Chapter 6 - To You That Asks Why
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To you, that asks, why?
...
"It's not worth it
But
Do you really want to know me?"
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I always felt that no one understand me
They bullied me
They see me as a weakling
but
I haven't tried explaining myself
I hated the world
Everything makes me feel weak
I don't want to have friends anymore
But
No one will understand
If a person doesn't open up
There's a lot of times where I feel ignored
yet
I still try
But
Nothing seems to work out
I fail
I just want to be alone
I'm a loser
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I became hateful
I kept hiding my feelings
A lot hated me
They can't understand
It's easier to give up on a person like this
sometimes
I want to die
but
In the end
I just want to be helped
by someone
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(Tokyo, May 13, 2012)
[A dead body of a teenage girl was found floating on the water]
It's raining
[She was identified as Sophie Sauer]
"I don't know what to do anymore"
[A man said that he saw what happened]
"My body wants to give up
I can't walk properly,
It sways.
Give her back to me!"
[A guy was wearing a blood-stained suit]
[He threw something on the river bank]
"I've been saved by her
but why...?"
[I heard people screaming so I checked what it was]
[It was a ---- body of a girl, lifeless]
"She's the only one that understands me...
If I can bring her back
I'll do it...
Even if it's forbidden"
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Everything you saw, was different from the world where you live
But those memories are real.
A mixture of the past and present
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You might be wondering Who am I
and Who you are
Well, you see
We're different
but at the same time
We're the same being
In other words,
A divided soul
I am Matsuda
and in this world I am
Lance
We have our own memories so you must remember
those precious to you
especially that guy that helped me
Hey...
I'm glad I met her again
It made me happy
because
I can finally make my promise come true.
To show her that place,
but
she's not the same,
she's controlled,
and that
made me mad.
I can see everything,
yet
there's a glass that separates us.
I want to help her,
to free her but I can't
That glass vanishes only when you're weakened
It's the time when you fell asleep
That's why you see those nightmares,
Those Fabricated memories...
Someone did it to harm you
Thankfully, it didn't
because If it succeeds
it'll break you
and then
We'll both die
They can only kill one
then
that world will break
Yes, you didn't hear it wrong
You're the main spirit, you're the soul that exists in this world
that's why you didn't die
For Sophie
You don't have to worry
Sophie was freed, but I can't be with her.
As a lesser spirit
I can't leave unless you
My other half
run out of time.
Don't worry
It's fine
At least, I know that she's free
Even though I can't be with her
...
...
...
At least
This time
I've been able to
help her
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This time I will save you.
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"Matsuda!"
"Wake up Matsuda!"
"Huh, uh wait you're Lance right? And wait aren't you dead?"
"No, I'm not. As you can see I'm here talking with you"
"But I saw you disintegrate"
"What? You must be dreaming. You got knocked out after that 'Girl' bursed out and released some projectiles."
"Oh.."
"I managed to defeat her but she got away. She stinks whenever she does something. And you, what happened to you? You've been murmuring a lot of things when you're sleeping and It's strange, you said names that were familiar to me. But, on top of that you smelled the same as that girl from before."
"I see..."
Suddenly Matsuda felt like he was fading away.
"Hey Suda, we still got a chance"
"Huh? What do you mean?"
"Matsuda reach my hand, before you fade away."
Matsuda tried to reach his hand.
"Matsuda We will come back, and I promise you, You will have your happy end!"
(To be continued)
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