Why so far mother

I was still so young and you decided to leave me at grandma's house. I was still so young to even know what was going on but I know one thing and that is that mom left me for years at grandma. I used to ask grandma everyday when is mom coming back and all she said is in a few days sweetheart. I looked out of that window everyday for 10 years hoping mom wil show up but you never did. I got so use to being alone I don't even know how real love feels like and that is all thanks to you mom, thanks for breaking me into peace's. I was really hoping for just one phone call was that really so much to ask for mom just one phone call could make me happy but no that was really just a dream. I thought i was your favourite but you just left me so i geuse i was rong to think that i wil never be your favourite no matter how hard I try to you still just ignore me and go on with your day like i never even exist. All I want is love mom