Is it love, or is it hell??

Chapter 11: Carmen's P.O.V

I open my eyes slightly, I am in a dark room, I cannot see where but I smell him, that heavenly scent that makes every hair on my body stand up.. I try to move but I can't I am sore, every part of my body aches.. I try and fight the tiredness but I cannot win, I am limp, exhausted, I close my eyes and let the darkness consume me once more..

3 hours later....

"Wake up baby" I hear

"Mmmmm" is all I can say

"Wake up Carmen" my wolf says, howling in appraisal

I flutter my eyes open and come face to face with that beautiful man that haunts my dreams, I shoot up straight in bed in the process hitting my forehead against his nose..

"s**t f**k" I say

"Are you ok, I am sorry I didn't mean to hurt you" I plead guilty

He chuckles lightly, stands up holding his bloody nose and walks over to the bathroom I presume

"It's fine baby, just a little blood' he says

"Can I help you with that, i mean to stop the blood"

I get up and walk over to the bathroom, when I am inside the brightness blinds me for a moment.. Finally getting use to the light I look up and see Dom smirking at me, his eyes are trailing from my head down to my pinky toes...

Gosh why is he staring at me like that, his eyes are black full of love or lust, I am not sure, I have not experienced these feelings in a while gosh I need help...

"Uhmmm...mmmm"

"Oh yes, sorry" dom says

"Would you like some coffee" he asks

"Yes please, do you mind if I uhm shower real quick" I ask

"Yeah sure, go right ahead, I will be downstairs in the kitchen"

He turns around and leave, brushing past me, that scent catches my nose again and i inhale, closing my eyes, my wolf purrsssss , like a cat I think to myself lol......

Getting undressed, I turn on the water, setting it to my liking, stepping in, just letting the water run down my back and face, it feels so good, I need to wash away the past few days of hell, torture, deceit and rape... God I was raped against my will, how will I ever over come this, I feel so dirty, used....

I take the sponge and squirt some shower gel on, and I start scrubbing myself so hard my skin is red bright red, I never realized I am crying until the soft sobs escapes my lips, I fall to my knees and the dam opens and I sob, I don't know for how long but the water has run cold, I lay there on the floor with my knees curled up into my chest, I hear a soft knock on the bathroom door and before I could answer Dom steps into the shower fully clothed, under the cold water, he doesn't say anything but scoops me up bridal style and carries me over to the bed.

He lays me down gently and starts drying me, his touch is so soft, sending sparks all over.. His touch is like electricity, awaking things in me that have been dead for years now.. I look up and his staring at me, not breaking contact I put my hand over his and I stop him , I look into his eyes and I lean forward, placing a soft kiss on the side of his mouth, he growls lightly and I smirk..

"Thank you" I say

"No need to thank me Carmen, you are my mate and I will go to hell and back protecting you, you are my life now" he says

I just stare at this beautiful man before me and smile

"Do you have some clothes for me please"

"Yes, I do actually, Uhm I went and got you some the other day" he says rubbing the back of his neck

"No need to explain, you done it with good reason" I say

He smiles and stands up, going over to the closet and fetching me some black jeans and a purple puma t-shirt with some black vans..

"Here you go, I will be downstairs"

"Thank you"

He walks away and I start dressing , he really has good taste, I make my way over to the closet and get some undies, a black bra and a black thong, so sexy but yet I feel so dirty...

I go and get dressed, lightly fluffing my wet hair with the towel, leaving my hair to hang lose, I walk to the bathroom and look at my reflection in the mirror, I look like shit.. My green eyes are sunken in, I have a cut above my lip, a slight bruise a very visible one on my eye.. Splashing my face with some cold water, I make my way down the stairs to dom..

"In here" he says

"Mmmm that smells great" I say

"Well thank you, I figured you could be hungry"

"I am starving" I say

He just smiles at me and pours me a cup of coffee

"Here you go, take a seat, breakfast will be right up"

"Thank you, I blush"

Sitting down at the island, I cannot help but stare at him while he cooks, he is so handsome, the way he moves around the kitchen in ease, his muscles flex everytime he flips the pancakes, his ass OMG, it's so delicious, turning around I eye his package once again, DAMN his big, what Id do to have that in my mouth, so caught up in my own dirty thoughts I don't hear him call me.

