#TOXIC,#newadult,#romance

kara "Mark my words Kara, you'll never make it in life . Without me you'll amount to nothing " After hearing those words I ran but instead I fell into a dark hole with no end, an abbys. My eyes opened, I woke up startled. My entire body was covered in sticky sweat, I got out of the bed and went to the bathroom where I washed my face. My head was pounding like somebody was hitting me with a metal rod every five seconds. This is the third time in a row that I have been having these nightmares. Perhaps it was time to get a psychiatrist. Even now I remembered that dream vividly. The words that I had heard over and over again before I moved out of that toxic environment came to haunt me after two years, I let out a chuckle. I went back to my room and looked at the time from my phone, it was only 4.00am, meaning I had slept for only four hours. Even then I had no desire to go back to bed, I went to my study and concentrated at the finance report I had to analyze and prepare. ******* My phone kept on buzzing non stop. I was still in a meeting with the CEO and other board members, fortunately it was on silent and the only thing that reminded me of it's existence was the constant buzzing, which I knew was from my Bestie's texts.We were to have a lunch date and It was almost 1.30pm. I hurried the presentation and after 10 minutes the meeting was over. I took out the phone and skimmed over the texts where are you? I found a great spot come at The Tailsman Restaurant Their SUSHI is great hello you there? KARA???? I'm so worried right now are you coming?? where are you?? I smiled at her concerned text then typed was held up at work coming in the next ten minutes ? I put my phone back in my purse after I called an Uber( .....I really wasn't in the mood for driving myself ) I got into the backseat and leaned back on the soft seat. I could not help but feel indebted to my best friend. How she is such a blessing to my life and maybe if it were not for her I probably would be dead. FLASHBACK Two years ago..... "Shiks Shiks " I called out in the night. I could not see any lights coming from inside the house, I presumed that she was asleep so I knocked a little bit harder it was raining heavily and there was a strong wind blowing I had only my pajamas....and I was shivering. I knocked again this time the door was opened and my sleepy best friend came into view , when she saw my puffy and swollen eyes she quickly let me in and enveloped me in a tight hug. I let my tears fall freely as I sobbed into her nightgown ." it's ok ..let it out .....just let it out it'll be fine" Present time I walked into the restaurant and immediately spotted where she was seated. "I can't believe you've already ordered! " " you are the one who took eons to come , what took you so long ?" " Sorry gal today I had a lot of work not to mention the financial report presentation" we both ate our lunch in silence, which was weird since I was used to her spilling all the town gossip which was always juicy. " what's up....you seem down today" she sipped her Muscadet white wine before she turned and faced me. " Kara can I ask you for a favor?" "sure.... anything" "will you come to church with me on Sunday?.....please don't say no" I smiled nervously. I was not exactly a religious person and Shiks more than anyone else knew that, why would she suddenly ask for my presence to a place I personally don't like " Shiks you know how I feel about going to church, look I respect the fact that you are a Christian and that the Faith works for you but it does not work for me... I'm sorry I can't do that. ask me for something else" I did not want to have any more discussions concerning the topic so I changed the subject. " So how's Gift doing......it's been long since I last saw him" she took another bite from her sushi roll before answering " that's probably because he moved on with another girl" of all the answers I was anticipating that was the least expected. For a moment I did not know what to say to her, " I'm so sorry Shiks....what happened? ...I mean how.....?" " just found out that he has been having an affair with some girl called Ashley....." I could see tears forming at the corners of her eyes. " hey it's ok .....it's going to be fine besides....you are a nice person you'll find your match soon", to be honest I felt so lame telling her that but again I had zero experience in relationships. I just flirted and left it at that. " He was just using me ....no wonder he was always too busy for me " I held her hands in a reassuring manner ," I wanted you to come with me to church on Sunday so we could sign up for that trip to Israel .....so we could go together he will be there and I want to appear strong...and in control I can't do that without you," In as much as I did not want to, Shiks has always been there for me and this time she needed me. For my bestie I was willing to break this boundary, I will go to church if it meant helping her.