He said that sometimes he does something with them and is busy for his school activities. I just let it go, said it was fine and I understood. It hasn't ended yet because I asked what her name is on f*******: and she added me to chat when we have free time so we can play. (Daniel) What's your name on sss, I'll just add you so I know when you're going to play haha (Lexa) Alright this is my sss L**a c**a*o (Daniel) Ah ok, accept me ah haha (Lexa) Alright There we had the chance to talk so we could get to know each other better and I found out that he started playing ML last year too haha, I also found out that she is studying in one of the most famous private schools here in the Philippines, And her course is information technology which is similar to my course which is computer science so sometimes I ask her about coding, programming and so on. Her more experienced than me because she is incoming third year student and they're enrolling next month. (Lexa's POV) He asked me a lot of questions and I found out that he also took a computer course in college before, so I'm curious about programming but I'm not good at computers and know a little anyway haha September 2020 Speed ​​of time, our First sem examination and Online it turns out to be more difficult than I expected. Sometimes I can play because of reviewing and being busy at school. (Daniel's POV) It's sad that I rarely get to play with him :( why doesn't he go online anymore, he's online on f*******:, I'll talk to him. (Daniel) Hi, aren't you playing? (Lexa) It's busy, we have an exam tomorrow (Daniel) (Typing...) Too bad I miss you, wait shall I send it? (Daniel) Ah, that's okay, next time :) Okay i know the truth now and understand why she doesn't play anymore, she's already busy :( uhm I don't have much to do but play with my nephew because its still locked down. (Azh) Uncle, Let's play minecraft build my house We often play in the room with ml or maybe the old version of minecraft, she is even happy when I can build a house in survival mode haha, But despite that I missed Lexa why is it like that when will I get attached to her. Fast forward September 18 2020 I wished her a happy birthday, And he thanked me, I see her online on ml but not always. Last week of September, I had a problem with my cell phone because it had a crack on the screen until last week when I couldn't use it at all and I lost communication with her. Until the 3rd week of October 2020, I had a former classmate, fortunately, he was making cellphones. Even though my broken cellphone was not fixed, we just swapped it so I could use something. Our conversation was repeated and I still feel the same for her, I was surprised that she suddenly asked me. (Lexa) why do you want to see if I have a new picture? (Lexa) Maybe you'll be staring at that later (Daniel) What? Hahahaha (Daniel) That's just a joke hahaha (Lexa) Maybe later..... (Daniel) What? (Lexa) You are fasting my picture hahahaha (Daniel) What? What is fasting? What word is that? (Maybe she means fantasizing) (Lexa) obsessed (Ah ok I get it) (Lexa) Most of the guys I've chatting I found out turns they like me and have a crush on me (Daniel) Yes, you are beautiful, why is that (I type on the keyboard but I don't want to send it) What should I send it to? .... ... ... Hey, it's up to me I screenshotted that message and sent it to her and she immediately sent a laughing emoji (Lexa) So you really have a crush on me? (Daniel) Hahaha I'll eat it up to you The truth is, uhm, I don't like it because I've met someone in the past and I haven't fully recovered from the breakup and I'm still healing, I like it because it's fun to hang out with. (Lexa) Any other ideas about programming? It's my course hahaha (Daniel) Alright haha ​​can we please video call