No Label

D-4

Seven days. Just seven days, Nana. Let's not make this deeper.

Interview lang naman. Mas okay nga dahil sinabi niyang single siya, at least nakalabas ako ng buhay sa event na yun.

Jill: You're not angry, right?

Vacant namin ngayon at nandito ako sa library, tumatambay. Iniisip ko pa din yung nangyari kahapon.

After noong event, hindi na ako sumama sa kanila kasi marami pa akong tatapusin na school works that night. At isa pa, andun mom niya. Baka bigla niya akong ipakilala dun, hindi pa ako ready mamanhikan.

Nagrereply ako sa mga texts niya. Wala akong pinakitang sign na nasaktan ako dun sa interview kahapon.

Me: Ba't ako magagalit? Okay lang naman 'yun. Mabuti nga at sinabi mong single ka para walang issue.

Jill: But I did hurt your feelings

Me: Me? No! Hindi naman masakit

What a liar, Nana.

Jill: You sure?

Me: Sure. Don't think about it, Jill. Okay lang talaga

Jill: Okay. I'll go see you after class

Me: Ok. See u

Tinago ko na phone ko sa bag saka tumungo for the next class.

On my way, bigla itong nag vibrate. Nagtext classmate ko na walang teacher ngayon so napahinto ako at naglakad palabas ng gate. Tinext ko din si Jill na dismissal ko na. Naghintay lang ako dun sa waiting area sa labas ng school.

After 15 minutes, I noticed a luxurious car stopped in front of me. The window rolled down and I saw Jill on the driver's seat telling me to hop on.

Iniscan ko muna ang paligid nang makasiguradong wala akong kakilala dahil baka tampulan na naman ako ng chismis. When the area is safe, sumakay ako sa car ni Jill.

"Sa w*****d ko lang nababasa 'to eh", komento ko nang makaupo sa front seat.

"w*****d?", he asked. Hindi niya alam ang w*****d? Palibhasa'y afford niya bumili ng books kaya hindi niya need ng free app. Pero di nga? May tao pa bang hindi nakakaalam ng existence ng w*****d?

"An app where you can read free books", I answered while putting on my seat belt.

"Ahh... what about it?"

"This. A rich guy fetching a normal student with a luxurious car. Pang w*****d, sis!", mahina ko pa siyang hinampas. Mukhang na gets niya na.

"Tss. Don't call me, sis. I might become one"

"Hoy! Bad joke"

Tumawa lang siya at pinaandar na yung sasakyan. Pinagtitinginan na nga ng mga studayante itong car niya. Hindi naman nila ata nakikita ang loob kaya hindi pa naman ako magiging artista nito bukas.

Nagpark na yung sasakyan nito sa labas ng starbucks. Hindi naman namin pinag-usapan kung saan kami pupunta but I guess... he can sense, based on my looks, that I need coffee.

Siya na yung umorder ng drink ko. As usual, nag insist siya ulit na libre niya kahit may pera naman ako. This is my first free coffee from starbucks, ever. Kuripot mga sinasama ko dito.

"How's school?", he is asking that question again.

"Yan lang ba alam mong itanong?'

"You looked tired. Is college that hard?", he looked curious. Next year, gragraduate na siya ng senior high school kaya siguro favorite question niya na yung 'how's school'. Pero kung hihingi siya ng tips sakin, mukhang wala naman siya masyadong mapapala.

"Honestly, yes.", halatang kinabahan siya ng konti sa sinabi ko "Pero kaya naman. Depende din yan sa course mo eh. But choosing a course also depends on your strength. That's why you should choose your course wisely. Don't waste your time if you aren't sure." Parang yung relationship na 'to. A waste of time.  Dating a person with unsure feelings is truly a waste of time. But I need to see what is this all about.... just four more days.

"I'm still unsure what to take in college", he looked helpless.

"You still have four months to think about it", napangiti ko siya pero parang peke yung ngiti niya. Ang ekspresyon na parang may gusto siyang sabihin. Na parang may bumabagabag sa kanya. "What's wrong?", I asked. I have to because it bothers me.

"I can't understand my self", he said without looking at me.

"About pa din ba ito sa course na kukunin mo?", Is he that anxious in going to college?

Umiling siya. "Sorry", he said and looked at me. About pa din ba ito kahapon? Parang iiyak na siya, nakonsensya tuloy ako kahit wala akong kasalanan. He's very innocent.

"Ano ka ba? Okay lang sakin yun! Promise. Sa susunod na lang natin i-reveal yung relationship natin, okay? Baka umiyak ka diyan, mapagkakamalan pa akong b***h dito"

"Can I ask a question?", walang may nagbago sa ekspresyon niya at hindi man lang pinansin yung sinabi ko. He is acting weird just now. Mukhang hindi naman kasi siya bad mood kanina.

"Sure"

"What if... ", nag-aalangan siya. His eyes are wavering. What is happening to him?

"What if?", I asked back trying to calm him.

"What if I like someone?" He asked something that might hurt me. Surprisingly, It didn't hurt. I'm fine as if I am anticipating it. I still can't feel anything for Jill. Yes, kinikilig ako minsan pero hindi pagmamahal yun.

"It's fine for me"

"Really?"

"Yup. But let's keep dating until you're sure with that feeling", Hang in there, Jill. We will break this not-so-serious relationship anyway. "Why? Do you like someone?"

"Not sure either. It feels weird"

"That's given. Why do you like her?"

"That's the problem. Kasi hindi babae", I was shocked. This is isn't the first time but I'm fcking shock! Because I didn't expect that for Jill.

"You're...", parang hindi ko alam paano sasabihin.

"Maybe. Maybe I'm bisexual"

My jaw dropped. Another 'Senpai is a Lie'.