What they don’t know

Dangerously in love

Beyoncé

Two weeks later

June 17th 2014

So we have decided that In the public eye, Shawn would be with my mother but privately we were still together. My mom doesn't know that though.

We barely spend time together now and it's breaking me. I'm trying to keep it together for Shawns sake but I don't know if I can hold on longer.

Mom is actually kissing on him now! Like she lets him touch her, hold her, take her out. He spends more time with her than me...

"Hey Bey!" Solo came knocking on my door

"Come in!"

She casually walked in, and sat on my bed

"So how are you and Shawn?" She asked me

I sighed and shook my head "I don't know solo."

"What you mean?" She frowned

"He just spends time with mom. We don't talk." I mumbled

"Oh.." she said

"Yea."

I sat up and looked at her "I should have known that it wasn't gonna last." I told her and giggled

"Your gonna be ok." She said

"Come on come eat." She said

I got up and we walked down the steps to see Shawn, and mom in the living room cuddled up watching one of the movies I was in.

When I walked past they both turned their heads, and then my mom spoke

"Bey! Come watch your movie with us!"

"I'm good I'm gonna go eat, and head back upstairs I kinda got a headache." I lied

"Oh nonsense!" Mama said and I shook my head and walked off to get my food I to sit at the table when my mom called me

"BEYONCÉ IM NOT GONNA TELL YOU AGAIN!" She yelled at me

I rolled my eyes, and got up to go to the living room with them.

I feel like she's doing this on purpose just to let me know that her and Shawn are "ok" but quite frankly I don't care.

Like at dinner yesterday we were all talking, and I was sitting next to Shawn on one side, and Solo was sitting on the other side, while mama was next to Solo and I. She reached over me to kiss him, and then she was all lovey dovey with him talking about marriage and shit...then she asked me what I thought.

Like I told her. It would be a stupid idea for you to marry him out of all people but you do you. She tells me oh your just jealous that I got my man back from you! She says that a lot to me now. I just let her be.

As soon as I sat down she started kissing him. I rolled my eyes, and just looked at me plate, as I slowly at my grill cheese I asked Solo to make me.

"Ok T that's enough." Shawn said

"Why?"

"We're supposed to be watching the movie." He pointed

"Ok fine."

I felt someone starring at me so I happened to look up, and it was Shawn. I immediately looked back at my plate.

I heard him sigh. Then he got up and was about to go somewhere but Tina stopped him.

"Where you going?" She looked up at him

"I'm just going to the bathroom." He told her

"Oh ok well before you go gimme kiss."

They kissed and I rolled my eyes and sucked my teeth as they broke apart and he walked off.

"You still jealous over there?" She asked me and I didn't even bother to say anything

But y'all see what I'm talking about? It's I'm always jealous. I'm just trying to figure out who she think she fooling because it damn sure ain't me.

I began hurrying up so I could go upstairs, and back to my room.

Once I stuffed my mouth with my whole sandwich I hurried up and put my plate in the sink, and made my way up the steps.

I walked into my room to see him sitting on the bed. I rolled my eyes, and got in my bed under my covers while he sat there on the edge of the bed.

"You know I miss you right?" He said and I did t say nothing because I felt like it was bogus.

"Bey I really do I know I haven't spent-"

"Shawn please go back down there with your wife." I said

I didn't tell the full story. She asked if they could have nicknames and he talking about Yea I'll call you wifey! But he's stinka.

"Bey I just-"

"no Shawn if you were gonna go back to her you should've just said so...not drag me along like you actually cares about me still." I told him

"Bey-"

"Get out Shawn." I told him but he stood there

I was getting angry. Over the two weeks my powered have been uncontrollable when I get angry or hit my head in a fight. "Bey-"

"SHAWN GO!"

"Im sorry please hear me out."

My eyes flashed as tears began falling out my eyes.

I guess he seen how serious I was and he rushed out. My mother was standing outside of my door.

"I thought you said you were going to the bathroom." She had her arms folded while tapping her foot. I wiped my tears as I rushed out of my room, and to Solos room.

I frantically knocked on her door, and she quickly opened the door.

I sighed in relief, and scrambled towards her bed. She just sat next to me and I just cried in her arms.