Investigating chase

“Hey take it easy!” Mom had said to me “Don’t tell me to take it easy!” I screamed at my mom. “Would you be able to take it easy if dad was dead?” I screamed once again. “ Honey, I know it hurts and you have a right to hurt” mom said as calmly as she could. “ we have been together for 4 years not to mention best friends, since we were kids” I sobbed as I thought about the night chase had died. We had done everything together. We were going to the same college when we graduated, we were talking about our future which involved, our wedding and having kids. He always wanted at least 2 but I was good with one. Now that has been ripped away from me in the blink of an eye. I ran up the spiral staircase and into my bedroom. Pictures of chase and I everywhere. That is one thing I loved about us, we captured every moment we could. That was something we both had in common we wanted to remember each other forever. All of a sudden fury just fueled the inside of me like a tea kettle that was ready to be pulled off the stove. I went full force at everything that I could get my hands on. Pictures, notes, and whatever else that was in my grasp. After I had finished I realized I had demolished every single memory we have ever had. Tears still stung my eyes and stained my face. I found a ripped up picture of me and chase on our first date. I clutched it in my fist as if he was still with me and I cried myself to sleep. When I had woke up the next morning my eyes and head were hurting from crying last night. I slowly sat up and looked around at the mess that was all around me. “ No no no! What have I done?!” I exclaimed as I looked at all the shredded memories that used to hold the love that we shared. Each picture told a story and now that is gone too. I put my head in my hands and started crying once again. I heard my mother coming up the staircase and knock on my bedroom door. “Come in” I said in a raspy voice, still sitting in the pool of shredded paper. Mom walked into my room and gasped. “Awh honey” she said calmly and walked over to me and just held me while I cried into her lap. She held me as I sobbed and just sat there and rubbed my hair. I didn’t know what to do anymore. We didn’t know anything about the investigation, my love was taken from me and I have no more memories of us. I had hit my breaking point with everything. I lifted from my moms lap, my blonde hair sticking to my pale face and my blue eyes puffy and red. My hair started curling up from the salty water that hit each strand. I look up at my mom and her bright blue eyes stare back at me, her perfect blonde hair pulled back into a loose bun and she still had her pajamas on from last night which consisted of shorts and a tee shirt. We stayed with her holding me for a few minutes and then mom had an idea. “C’mon let’s go get some breakfast, I know just what will cheer you up” mom smiled. “I’m not really hungry but if their is pancakes, I’m all down for some food” I looked around the room a bit. My mom chuckled at my reaction. My mom always knows how to make me feel better and knows that food is the key to my heart. I mean I’m not that big of a person but I should be with how much I eat. I followed mom downstairs to see the dining room table filled with food. My eyes grew big,there was everything I could think of. Bacon, pancakes, eggs, muffins, fruit, orange juice, coffee, and you know my mom always gotta have something healthy, hence the fruit and I see water too. My mom already knows I’m not going for fruit or water. My mom has always known how to cook especially since she owns her own catering business which is booming by the way. Most of the time she tries to go the healthier route but she knew I needed this. No my mom is not one of those controlling diet handlers she knows when to hold back. We ate breakfast and then we both went upstairs and got dressed. I just pulled out some leggings and a long comfortable tee shirt and my vans and I walk downstairs. Mom had on one of her summer dresses with some sandals and her sun glasses. We walked out the house and to our SUV and got in and drove into town. We were passing all the stores and we came to an intersection with a red light. Intersections make me nervous because you never know what someone will do. Finally the light turned green and mom went to pull off. I saw something out the corner of my eye and immediately stopped my mom “What the hell winter!” She exclaimed Right when she finished the sentence we saw a truck barreling toward us. “Mom! Move! Now!” I screamed Mom moved as much as she could without going into the sidewalk, the barreling truck barely missed us and sideswiped us a bit. Not enough to hurt us just enough to shake us up.my mom looked at me petrified. “Are you okay?!” She panicked “Yeah I’m fine just shaken” I said my voice trembling and me shaking. We both got out the car and everybody including us were wondering