My Diary

Chapter 06

Sometimes , I do have doubts that all my dreams , all my plans won't just work out . It seems like something in my head keeps on telling me , " Isaiah , wake up ! Wake up from your daydreaming and face reality , life is not all about rainbows and butterflies , face it ! It won't work out , It just can't " . It just keeps on playing in my head , even some of my mates discourage me not all of them though .

I really want to study abroad because the lecturers and other academic staff in universities in Nigeria usually go for strikes for one issue or another with the government and they resume when their needs are met and this can take weeks and even months and as such , delaying the students and rupturing the academic calendar and this really affects the students . I have heard of students who were supposed to graduate after 4 years but it took them 6 years , some of them even take 8 years and I really don't want that . Mike asked me , ' how are you going to get admission ? Can you be able to afford it ? ' . He also said , ' Even if you get admission , how can you cope over there ? You will be all by yourself , there are also so many racists out there , how are you going to survive ? "

I get that as a friend , he wants the best for me but he also want me to see beyond and the possible outcomes . I am beginning to see sense in what he is trying to tell me and honestly , I am gradually giving up on the idea of studying overseas , I guess that is reality for you . As for my dreams of being a singer and actor , it won't change no matter what they say , so watch out , in the next few years , you will probably hear of me . I am going to be in position where I can help a lot of people and yes , I know I have been talking about my dreams all through but please just bare with me .

Over at school , I am quiet and shy but people who know me very well know that I am a talkative , I talk a lot . I am friendly so it's not a surprise that I have a lot of friends . Our class is termed 'the most noisiest class in the school ' and we normally get in to trouble for that . It' is really tedious having long lectures , practicals , assignments , tests and exams , oh lord ! It is not easy at all . I offer ten subjects .

Chemistry (my arch nemesis) a particular subject that I find hard to understand , I am trying to . Physics ! Filled with lots of formulas , laws and problems to solve , I love it and hate it at the same time if that's actually possible . I love biology , Iove learning how the body works . Civic Education is really not a difficult subject but our teacher , Miss Lucia AKA Lucifer , she keeps on making our lives miserable ! She is sassy and stone hearted , she doesn't listen to excuses or pleas , she is the worst ! Economics class is the most boring of them all , even with the not so funny jokes that Mr Pelem always tell . Most of the time , I love to hang with my friends but there are times when I sit alone in the class probably writing or resting my head on my desk , I do visit the library from time to time . Honestly , I love my classmates but there are times when I feel that I am being a bother to someone and I just pull back a little and keep some distance , there are times when they take me for granted probably because they see me as a weakling and when that happens , I give them a piece of my mind , that's just the way I am . I made good memories like when we got into trouble for making noise and get punished , the punishment was actually fun , we got to share some giggles and laughs , made memorable moments from that , we are more than just friends , more than just classmates , we are like a family .

Friday is actually the best day of the week because we usually don't have a lot of classes on Fridays and we do have a lot of free time , Friday is stress free . So , basically after holding meetings in our various clubs , we chatter , some students play around the school compound till when school closes .

After school , I do some little chores , do my assignments , prepare for a test if there is going to be a test the next day , and if there is still some time left , I write or browse through f*******: and check my email for any updates . On Fridays , I watch T.V till late in the night or when my mom make me to go to bed just when the movie is getting more interesting . On Saturday , I do my laundry , sweep and mop the floors and some other chores and then I spend the rest of the day doing whatever I want . On Sunday , I go to church and prepare for the next day . Alright , I basically spend my day eating , watching T .V , napping , arguing with my sister , screaming and nagging so that my brothers will stay put and stop jumping around the house and even if I want to go out , I just can't because they won't let me and even if they let me , I don't where exactly to go and that's another problem .

I have been thinking a lot lately , all my dreams and aspirations are good but they seem so unrealistic , my mind is filled with a lot of doubts and I fear that they might never materialize , I just don't know what to do at this point , I hope I figure it out .

I never knew that songwriting was this difficult but I am getting much better in it and my voice is kind of improving . I'm totally shocked to have 400+ readers for A Christmas To Remember and 546 readers in total for both Killing Me Slowly and A Christmas To Remember , it means a lot to me . Exams is next week and I have been preparing for it . The school is preparing for students to attend a leadership and training programme during the holidays and I hope my parents let me go .

There are links below to my stories , make sure you check out . This is not just my diary , it's my story . Thanks for reading !

Killing Me Slowly

A Christmas To Remember

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