Hard to love again

CHAPTER 4

Eda's POV

I had just met the dumbest and arrogant man in the whole world and I was not going to allow his stupidity ruin my day. I have never seen someone who found it so difficult to say sorry. His PA was definitely a good looking guy but he was nothing compared to the arrogant man, the arrogant man was even more built than jasper.

Why are you comparing your fiancé to that man? My subconscious self-asked.

That man has successfully made his way into my mind and he really was not planning to leave anytime soon because I was not able to forget how his face was structured so perfectly, his cheek bone stands out and his grey eyes had a very enchanting look.

‘I shouldn’t be thinking about him and definitely not when I am engaged’ I scolded myself as I made my way into the doctor’s office.

"Good morning Eda. How are you doing?" the doctor asked when I entered her office.

"I am fine. Thank you" I replied as I tried my best to hide my nervousness.

"It's normal to feel nervous" she said to me.

"I have asked the nurse to get your results from the lad and she would be here in a jiffy" she said.

I sat down patiently wondering about what would be inside the test result. My mind wanted it to be positive whereas my heart wanted it to be negative. The two have never agreed on one thing and I was just confused. I stood up immediately and rushed into the bathroom to vomit, after which I spent a few minutes tidying myself up.

When I walked into the room, I met a smiling doctor with a file on her hands. I bet that must be my test result. I cleared my throat trying to get her attention which I of course did.

"sorry" she said as she got up and walked to me in order to assist me to my seat. I thanked her after I was seated.

"is that my test result?" I asked unable to hold myself back.

"oh, it is"

"so…what does it say? Am I pregnant?" I asked.

She walked back to her seat without answering my question. The suspense was becoming too much and I really couldn’t bear it. I started fondling with the hem of my gown as I looked at her curiously. She flashed me a smile once again when she was seated.

What's with this lady and smiling" I said to myself already getting irritated.

She handed me the file that I saw her looking at earlier, I collected it without hesitation. I opened the file to read but I could not understand what was in the file. I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion.

"you are pregnant, miss Hampson" she finally said to me.

I looked up at her immediately not knowing how to feel again. I saw her smiling at me but I just looked away. I was worried.

"will jasper like the idea that I am pregnant?" I asked myself.

"Eda, I know that you must be thinking that you are too young to get pregnant but don’t worry I think your boyfriend should be happy that his girlfriend is pregnant. Besides, who does not want to have beautiful children." She said as reached out to hold my hands.

"you have a way with words ma'am" I said as I blushed remembering the last statement that she just made. She laughed and I couldn’t help it so I joined her. After that, we bade each other our good byes and I left to go home.

Coming to think of it, I have not heard from jasper ever since he returned nor has Catherine replied to my text message or called me back.

"he might be busy" I said to myself.

I stood outside the building of the hospital looking around me, I could see both the happy and the sad but I didn’t know where I could place myself. I had decided that I was going to tell jasper the news about my pregnancy today when I go to his house. I believe that he is going to be happy about the news, moreover he has told me countless times about his love for children and I pray that the love is still there.

I hailed a cab back to my apartment, I was just going to have a long and relaxing shower to cool my nerves before I dress up to go to jasper's house.

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I stared at my reflection in the mirror. I was putting on a knee length floral dress just like the one that I wore to visit the hospital with a strap sandals, I let my hair fall allowing its wavy nature to be on full display. I applied eyeliner and a lip gloss. I felt insecure about myself because I once overheard my colleagues at work saying that pregnant women tend to lose shape and become ugly. I didn’t want that; I was too young but jaspers reaction determines my decision on my pregnancy.

I locked my apartment, hailed a cab to his house. Jasper was not going to be at home so I planned to cook his favorite meal while I wait for him to come back from work before I share the good news with him. I was so anxious because I did not know what his reaction was going to be.

"Ma, we are here" the driver said.

I paid him and stepped out of the car not after muttering a thank you to him. I stood in front of his house. Jaspers house was a duplex, he was quite a successful and popular businessman. I have been in a relationship with him before he became successful and I loved him. I smiled to myself as I made my way into his house.

I smiled at the gateman after I was let to pass through which was not difficult since they knew me to be his fiancée. I helped myself into the house since I already had the key.

The house was still the same as before when I las visited, I dropped my bag on the couch in the living room not bothering to go upstairs because I already knew that no one was going to be in the house. I made my way to the kitchen to prepare his favorite meal. As I was gathering the ingredients, I heard laughter from upstairs.

"Who could be in the house?" I asked myself as I looked around scared. Jasper leaves for work by 8am and it is just 1pm so he can't be the one at home.

"Could it be that someone broke into the house?" I thought aloud, but it was not possible because the gateman would have been alerted. I picked up a knife from the drawer as I slowly made my way upstairs. I could scare them off with a knife, I said to myself.

On reaching upstairs, I tracked the sound to know where the laughter was coming from. The laughter was coming from jaspers bedroom and that convinced me the more that indeed thieves were in this house because I believe that important files must be in his room. As I got closer to the door ready for whatever was inside. I pushed the door open with all my might maybe that would scare them.

I couldn’t believe what I saw. If I knew that this was what I would see, I would have ignored it and remained in the kitchen downstairs. I could feel it deep within, my heart was torn. It was torn right in front of me. I just stood there transfixed not knowing what to do.

Was I meant to shout?

Was I meant to cry?

Was I meant to fight?

I was just confused.

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What did Eda see that is making her so confused?

Read on to find out.