"Eyes up here baby" he says laughing

I blush and stare down at my coffee

"No need to blush beautiful, soon it will all be yours, I just need to have you checked out by our pack dr first" he says

I just nod and start eating my pancakes with bacon and egg, no use arguing with an Alpha..

After a few bites of my food, I finally have the courage to look into his mesmerizing eyes

"So, how did you know where to find me"

"I had this funny feeling when you left the club with that bastard, why did you leave with him"

"I uhm, I don't know, he wouldn't take no for an answer so I just thought 1 drink wouldn't hurt a fly"

"Well it sure as hell did, you are bruised, you were beaten, fed wolvesbane, and raped, do I need to go on"

Shit, his mad, really mad.....

"I am sorry Dom, what do you want me to say, I made a mistake ok" I shout

" Carmen.. I didn't mean to ... f**k"

I got up, pushed my plate away and made my way back to the bedroom, I slumped down on the bed and went to sleep... I could feel his presence in the room but I ignored the pull, I just shut my eyes and let sleep consume me..

"Wake up baby, the dr is here to see you"

"Mmmmmm"

"Come on darling, I need you to wake up baby"

I open my eyes, and sit up, resting my head on the headboard., I look up and see Dom sitting on the side of the bed, next to Dom is a handsome elderly man..

"Hi I am tom" the pack dr

He extends his hand to me to shake, we shake hands and he comes to sit on the other side of me..

"I am going to examine you, take your temperature and give you some meds ok Luna, he says"

"Dom do you want to stay while I examine her, I don't need to be rude but she needs to be naked as I need to examine her lady parts to for any scaring etc..

My eyes shoot up and Dom is staring at Tom.. I grab his hand and squeeze gently, giving him a small smile..

"Can you stay with me please" I aks

He turns his head around so fast and smiles at me

"Sure baby, whatever you need"

"Ok then, can you please undress for me Luna"

I do as I am told and I strip down naked, hearing some soft growls from Dom I know he is jealous but I want him to know that I trust him completely to love and protect me..

"Ok lets start from the top" he says

Tom examines every part of my body, from my head, to my eyes, my nose, ears EVERYWHERE.. I had to spread my legs, bend over, I have never felt so vulnerable in my life before... After what seemed hours were finally over..,

"Ok, you have minor bruising on your face and a cut on your lip, no broken ribs but they were fractured, your wolf has been healing you... You have anal scaring from force, you have vaginal scaring as well but not as bad as your uhm rectum" he says

"I am prescribing you some antibiotics to get rid of any infection present as your temp was a little unusual, it will help rid the wolvesbane too, some pain killers for the pain and some ointment for your anus, please do rest and when you bath pour some sea salt it, it will help heal the scaring and tearing"

"Thank you Tom"

"It's my pleasure Luna, he says and bows his head

Dom left to see the Dr out, I went to the bathroom and had a quick shower, changing into once of Dom's t-shirts and slipping into the bed..

He came in with a tray with some fresh fruit, some coffee and a hamburger and chips, I couln't help but smile at his kind gesture...

"Thank you for everything Dom, you have been nothing but nice to me"

"No need to thank me baby, eat up and get some rest"

I ate half of my burger and a few fries, feeding Dom in the process, his taking such great care of me I need to see to his needs to.. Placing the tray aside,I slowly climb onto his lap, straddling him..

"Woooooohhhh baby, what are you doing" he asks

"I am just saying thank you"

I bend my head down and I smash my lips to his, I kiss him hungrily, I cannot help it, I want him so bad, the pull is strong, cannot deny it any further.. He grabs my ass hard yanking me forward towards his erection, a small growl escapes my lips...

"MINE" I say

"Mmmmm all yours baby"

We stay in that position for a good 20 minutes, breaking our kiss we look lovingly into each others eyes...

I cannot help but think I am falling hard for my MATE...