Riley
The knock on my door made me groan, I tried to ignore it, turning to my side and pushing the pillow over my ear to block the sound, but it came again and this time, the door was pushed open.
“Riley, you need to wake up. It’s time to get ready for school.”
I was expecting my dad’s voice, or my mother’s voice, but it was the familiar voice of Carl, and my eyes shot open.
I blinked, glancing around the room and then back at him, I had completely forgot, I moved into Carl’s house yesterday and I was in a room in his house, how could I have thought it was all a dream.
I jerked up immediately, and pulled my quilt over my chest.
Stupid of me!
He blinked at my sudden movement. I followed his gaze to my hand that gripped the quilt.
Shit!
I was wearing an oversize shirt so what the hell was I covering?
“You should knock, this is a room of a grown up!” I yelled, the words came out louder than I had expected and he returned his gaze to my face.
“I did knock.” He responded. “Get ready for class and come down stairs, I made breakfast---“
“I am not hungry!” I was hungry, I was famished, but I am too embarrassed to say I was.
He tilted his head at me. “Riley, you didn’t have anything to eat last night. Don’t you want to taste my meals? I prepared them especially for you.” He said and I blinked.
A meal, prepared by Carl, specially for me?
“I can’t have you starving under my watch. Your parents will scold me.” He said and turned to the door. “Hurry down.” He walked out of the door and shut it.
All the excitement inside of me crumbled. He was doing this because of my parents, because they asked him to watch over me, and if I don’t eat, he would have to be seen as someone with zero responsibility.
I sighed. ‘Well, perhaps you will stop seeing me as a kid soon.’
I lowered the quilt, but instantly left the bed, rushing over to the mirror, I stared at my image on it and I screamed, grabbing my disheveled hair.
I stared at the drool at the side of my lips and sobbed.
Riley, how can he see you as a woman when you look completely like a crazy teenager?!
A lady should wake up pretty. I should wake up pretty like those female celebrities in movies!
I scratched the back of my head in tears as I made it to the bathroom to shower, if I continue this way, then I might never get Carl’s attention. ‘A lady should always wake up pretty’.
I stepped out of the shower and decided to get dressed, if I was going to be the problem I plan to be, then I was going to be the kind he doesn’t forget after three months.
I wore tight black skirt, white button down with two buttons undone which was too many, exposing part of my chest. I paired it with thigh high stockings that peeked when I walked, this wasn’t an outfit I dolled up for my classmates, it was for Carl.
I smiled in satisfaction at my image on the mirror and headed downstairs, I wanted his hands to shake the second I came for diner, a smile curved up on my lips when I saw him, but they disappeared at the sight of the person sitting next to him.
Nora?
What they hell is she doing here so early in the morning?
“Good morning, Riley, how did you sleep?” Nora turned when she heard me enter, a smile spread through her painted lips.
Good morning my butt!
“It was good, thank you.” I responded with hostility, gripping my school bag.
“Come sit, I made you a---“
“I am not hungry.” I interrupted Carl and he turned to me.
“Riley…”
“I am leaving first!” I walked out of the house before he would say another word
I curled into fist at both side, waiting outside the door for a brief moment to know if Carl would come after me, but there was no Carl, all the hopes I have to impress him with my outfit were ruined.
Does Nora lives here now? I stomped my feet in anger. It was barely eight in the morning and she was already sitting in the dining room.
I was furious, but I stopped myself from going back into the house and causing a scene, rather I dragged my feet toward the bus station.
Since Nora was here Carl wouldn’t even offer to drive me, it look like I was losing even before I started.
He was going to marry her, and I didn’t even ask when that would be…
I raised my eyes up to hold back the tears threatening to fall, I have to be cool, I have to act matured, but every time I see her close to him, each time she was there sitting next to him instead of me hurts like hell!
Coming to his house should be my moment to be with him, to claim him, but now I can’t even do that because Nora chose to show up each time I try to get a chance.
I stepped out of the bus when we arrived at school, making my way toward the gate, but my path was blocked.
“Riley…” Neil gawked at me. “You look…” His lips were parted wide, his eyes lowered from my head to my toe and his cheek flushed. “Distracting…” He muttered.
I clenched my jaw, that was the point of all the effort I put in dressing up, but it wasn’t for Neil to stare, it wasn’t for him to admire, I needed this reaction from Carl, but I didn’t get it, not even a glimpse.
“I am seriously not in the mood, Neil, please move.” I told him.
“Riley, at least tell me the reason you rejected me yesterday, no matter how much I think about it, it just doesn’t make sense.”
He was right, to everyone it makes no sense, he was handsome, popular, charming, the kind of boy I should have a crush on, but he wasn’t Carl and there was no explanation to that, not being Carl was enough reason.
“I already gave you my answer, Neil.” I brushed past him but he followed beside me.
“I am sure I must have not shown myself properly to you, it’s my fault for confessing my feelings without first making you see my intentions are clear but…”
I stopped abruptly, perhaps it was the mood I got from seeing Nora so early this morning that made me agitated, and made me turn my anger at Neil.
“That wouldn’t change anything! Go away Neil, find other girls that are ready to fall for your charm because I am not one of them, stop bothering me else I will sue you!” I shouted, making heads turn in our direction.
The moment I said that, his face fell, the color drained out of them and I instantly regretted it, but I couldn’t take it back, there was no changing what I had just said.
I clenched my jaw and walked ahead toward the school entrance, I could hear lot of girls muttering curses at me, but my mind was far from here, far from their hateful gaze, it was back at Carl’s house.
What was he doing with Nora now?
Have they pushed the plates aside and decided to do it on the dining table?
Was he grabbing her and pressing her toward the table while thrusting hard on her?
Was he kissing her face now or perhaps wrapped naked around her arms?
I buried my head on my desk, squeezing my eyes shut to block the thoughts dancing around my head!
How do I make him see me?