where the hell that truck came from. I looked around and saw someone in a hat and hoodie. I thought to myself it’s 100 degrees out here why the f**k would you wear a hoodie. I locked eyes with him and he kind of smirked. I made a face confused and all of a sudden a black car rolls up and he rushes inside. “ what the hell that was weird” I said aloud. “What was that honey?” Mom looked at me, clearly, still shaken. I didn’t want frighten her but that honestly scared me so I kept it to myself “Nothing, just thinking about what just happened” I lied. “Okay,let’s call the insurance company’s d everything and then we will do what we were going to do” she said “Okay” I said Mom starts calling the police and insurance company. This is gonna be a long morning. After about 2 hours we finally got everything straight and went on about our day. We finally finished everything and headed home. I was so excited about everything that I had gotten and couldn’t wait to go back to school at some point. Which I know it sounds soon but I have to stay busy to keep my mind off of everything. I needed to ask my mom first, I value her opinion so let’s just see what she says. We had put all of our stuff down and I stood there nervously. Mom could tell something was bothering me when she looked at me. “ you okay, honey?” Mom asked with concerned in her voice “Yeah, I’m fine I was just wondering if I could go back to school?” I asked “Honey, don’t you think it’s too soon? I mean if that’s what you want but I don’t know.” “ I mean it may be too soon, but it will keep me busy and keep my mind off of things.” I told her “Okay, how about next week?” She asked “How about tomorrow?” I asked quickly “ Honey, it’s only been a few days since everything happened. Don’t you think you need some more time?” She asked. “ I know but it may be good for me” “ I don’t know they are still investigating and we know nothing” she replied “ mom more than likely they will be investigating next week” I told her Looking defeated, my mother finally gave in to me. “Fine you can go, but under one condition. If you can’t handle it you don’t go back until you are stable enough too” A smiled widened on my face as I screamed. All my mother could do was chuckle, she enjoyed seeing me happy. I hugged her, grabbed my bags and ran upstairs. I was so excited to start back school tomorrow. I’m pretty sure word had already spread. You also know being in high school there could be multiple rumors going around. So Jolene’s up all my bags to see everything that we had bought. I had pulled out a nice wine red maxi dress for tomorrow. It flared out and moved with me when I walked. I also Picked out some gold sandals that paired well with it. I had hung up my clothes on my closet door and put everything up into my closet. I know what your probably thinking and I haven’t cleaned up the paper yet but I’m about too. After everything was up I bent down and started picking up all the torn paper I had done the night before and threw them away. It was hard to see all my memories gone, but it was my fault. As I was cleaning up I had noticed something sticking out from the corner of my bed I had never noticed. Then again I haven’t really been on the floor and my vision and mind was too blurred last night. I pulled it out and it was a note I looked over it and it was from chase. “Hey my love, By the time you get this I maybe missing or dead. I didn’t want to scare you so I hid what had been going on because I wasn’t quite sure myself. I’m sure someone has been following me as well as sending me unknown emails and text messages. I didn’t take it seriously at first but they just kept coming. I don’t know why someone is after me but I want you to know that I love you. I have loved the times that we have had. Please don’t give up and live out our dreams even though I’m not there. Whether it’s on your own or with someone else. I don’t want your light to dim because you can light up a room just by being yourself and happy. If you don’t have the strength yourself to move on and be happy, do it for me I will always be with you no matter what. I know it would have probably been too soon but I was planning on proposing and now I can’t do that but when you feel comfortable let someone in who can do what I did. I know they are not me and I know you will make sure they won’t replace me. You mean the world to me and I will fight to come back to you if I can, I will be thinking of you until I take my last breath. I hope everything you dream comes true. I love you my love. Chase” Tears started flowing down my face, anxiety and anger was building at the same time. Why didn’t he tell me? Maybe I could have protected him. I feel like he was protecting me so I would t get in the middle of it. He knows I would have risked myself for him. Could the same people be after me? Is that why that guy I saw today was suspicious? So many questions and no answers.