Messy feelings

Katty's Pov As she laid there beside him with his hands wrapped around her Tiger snored in a way that who suggest sleep apnea, she reflects on the excruciating month she has had and sighs. Tiger was a nice guy she'd never been to his house and they've only spoken on the phone a few times but some how she felt comfortable sleeping over. She had joked about a cooking post he had made and he invited her over. She ate and watched a little TV after he took a shower played a little game on his phone then he fell asleep. Leaving her alone with her thoughts, she couldn't quiet her mind. She kept wondering how is it that she allowed herself to do something yet again that she promised herself that she wouldn't do. Yet here she is laying next to someone she barely new. what does he want, what do I want, her mind kept going back and forth to the month before and how she had made a big mistake. The thing is she knew what she was getting into but she allowed a primal need to have s*x get the better of her. Flash back. It had been a year since I hadn't have s*x because I had had a horrible breakup, and a miscarriage. I couldn't bring myself to want any one enough to let them touch me and whenever I got horny it would bring on a wave of anxiety so I left s*x alone. however for the pass two months I've been on a new level of horny and whenever I tried to masturbate it was as if she was scratching an itch that wasn't there. I ran into my old friend Mike, more like an old fling, I had given him a blow job but we never had s*x and never pursued a relationship. Things were cordial between us and we kept in touch. I needed a ride home and Mike offered to take me home since he had done so a couple days before. I was so grateful and excited (the place I moved to wasn't as close as the place he dropped me the other day,) so much so that I decided I was going to give him some. Home was a long way away and the previous week when he had taken me home to my previous appartment I remembered why I liked him so much before. I remembered how soothing his voice was and how sensitive and sensual his personality was. I in a moment of insanity, instantly wanted to finish what she started with the blow job. I texted him that night and told him his person is very lucky to have him and how I remembered all the reasons I liked him. I knew I wouldn't be able to pursue a relationship because weeks before I had noticed a wedding photo on his status, I was intoxicated with a primal need for ecstacy and couldn't be bothered with thinking about the implications my actions may cause. Now we were heading home and I couldn't sit still I can't wait to disclose to him that I wanted him inside me, every inch of his proud manhood. Until he made a bold move grabbed my hand and pushed it in his pants and said surprise. His p***s was hard and ready for penetration. The excitement that shot through my veins were electrifying, I looked at him and smiled and said I'm not surprised because I'm thinking the same thing. When we got home I practically jumped out of the car before it stopped. I told him I'll be right back and went to have a quick shower. I showered as fast as I could and went back to the car. I ad to face some questions from my girlfriend before leaving cause she's never seen me behave in such a way. but as soon as she was satisfied she let me go. "Where the hell you hurrying to" she accused "I'm gonna full up on some sausage" I teased we both bust out laughing. "Who's this guy Katty" she questioned with genuine concern. "Remember that guy I met 2 years ago, we are about to finish what we started." I said giggling. "OK" she said judging "it's not like I met him tonight, we've know each other and kept in touch maybe not often but we spoke." I said explaining myself. "OK, well be careful" We drove around the neighborhood to find an isolated spot and when we did we wasted not time getting to it. We went to the back seat of the car and started kissing on each other. I was in kissing utopia I had not kissed a man in a year not being touched or caressed in such a way, that I just realized how much I missed being wanted, and needed. His kisses were needy. He kissed me like he hadn't kissed anyone as long as I Had. He kissed and loved on my body cupped my breast and sucked and licked them allowing mouns of ecstasy to escape my lips. I kissed him and did the same and I could tell he liked it by how his breathing quickened. We were hot and ready for the main event and he reached over and got a condom and put it on. I went on her hands and knees to let him enter me from behind and I could tell it excited him. When he tried to enter me it was so painful it felt like he was trying to tear me a new p***y hole. I tried to bear it but couldn't. "Mike no, it too much, it shouldn't feel like this" "What" "It's painfully dry" I complained He rubbed a handful of saliva there and the moment he did I knew it was a bad idea. The new found lubrication excited him and he slammed into me like a run away train into a brick wall and even as wet as it was I was still in pain. "How's that" he said between hard deep strokes. I didn't respond I Just nodded I fixed my mind to allow the pain to pleasure me and I enjoyed it for a little bit his talking and compliments made it bearable. He told me it's the best, that it was as tight as a Virgin and that it was so good. Soon I felt it dry again and tearing apart. I told him and he wet it with his saliva again, we changed position and it was no better. I reminded myself that I initiated it therefore I must follow through. After a couple more changes mouns and screams he comes and the tortue was over or so she thought. The next day he texted me that he felt guilty and that he can't do it again. I can't say I was surprised but a pang of pain lingered in my spirit. I haven't heard from him since then, a few days later I realized that I had a yeast infection the nastiest one I have had in my entire life, I tried all the home remedies I knew and nothing seemed to work. It was the result of me not having s*x so long along with being bruised sexually as well as alien body fluid (his saliva) throwing off my ph balance and the fact that my period was on its way all made way for this catastrophic female predicament. I suffered through my period with this yeast infection. The apple cider vinegar washes only helped a little which was my go to for getting rid of a yeast infection in two days flat. It was not until I had some pineapple juice after two weeks of torture that I experienced some relief. Back to the present. As I lay there and Tiger is in deep slumber I reflect on the horrible past few weeks and I wonders to myself, "what if he gets up in the middle of the night and wants sex." I suddenly became terrified was and it caused me to be unable to close my eyes. However he had put on a YouTube video that whispered Bible verses and that helped to calm me. I fell in a slumber shortly after. I woke up exactly 3:58am and decided that it's time to go home I went to pee and then told him to take me home. He was very pleasant he didn't try to feel me up or anything of the sort. He just comforted me the whole night. That was very interesting to me. In the car all I could do was smile. I was beaming and then a horrible thought enterd my mind. I've felt this way before I need to be cautious. ...