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Pain and Anguish

I woke up in my bed after a long nap I feel like I have been asleep for months.. I tried sitting up but the pains between my legs and hip bones didn't let me move I cried silently in my room  I tried to look around for anyone but none was there except me and my shabby bed. I cried for what seems like an hour before I wipe my eyes and mange to crawl into the bathroom and there I took a cold shower and bear the sting of the pain between my legs and all my body. 

Today I am fully fourteen headed towards fifteen but till date nobody know of what Mr. Diego did to me that day in his house not even his wife I kept on doing my chores and attending my school as needed and finally I will be taking my final exams come next week hopefully everything work out fine and I leave for university or college like Catherine and Christy did with Neil well I am looking forward to that but for now let me rush and round out so I could go to the church for my practice for the final stage of baptism.

Celia when are you doing your final exams for the baptismal classes you have been attending my mom ask the memo said we are having iron Easter eve/ Easter Sunday during the mass I replied her she did ask anymore she left and I went back to preparing dinner that I had never sat down for.. Yes I know you guys will be wondering why but it's because since I started this baptismal classes I close by eight and before my walk back to the house from church it will be like an hour later by the dinner is finish so I will be left to either clear the table and do the dishes while I manage to safe the leftovers from the food my mum and siblings ate from. I know how it feels to have no one except yourself to fight for and  guide you and also how it's not possible to not get into trouble while you are avoiding it entirely.  I wonder when all my pains and anguish will be over as I lay down for the night to rest today was fair even though my mum only ask question regarding my upcoming ceremony but ocelot like deep down in her heart there is still a little love for me I smile because of the faint ray of hope at the end of a vast  dark and scarring tunnel.