first HAHA (Lexa) Sure now (Daniel) Ahm, maybe we can do it later because my dad is having a online meeting and it might be noisy and we can be heard haha (Lexa) Alright Uhm, It's not that I don't want to talk or that I'm avoiding her, it's just that there's a weight in my chest that I'm afraid that maybe if she sees that I'm ugly in person and unattractive, she won't talk to me again. picture is edited or filtered so it's not obvious. I'm afraid that she might turn off me and avoid me. There are times when she calls me and I ignore her and sometimes just make excuses (Lexa) Alright (Daniel) have you eaten yet? (Lexa) I ate haha (Daniel) wow early haha ​ (Daniel) Do you go to bed early? (Lexa) haha ​​not really (Daniel) ah haha ​​i thought you are charging your phone (Lexa) haha ​​later (Daniel) you said it was low battery (Daniel) I'm chasing mythic, maybe the season will end, too bad ahah, it's still a long way from coming back to epic 3 ahahaha (Lexa) my brother, wants to join (Daniel) What is his rank? Sure but you are my favorite person that i want to play with haha (Lexa) It's up to you, he's already playing HAHA (Daniel) I'll try to get mythic 4 stars too (Daniel) I have a headache (Lexa) Losing or missing the game? Hahahaha (Daniel) No hahaha, I'm going to bed really early (Lexa) (Laughing emoji) (Daniel) Why Are you awake? It's 12 am 6 a.m (Lexa) hahaha you said you won't stay up anymore (Daniel) What are you doing? :) (Lexa) Eating nata (Daniel) nata? haha (Lexa) yes (Daniel) no cp first, because I just finished playing (Lexa) Ah why haha (Daniel) I can't get out of legend 1 haha, You don't have a pic, do you? Hahahaha (Lexa) Ahh, hahahaha I thought you missed me (Daniel) Do you want to have a bf? (Lexa) Why? Can you introduce someone? haha (Daniel) No, but do you want? (Lexa) Yes (Daniel) HAHAHA (Lexa) (Incoming Call) Huh, she's calling (Daniel) Why are you calling? (Lexa) (Send a document) peer to peer network sharing (Daniel) What is that? (Daniel) Sure, It's another Tagalog (Lexa) (Inaudible) Curly is my baby (Daniel) (Inaudible) I don't know how (Lexa) (Inaudible) Suggest anything I'll sing for you (Daniel) Hahahaha cute (Daniel) we really are hahahaha (Lexa) (Inaudible) Who's cuter, my sister or me? (Daniel) It's you HAHAHA (Daniel) Also your voice (Lexa) (Inaudible) I'm fine (Lexa) (Inaudible) Song sanaol cute (Daniel) (Inaudible) my voice is so ugly, just sing for me haha (Daniel) Ahm, what if all you know is Tagalog hahahaha (Daniel) It's been a while, are you recording? HAHAHAHA (Daniel) Duration of vm ahh (Lexa) (Sent a picture) this is what you can say hahahaha (Daniel) is he your brother who has a youtube channel hahahaha that's a terrible edit (Lexa) Hahahaha no (Daniel) Take a pic now, don't you? haha (Daniel) Ah, isn't he hahaha? (Lexa) Nothing (Daniel) It's beautiful (Daniel) Sing it (Daniel) Even the chorus (Lexa) (Inaudible) You are the lady that I desire, Beautiful lady that I pray for, You are the one who gave color to the world, I hope it will live on. Shet voice is beautiful (Daniel) Did you master it haha? (Lexa) Nope (Daniel) haha ​​sorry twice (Daniel) The one you know (Lexa) (Inaudible) Huh what a dish (Daniel) The one who knows (Daniel) what dish (Daniel) I think he's hungry hahaha (Daniel) Just watch me live hahahaha (Lexa) (Inaudible) huh, how did you say that? (Lexa) (Inaudible) I don't want to be lazy (Daniel) hahahahaha (Daniel) it's terrible (Daniel) even watching is still lazy (Lexa) (Inaudible) what a dish, pumpkin (Daniel) Oh that's delicious (Daniel) but what more? (Lexa) (In) But what else? (Daniel) hahahaha really (Daniel) laughtrip is the one you watched live (Daniel) did afk with the two of them ahahaha (Daniel) hahahah has his own lyrics (Lexa) (In) I'll eat bro first (Daniel) can you love a person even without a label? (Daniel) Haha just kidding (Lexa) Huh? (Daniel) nothing hahahaha (Daniel) Just eat (Lexa) Hahahahaha (Lexa) Come on (Daniel) I think she's hungry (Daniel) Dish you mentioned (Daniel) How are you going to play? (Daniel) Just eat 30 april 2021 (Daniel) (In) Are you busy now? May 1, 2021 (Daniel) No you do (Lexa) Eating sweet potatoes (Daniel) ah hahahaha I sent him my game history in ml and then took a shower, I was surprised when I opened sss again, he called and I didn't answer. (Daniel) I took a shower (Daniel) why lexa? (Daniel) The mission will be difficult (Daniel) said to send the inactive players back haha (Daniel) there are a lot of events because it's almost the year of the year (Lexa) Ah wow I hope all (Daniel) Much will be given hahahaha (Daniel) said to send back the players who are no longer playing :D (Daniel) hope all made a comeback hahaha And 7pm (Daniel) What are you doing :) (Lexa) I'm just asking, Why are people asking what I'm doing? (Lexa) Hahaha what does that mean? (Daniel) Hahahaha nothing, Is it bad to ask? (Lexa) Hahahaha so you have a crush on me hahahaha (Daniel) hahahaha (Lexa) Really? She is already too aware that maybe I should change the topic hahahaha (Daniel) By the way, I asked if you always caption when you upload, you have to have the exact date and time hahaha (Lexa) Ugly? Hahahaha (Daniel) Nothing hahahaha (Lexa) Someone is also asking me your questions (Lexa) Just my neighbor (Daniel) Which one? (Lexa) What are you doing, Etc did you eat? (Daniel) Really? Hahahaha (Daniel) maybe someone likes you :) (Lexa) Is that it? (Lexa) And you like me (Laughing emoji) ... ... ... Shet it's too obvious, should I admit it or not? (Daniel) Yes (Daniel) Aw sent late (Daniel) just wait (Lexa) Huh (Lexa) maybe you likes me huh (Daniel) why is it bad..... (Daniel) is it bad to ask HAHAHAH? (Lexa) There is? (Lexa) Because it can also be as a friend (pain) (Lexa) maybe the same with my neighbor (Daniel) Maybe it's something hahaha (Lexa) What what? (Daniel) I told you before, didn't I, that I have a m.u (Lexa) Then? (Daniel) This is how we used to talk (Lexa) What happened? (Lexa) did you have a crush on her? (Daniel) No, I used to have her in my room (Daniel) We used to send video calls too (Lexa) Ahh haha ​​not really (Daniel) Then suddenly she said that she's fed up, she doesn't want it anymore, she doesn't feel any pain anymore hahahaha (Lexa) Hahahah, On you? Hahahahaha (Daniel) I'm not saying I don't like it hahahahaha (Daniel) It suddenly became a serious conversation, Then I'll stop (Daniel) I don't want to lose again, Do you know that? haha (Daniel) Do you get it? (Lexa) Hahahaha lose amp (Daniel) then I'm not satisfied with the chat I want in person (Lexa) Who? huh? (Lexa) It's you (Daniel) Nothing hahahaha (Daniel) You are nice to talk to (Lexa) Delicious amp (Daniel) Sometimes we talk about nonsense hahaha (Lexa) how delicious?? (Daniel) Hahahaha (Daniel) What do they call you? (Daniel) Because that's your name (Lexa) Who? From here? (Lexa) Ac (Daniel) Ahh haha (Lexa) First and last letter of the name (Daniel) Ahh that (Lexa) Sometimes upright HAHAHA (Daniel) Why? (Lexa) Because I love kissing and hugging girls hahaha (Daniel) You like girls?? (Lexa) Hahaha, Secret (Daniel) You said it yourself hahahaha (Daniel) It's been boring here at home since my sister left (Daniel) Right?? (Lexa) Why are you so talkative?? (Daniel) Yes hahahaha (Daniel) That's why I don't talk to anyone often hahaha (Lexa) how sad (Daniel) Hahahaha I'm not sad at all (Daniel) Can I asked? Why are you using your two sss accounts to message me now (Lexa) Huh? two? (Daniel) You're fooling me hahaha Am I being tripped up hahaha he even uses a sss account to message me. (Lexa) Oh