SEARCHING FOR MY MATE

A little Peace at school

I left my family house and walk to school after dropping off my brothers to school me and my kid sister always end up late as always.

Reaching the school the gate was already locked as it was half past 9am and that was like almost to classes gone. I decided to ditch school and took my kid sister to and open field opposite the school. While we sat under a tree I started to zone out and think everything as always its flooded my soul with different emotions from sadness, to craving of motherly love to peace and so on.

Today was no different from the rest days as even though I am in my first grade in senior high school the feeling of leaving home and having just a few moment of freedom was really overwhelming I love leaving my family house because I get a little sense of peace until I am back again after school.

I thought of how I have been turned into a maid in my fathers house from none other than my own mother a woman who gave birth to me! Sometimes I find it difficult to believe that she's my biological mother as the image of a mother I know is not what she is. Every single day since I come of age at 10 I have not gotten a single peace nor have a single chance to rest I ran errand from cooking, to cleaning, to scrubbing the floor and going to the market for foodstuff.

I hardly have time for myself each time I am always in the middle of either a heavy laundry, or a heavy cooking pot and stove, I Cook meal from breakfast to dinner while my mum attend her church meetings without caring if I burn my hand or feet. 

In the area/ street we live I was the most dirties  physically because I am always working I only have time to shower and change sometimes at night and in the morning before school time. 

Ceila why are you crying please don't cry I don't like seeing you cry..

I heard from afar and a hand was tapping on my shoulder, I came back to reality to the face of my kid sister Cassie who was also crying. I rush and clean my face with the back of my hand and ask her why are you crying Cassie? You were crying so I thought someone hit you like mum. Says Cassie . I look up into her black eyes and shook my head cause I couldn't say a word. My heart was in pain due to why and what she said so I just kept nodding my head saying no to her. 

As we were still trying to cup our emotional wreck feeling we head the bell dang signaling the end for my freedom and peace of mind aka temporary peace actually and the closing of school for the day my heart sang deep. For I know nothing of what the rest of the day hold. I stood up and held Cassie's hand and started walking back home.