Becoming Luna

“Mine.” Siena closes her eyes and sobs, her blissful expression twisting with the sudden pain as Andrew sinks into her, growling with unbridled lust, past caring whether she’s ready for him or not. “Goddess above, you feel so good…” he moans, which makes her feel a little bit better. “R-Really?” “Can I c*m inside you?” Already!? She almost asks out loud. She has just barely adjusted to his… intrusion and he’s already about to— “Pull it out!” she yelps, a little panicked. “Y-You can spray it on my tummy…” He seems to struggle and for a few tense seconds, Siena is afraid he is going to c*m inside her, but thank goodness he’s able to pull out at the very last second, and she sighs with relief. It’s not that she doesn’t want his pups, of course she does. But it’s too soon and she wants to enjoy their life together for a bit first. They just found out they’re fated mates and even though she has known him all her life, as he is the Alpha’s son and heir, she still wants to be smart about this and do things right. Too many times she’d witnessed fated mates becoming miserable in just a matter of months because they had pups right away, with no plans, no real idea what they were going into. Cheating was most often the reason couples break up, but betrayal was just the last straw that broke the camel’s back. People were already in a bad place even before seeking comfort from other people. She firmly believes that mates who are happy and content with each other would never cheat. Siena wants hers and Andrew’s relationship to have a solid foundation first. For them to actually know each other better, in a deeper and more intimate sense, not just as kids who used to hang out together and found themselves fated mates. After all, they will be the future Alpha and Luna, meant to lead the pack when the time comes and take care of the territory granted to them by the Alpha King. She wants to help improve the lives of their pack members, family and friends and everyone else. She can’t explain it; it’s like a calling of sorts. Other girls dream of becoming Luna because of the lofty position and its perks, like being with the alpha and every comfort that goes with being the leading lady of the pack. For them, it is romantic and exciting, like when girls play pretend-princess or queen. For Siena, or Sisi as Andrew fondly calls her, it goes deeper than that, for becoming Luna is a great honor, yes, but more importantly, she sees it as a chance to make things better for everyone in their pack. Her parents taught her fierce dedication to their people, back when they were still alive. Loyalty to the pack, above all else. Her mother was a beta and her father a gamma. They passed away when she was sixteen, during a particularly vicious rogue wave attack (that’s what they call it when dozens of rogues somehow find a common ground and work together like a pack) and she had been living alone since, until her eighteenth birthday when she found out she was fated to the Alpha’s son and heir. Andrew gasps as he spills his seeds on her tummy. She winces in secret, a little disgusted when he started to smear it all over her skin like lotion, instead of getting a tissue to wipe it clean. There’s just… so much stickiness. Ugh. He chuckles as he stands up, obviously pleased with himself and utterly oblivious to her…rather conflicted feelings. “Now everyone will smell me on you and have no doubt that I have claimed you. Future Luna Sisi.” Siena sighs glumly, watching as he walks over to the bathroom to shower. Frankly, she should be the one running to the bathroom to clean herself. Next time, maybe she’ll race him to it. To be fair, things have been nice and even kinda hot while they were goofing around. She liked how he seemed so hungry for her and it made her feel desirable. The kisses were a little sloppy and slobbery but it’s fine, she’s hoping things will improve with practice. In the context of physical intimacy, where making out is base one, she’d only gotten as far as second base, which is touching above the waist, so tonight was something she was really looking forward to, as she didn’t really have any prior experience below the waist, not being one of the girls who fooled around and experimented before it was time. She knew the basics—her mother would never have let her be completely clueless—but it’s more textbook knowledge than actual personal experience. There’s playing with herself, of course, and she enjoys that… but she was told by the other girls that s*x with one’s mate would be better. This is so not better. Before she knew it, she was being spread open and… penetrated. Claimed unceremoniously because fate tells them she belongs to him. And then, apparently, that was it, they were done. She expected discomfort, even pain because it was her first time, but this almost felt like a violation. One that she allowed to happen because he’s her mate. Slowly, she rose from the bed to get a wet tissue from the vanity mirror, wiping Andrew’s love juice away, wondering what was all the fuss about the joys of s*x. Is it all just mind-conditioning? Should she convince herself she had a great time? Because what she just experienced was…well, underwhelming, to put it kindly. It’s not completely horrible, but should it really feel like there should be…more? ‘Maybe we just need to practice. Really be comfortable with each other…’ she thinks to herself. This is their first time doing it together, after all. Maybe as they become more at ease…more familiar with one another, they can talk about stuff and tell each other what feels good and what doesn’t. Her mother said intimacy should improve in time. That friendship helps. She hopes it’s true. Siena sighs, wishing Andrew would be as quick in the bathroom as he was in bed. She feels sticky and sweaty… uncomfortably hot. She definitely needs a good, refreshing shower. If she’s going to be honest, she also needs time to ‘take care of herself’, since Andrew failed in that account. However, just as she hears him turning off the shower, a warning howl echoes throughout their whole territory. “Rogues!” The warriors report through mind-link. “Northwest enclosure!” Siena stands up, gasping in fear, and Andrew runs out of the shower without even drying himself. He orders her to go to the packhouse and help the other omegas hide the pups, and also to protect the elderly wolves. The territory is under attack! Andrew shifts as soon as they are outside the private cottage they now share, running in the direction where most of the fighting is happening, while she runs the opposite way to help in any capacity she can. Only, halfway there, she halts as she spots another creature from several yards away, headed in the same direction. A rogue, red-eyed, stinky even from a distance, and foaming in the mouth. He must have slipped through the chaos, passing through the borders undetected because he’s alone. “A-Andrew—!” She tries to call her mate. “Kinda busy here, Sisi!” he grunts. “Need to focus!” “There’s a rogue here—!” “What!? Ouch, damn it, where—” “East side, near the old oak tree of—” “Don’t engage—I’ll send someone as soon as I can—” F*ck! She’s on her own for now. The rogue wolf growls, looking around suspiciously, probably smelling her fear. This is bad! If he finds her, she needs to shift to have any hope of surviving this. The only problem is, she just recently learned how to do it, and it still takes her a while to fully transform into her wolf form, unlike Andrew who can shift in a matter of seconds already, mid-run. She needs time to be a wolf, however, she doubts the rogue will be kind enough to wait for her to be able to defend herself. This isn’t a Japanese anime world like Sailor Moon, where the enemies wait while the sailor warriors transform. But to stay human means certain death, so she has to give it a try. Also, if she doesn’t stop the rogue now, he will go to the packhouse and more people will get hurt. As future Luna, she cannot allow that to happen, so she can’t just stay here and hide… Siena closes her eyes as she wills herself to shift, telling herself to be quiet, and most of all, to be brave. Maybe this is what it takes to become a Luna. It takes courage, it takes selflessness, it takes… initiative. She’s not Luna yet, but she has to start somewhere. She read in a book once that ‘pride is how one behaves when there are people watching, while honor is how one acts when no one else can see’. Unfortunately, something else is going to be taken from her that night. Something that will change her and her life forever. Halfway through her painful shift, the wind blows in the opposite direction, and the rogue catches her scent…