weh, maybe my cousin (Daniel) Hahahaha gosh maybe you're just tripping me up (Lexa) Haha crazy (Daniel) Hey, maybe you can read what we're talking about (Daniel) Who is that? (Lexa) Go ahead, pretend it's me hahahaha And I did it hahahaha in this part I don't know that I'm a bit stupid hahahaha I replied with one of her acc but I don't know if she really didn't or was just tripping (Lexa) I'll chat that later haha (Lexa) Haha crazy, Don't talk to that (Daniel) You didn't give it so we can read it haha (Lexa) That's nothing haha (Daniel) Do you want me? (Lexa) Why did you ask? (Daniel) nothing haha ​​why (Lexa) What why? (Daniel) I'm just asking if you like me (Laugh emoji) (Lexa) Nothing likely (Laugh emoji) (Daniel) Ahh, is that so? (Lexa) Yes hahahaha Why?? (Daniel) Nothing was asked (Daniel) haha (Lexa) Ahh haha ​​let's eat now (Daniel) haha ok (Daniel) Eat that Hahaha it's hard to feel like this, The one where you fall in love with him little by little but your feelings don't seem to matter, it's hard. May 3 2021 (2 days after) (Lexa) Come, ml hahahaha (Daniel) are you playing? (Lexa) yes haha (Daniel) where acc? , did you do it before? (Daniel) Are you using your old account? (Lexa) (Sent a picture) (Lexa) yes hahahaha (Lexa) Let's play later around 4:30 (Lexa) even if it's just classic with my brother (Lexa) Still follow hahahaha (Daniel) Ah, you did it before (Daniel) Did you open the old one? (Daniel) In the evenings, I don't have any load, I just connected earlier ahahaha (Lexa) I can't open it anymore (Daniel) Why? (Daniel) Too bad (Daniel) Why what happened? (Lexa) Hahahaha I can't open the old one anymore (Lexa) Also the sss acc that is bound there (Daniel) Why can't you open it? (Daniel) Did you forget your password? (Lexa) What's my rank there? (Lexa) Hahaha (Daniel) You have a lot of heroes, don't you? (Daniel) Epic 2 (Daniel) Too bad your rank is already high and there are many heroes (Lexa) Where are you? (Lexa) Yes, huhuhu (Daniel) I thought the acc you are using now is connected (Lexa) Hahahaha it's not (Daniel) Why? Hahahaha (Lexa) I was wrong (Lexa) Laughing emoji (Daniel) I think it can still be opened (Lexa) Hahahaha not anymore :( (Daniel) as long as you open the sss account (Daniel) Still (Lexa) Not anymore (Daniel) Is that your f*******: account? (Daniel) Is that C**a* or *****? (Lexa) That hack (Lexa) Nope (Lexa) The very first one (Daniel) Someone got hacked?? (Lexa) Yes hahahaha (Lexa) The 2k likes always when I post hahahah (Daniel) Wews HAHAHA (Daniel) Is it true? (Daniel) I will stalk the account hahaha (Lexa) Hahahaha (Daniel) Why Are you asking where I am hahaha? (Daniel) Do you have a crush on me (Laugh emoji) (Lexa) Just asking (Daniel) Hahaha Jk (Daniel) Are you online on ml? (Lexa) Not yet (Daniel) Just search for me, I'm only Dan17 there (Daniel) Ah, the other one might be possible (Daniel) The one acc you have in ml (Lexa) Hahahaha no way (Daniel) Hahahaha isn't that right? (Daniel) Too bad I can't invite you to my rank (Daniel) My two accounts are the same legend hahahaha (Lexa) Hahahaha let's play classic (Daniel) okay haha (Daniel) It should be a 1 week epic right away (Daniel) You said it's just basic for you to rank up in ml hahaha (Daniel) The one you just created an account on ml where it was connected (Lexa) come, Let's play (Lexa) (Sent a picture) (Lexa) Add me here (Daniel) Are you kidding? (Lexa) Hurry up (Lexa) Let's play classic now (Daniel) I'm out of load hahaha (Daniel) It's still up to you now, hahahaha (Lexa) No classics with me, with my brother (Lexa) There's no palo rsnk haha (Daniel) What? (Daniel) Your type like jejemon haha (Daniel) Oh, can you do epic 5? (Lexa) Hahahaha of course (Daniel) Maybe you just using Layla only huh hahaha (Daniel) Bruno is your main hero?