Me and Him

From my childhood, I have never thought of being attracted to people who are older than me, I was one of those girls who wanted someone younger than me. I don’t know if this was because I was the last born and there were always people who are bigger than me or the fact that I hanged around older people so much that I liked being with younger people more. Maybe I wanted to be closer to people I can control. Anyway, my resolution from childhood was that even when I marry later in the future, it was going to be a man who is younger than me. Because of this perception, I found it hard at first when I thought that I was into this lecturer of ours who was taking us a certain unit at school. Being as I was, I first ignored this fact and disconcerted it as a mere mismatch of the heart, you know it happens. Also, I was from a break up with my boyfriend so I had all the reasons not to disregard this possibility. However, it turns out that the more I ignored this feeling the more it created a longing to see this certain lecturer. Within no time, I could not miss any of his lectures and wanted him to look at me every time as he was teaching. It became a habit, within no time, I would wear hot and sexy just to be noticed. This was a desperate and stupid move, I know, and even for me, I couldn’t believe the occurrences. Well, after like three weeks of my attention seeking, it became absolute that I was not just insane, I was actually crushing for him. Me? A lecturer? In my class? oh gosh! Sometimes I would look at my image in the mirror and completely see someone else, staring back at me. A person going against each and every belief that I stood for and wasn’t afraid of the change. As we neared the fourth week, I think he noticed me, and my desperate urge for attention, I can't forget that day, it was on a Wednesday and some of the students were not in class, so I went and sat in front. While I had been seeking his attention for the past month, this was actually the first time that I was sitting in front, I am basically a backbencher, so this became quite uncomfortable for the first few minutes, then I got the hold of things. I realized that he had also been charmed and was actually taking his time to look at me for sometime when explaining a concept during the lecture. Maybe he was not, I can’t actually tell. Don’t ask me what he was talking about, I swear I don’t know, I just remember his lips, as he tried to explain something and the color of his deep eyes as I was trying to keep eye contact with him to show how attentive I was. I decided to increase my stakes, I cleared my throat softly in a cough, but it didn’t go as loud, I heard my voice echo through the silent lecture room. He caught a glare of me from his side then he paused and continued. Sensing how I had drawn his attention to me, I made up some room between me and the desk I was sitting on, then, as if not knowing what was going on, slowly opened a portion of my thighs. An old move I know, but it worked like a charm, it's amazing how men are still caught by a form of trick as old as it looked, go try it, you’ll see. I was wearing a tiny tight black mini and a Cyran blouse that exposed my burst out. Although just a portion was showing, I didn’t want to use my burst this day, I wanted more than that, he could use the burst some other day. It took him a couple of minutes to realize that I was actually showing some chop chop actions. I think he lost his mind when he looked my way because from deep down his eyes, I felt him go cold, then he pulled himself together and continued with the lecture. He would take a small gaze at me once in a while then look to the other side.