Those years of lost youth

I have a cousin who comes from a wealthy family. From childhood to adulthood, I regarded him as my best friend. Just entered the first year of high school, a girl named Chen Xiao came to the class. The person is very beautiful, with a hint of icy temperament. I fell in love with her a bit, so I secretly told my brother. I wrote a love letter and asked him to hand it over to the girl. As a result, she became my sister-in-law. When I saw them together, I was still in the dark. I felt happy in my heart that my cousin helped me catch up with her. But when she saw her cousin holding her hand. My eyes were blank, awkwardly watching them pass by me. Angry, I loudly questioned my cousin, "Why did you treat me like this!" And my cousin became unfamiliar at this moment. He gave me a strange look with an indescribable disdain. He didn't explain to me, just let out a contemptuous laugh. It seems like someone like you, do you deserve it? Later, I found out. When my cousin handed the love letter I wrote to Chen Xiao, he also stuffed a thousand yuan into it. Chen Xiao's family is very poor, and she agreed. The relationship between blood and water cannot sever the connection between me and my cousin. Every time I see them together, my heart is filled with indescribable pain. And my cousin doesn't like her, he just wants to take advantage of her. Several times when I heard my cousin talk to someone about her, they asked my cousin, "Han Shao, why did your family find a poor girl with so much money?" "I've played it once, so I don't want it anymore." My cousin smiled and gave me a meaningful look. After listening to my cousin's words, I couldn't help but clench my fist tightly. I also understand that my cousin was intentionally pursuing her. From childhood to adulthood, I have been his little follower. I consider him to be my good friend, but he always looks down on me from the bottom of his heart. If I find a beautiful partner, he will definitely be very unhappy. I consider him to be my relative, he only regards me as their dog! Hate, I hate my cousin. At the same time, I hate Chen Xiao even more. I hate Chen Xiao's vanity and her reality. However, she seemed to have nothing to do. When we are together, there is a chill on our faces. Seeing her pretending to be aloof without money makes my teeth itch. So, I cast an angry gaze at her. But her temper is bigger than mine. My eyes are also bigger, as if they are about to fall out when I stare at them. Damn it, I'm really angry. However, Chen Xiao studies very well. When my cousin first brought Chen Xiao to his house, his family was shocked to hear about Chen Xiao's grades. Auntie couldn't help but scold the two of us and said, "Han Bin, Yang Yang. Look at the two of you, the 100% English test paper. One of you scored three points and the other scored seven points. What's the use of asking for you again, Han Bin?" "He's a little luckier than me," my cousin frowned and gave me a disdainful look. Upon hearing about our two grades, Chen Xiao couldn't help but chuckle. Her laughter is very pleasant, but it sounds so piercing to me. Even though I carefully uphold my dignity, I still have to embarrass myself in front of her. But when there was no one around, she suddenly looked at me and said, "Yang Yang, do you need me to help you with your tutoring?" My heart suddenly twitched. Looking at Chen Xiao in surprise, I saw her haughty expression. I never dreamed that she would take the initiative to help me with my tutoring. In an instant, I stared at her like a wooden block. "Don't worry about it," Chen Xiao turned around and left. "Hehe, if I ask you for tutoring, I probably have to pay for it, right?" I, feeling insecure, said a bit sarcastically. "No need." Her face showed no expression. "Why not give my cousin extra classes?" I asked. "He looks down on me at all, how could he need me to make up for him?" Chen Xiaoming's bright eyes dimmed. Watching her aggrieved expression, I couldn't help but feel heartbroken. So, I agreed. Her appearance, like a bright light, illuminated the direction of my path ahead. Playing with people like my cousin, I am destined to have no future. Only learning is my greatest way out. The garden in the community has become the place where she tutors me. Every time I'm with her, I can't help but feel a blush and a heartbeat. I found that I like her more and more. Her slender and fair fingers, her body's faint fragrance. Her unintentional manipulation of bangs always makes a ripple in my heart. But she is very cold, she never talks much except for teaching me how to study. My studies have improved a bit, but our relationship has not progressed. Finally, one day, I couldn't help it anymore. Watching her white and tender hands sway before my eyes, I suddenly grabbed her hand. Feeling her cold fingertips, my heart beats incredibly fast. While still looking forward to the next step of development, she slapped me hard and woke me up. "Yang Yang, I'm really disappointed in you! I thought you were different from your brother, but I didn't expect you to be even worse than him." Chen Xiao looked at me coldly. I suddenly felt ashamed and ashamed. In my heart, I couldn't help but ignite anger. Biting my teeth, I yelled at her, "My brother doesn't even like you, I like you!" "Mmm." Her eyes slightly turned red after listening to me. Silence, the sky gradually darkens. Her dark eyes sparkled brightly. Looking at each other like this, she picked up the book in a disappointed tone and said, "It's late, I should go home now." "Don't leave, you haven't answered my question yet." I was unwilling and grabbed her slender wrist. When she turned around, I saw that her eye circles were redder. Biting her lips tightly, she said to me, "Yang Yang, actually I don't like your cousin. But I don't have a choice." Surprised, I finally found out the truth behind the matter. When her cousin gave her a love letter, she had already decided to refuse. However, my cousin took out the money inside in front of her. At the moment she saw the money, she hesitated. Because she needs money too much. Chen Xiao's parents died when she was young. She was raised by her grandmother, who loved her the most. And her grandmother was in poor health during that time, so she needed to spend a lot of money on medicine. Her grandmother has medical insurance, but she needs money to pay for it. Chen Xiao told me that when Grandma's money comes down, she will return it to her cousin. And if she agrees to be with my cousin, she will be genuinely good to him. She won't do anything wrong to my cousin. Unless my cousin dumped her. After listening to Chen Xiao's words, there seems to be a glimmer of hope in my heart. However, it is also disappointing. Because my cousin wants to take advantage of her, if he doesn't, he won't dump her. I gritted my teeth and asked Chen Xiao, "What if my cousin wants to take advantage of you?" "Yang Yang, do you know my family is very poor?" Chen Xiao asked me. "I know." I nodded lightly. "If it were the day of our wedding, I would promise your cousin. But before that, I would never do anything out of line. I am poor, but even if I am poor, I must have the backbone to be poor." Chen Xiao's expression remained cold, and his voice remained neither humble nor overbearing. I never dreamed that she, who was weak, would be so strong. Looking at her slender figure, I suddenly felt very small in my heart. Even if you are poor, you must have the courage to be poor. I lost sleep this night. I am very happy because she will not be taken advantage of by her cousin. But she won't be with me. She helped me with tutoring just because she was kind. And she is a serious girl, she will never betray my cousin. With her help, my academic performance has improved rapidly. This alerted my cousin, who always stared into my eyes and scrutinized them carefully. I am very scared in my heart, and I always avoid his gaze. My cousin smiled and said to me, "Yang Yang, I plan to have your sister-in-law tomorrow. It's right at my house, you can help me relax then." Looking at my cousin's red eyes, my heart once again became painful. Recalling the conversation that night and the conditions at Chen Xiao's home. I know, she is a poor girl. But it's just such a poor girl, now she's going to be insulted by my brother with money. No one knows my cousin better than me. My cousin's family is too wealthy, even the thugs on and off campus would give in when they saw him. And my cousin is also a domineering person, no matter who offends him, there will be no good outcome. Even if I were his younger brother, if I offended him, I would still be dealt with very badly.