The Wednesday "Curriculum Lunch" was less about textbooks and more about the man sitting across from me. Julian had chosen a quiet bistro near the school, and true to his word, he was focused entirely on me.
Now that I had decided to be more open to him, I found myself noticing the way his eyes lit up when he spoke about his ambitions, and the way he actually listened when I talked about my students. It was intoxicating to be the center of someone’s intentional focus.
"You're different today, Maya," Julian said, setting his wine glass down. "More... present. I like it."
"I told myself I needed to stop living in the past," I said, a little more bravely than I felt.
Julian leaned across the small bistro table. The distance between us vanished. "In that case," he murmured, his voice dropping to a low, magnetic hum, "maybe we should stop pretending this is about curriculum. I want to take you to the gala at the City Museum next Saturday. As more than just a colleague."
He didn't wait for an answer. He reached out, his hand sliding from the table to cup the side of my face. It was a bold move, a definite push of his luck in a public place. His thumb grazed my cheek, and for a moment, I didn't pull away. I tried to feel that "spark"—the one that was supposed to change everything.
But even as his hand lingered, my mind flickered to a denim jacket and the smell of cedar. I gently caught his wrist and moved his hand back to the table.
"Julian, wait," I said softly.
He didn't look offended; he looked intrigued. "Too fast?"
"I want to be honest with you," I started, taking a deep breath. "I like your company, and I’m open to seeing where this goes. But I’m not a person who jumps into things. I need time to be sure my heart is really in it."
Julian raised an eyebrow. "And how much time does 'sure' take?"
"Five dates," I said, the number popping into my head as a safety net. "Give me five real dates. If after the fifth one, my heart is open to it and I feel that connection... then we can talk about 'starting something.' But until then, no pressure. No expectations."
Julian leaned back, a slow, predatory grin spreading across his face. He looked like a man who loved a challenge.
"Five dates to win the heart of Maya," he mused. "That’s the most constructive offer I’ve heard all year. Consider the clock started, Maya. We’ve had the faculty dinner, the bistro... that makes two. Three more to go."
"The faculty dinner doesn't count as a date!" I laughed, feeling a sudden lightness.
"Fine, fine. We’ll start the count from tonight," he conceded, his eyes gleaming with a competitive fire. "Date number one is officially in the books. I look forward to showing you exactly why I’m worth the wait."
As I walked back to my classroom, I felt a sense of control I hadn't felt in weeks. I had a plan. I had a boundary. I was giving Julian a fair shot while protecting the part of me that still belonged to my Friday nights. I just hoped that by the time date number five arrived, I’d actually know which man I was looking for in the dark.