"WHO AM I?" Have you wonder if a girl tries to find herself in different accuracy of world.

'WHO AM I?' Never fall in love with a guy as I always promised to myself. No boyfriend since birth making me more powerful to pursue my dreams and wants. I don’t want anyone to give me a bad future. Marko: Wow! Chix! (An Awful Friend) Celine: Oh God! There she is! (Disinclined me) Nicole: I bet you guys, she'll be mine... (An Inaccuracy Person) Mariss: Every one gets interested to her (Low Class Person) Michael: She really is (Zealous on courting me) Josh: She's so perfectly! (Useless Admirer) Andrey: I can't tell why I felt like an ice (Admired me most) Jesca: She is always pretty genious (Helpful Person) Rhina: I guess you all to do well! (Its me, Perfectly Unperfect!) Bye the way I am named Rhina Cruz , 16 years old, a glamorous and glorious person. I was called Rhina for it's my step mother's favorite name from her idol, and my surename of my step father. The Cruz Family. Shock, isn't? First Meet of Them Kolleen: From now on, never feel that your alone, we are here to be part of your zone So be blessed and sorrounded yourself with no sorrow (A mother who treat me Great) Olwen: Together, We will be forever Trust me 'coz I will trust you Proof it 'coz I opened my eyes for a wanted mother for you (A dedicated father for a lifetime family) They become love of my life when the world of us come closer, you know, crying, sharing heartaches, and giving little more than anything I could. I grow up in an orphanage where in I met no friends, only a teacher whom teach me a lot to learn, to stay and grow in a positive outline in my world as they say that “living in a good, better and positive way can lean your life in natural outcome which means you can have a successive journey as you lay your experience through the teaching skills.” Morue: Look, looser is here! Path: Oh no! Thin is here! Garry: AHAHA!! Rhina: What's your problem!? (A fake friends punch and pushed me) Sarah: I bet you! She will loose and die HAHA The bullies still upsetting me, I can't figure out how world is good. They keep haunting me even at my lowest. Oh God! Is that good for me, Is this what destiny wants? I never know when the world will accept me. Every now and then, people make judge at me. They described me as pure innocent and ignorant. ... Oh! When the world will treat me right with appropriate things .... Why even cheap, light against me? .... Do they have care or want to deal with me nice things like they do to other? .... But even I close my eyes, everyday, I'm in nightmare. Greigo: Once you loose, you cover your eyes tears and fears, then, feel it wholly with mind and body, thinking how people handle their ability to weigh you, that's it! You loose too your opportunities to learn to succeed, you must cary on but think a hundred times, is that make any sense? People judge again and again even they do not know your stories, even you! You judge quickly, you do bad things against the world but many accept it, simply because, their eyes are close, same with you. You didn't see people upgrading and you? Still sitting and moaning, what will happen of you, still there? Worrying because on what people sees in you? You have your own abilities that they don't have, now your unhappy? Come on! Don't ruin your life in just a people simple mistaken. Prove them what you can that they can't have, love to the fullest because you may know how worth life is. Together, you are expected to be here in Ophanage Nobility, God present you here so be happy even life goes worst. Remember, God is willing to gave you successes so learn to pleased, wait and appreciate the things around. God loves you children. (A future pastor in our 'Orphanage Nobility') The Orphan passes me to another. Luke: Good day, please claps your hand Jubilant Orphanage! Or even your not happy, appreciate little things children... Shhhhh.. Listen, feel the love of Earth, you don't know how it costs to your wonderful life. Things happen unexpectedly like you, do you like to be here? We response no. Luke: Then how are you supposed? We almost say life is beauty when our world is belong to a family. Luke: Aren't you happy here in shelter? We response again as no. Luke: life outside is not that good same with bad, life isn't perfect but there you have it to enjoy. Look at you in the mirror. Your healthy and strong enough to make things better. By that, I get shame til his words goes in, and little by little, it put me down to play with my reality. Luke: It look great that even squatters will told how lucky you are, you are being clean everyday, there's food to eat, water to swallow, a clothes to wear, there's a friend that will trust you and were able to rescue you. You are blessed remember. God not just put you to be here for nothing. He will lift you up when its your time to shine and you will be thankful. Luke: My mom once said 'Follow your dreams and wear the things that you need. Follow your passion and never surrender but put little caution. God hide some opportunities and your abilities so you could able to experience journey outside the world and find lucky ones and be adventurous with no fears. (A leader from Organization who took some commercial in our 'Jubilant Orphanage') By what he have said, I think loudly and dept. I do want real something to upward myself. I studied harder. My life isn’t perfect without knowledge that’s why I love school since I found out it is the only way to find where my family have been, I need a job whom can give me a thousand salary. I got shame and hopeless at time but I pursue my studies to make them proud at me at least 20% even there's a doubt. "I Will Win This" the only word I told myself a thousands. Len: Look! Tiny is getting better? Claire: Yes, she is. Hope all Harold: Maybe she's insane Michael: we have talk lately, she said she will find her family Harold: oh! I told you! HAHA Celine: then I'll prove she's not gonna make it Harold: how? All years we've been together... Till now your still reluctant to like her Celine: then why your obsess to like her Harold: I like her since then.. Celine: whatever... I believe that I can find my own family and real relatives no matter what because since I woke up on this world, no one can tell who really I am. Carol: You like them? Rhina: who? Carol: An old man and woman there! (She pointed out there) Kollen: I think they likely to have you, Rhina... Rhina: Then, that's good... Carol: I'm gonna miss you! Kollen: Me too Rhina: Hope to see you soon The Cruz Family get me out in that world in the age of 16. They told me a lot of rules just because they wanted a real family that holds a love who will help everyone to live in a crazy world. No one knows that I am just their step daughter, actually they try to have a baby but it’s not what the God plan so they decided to live in America in long years and when they trying to live here in our country they decided to have a child in orphanage. In the reunion, I feel so less, I see their relatives so happy with unconditional love, It’s nice to see them so perfect, and it hurt deep inside of me with tears in my heart and smile outside to pretend everything. My first birthday together with them celebrated so fun and nevee be forgotten. Celebration was so cool, as you can imagine the cakes, the gifts a-and I really like it very much, and also they give education I wanted so I gave it back to them in a special way, i studied hard, as long as I can I tried to make it nice, excellent of all. I feel the proud they feel on me. Starts then I realize I love this family, and I don’t want to leave them from the time they choose me to be part of their journey as my parent. We live all together happily, the years, the tears, the laughter, and the love, I CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT THEM. One night, while my family and I were sleeping silently someone shoot us out. My parents die, my step family who loved me more than I expect and the other three yaya was die, they kill by two people, I heard, “Sorry for that, It’s all about the business.” I am the only one who gave another chance a life to live again but the bullet gave me unlighten colors, I was traumatized between two to three months and I can’t remember some of the details that happened. The Cruz family, my step relative, gave me attention that I need. But at the same time all changes again, it is so hard again and again like I feel so unlucky to have this kind of life, I wanted to kill myself beside of my step family who teaches a lot to inhale those bad experience and exhale as good as I can and breathe like it is my lucky for every day that God given to me but I think I must die also, my whole life crush and I-I can’t do anything. I begin with transferring to public school, no service, no yaya and no hugs coming from my assumed parents. My step relatives push me to became just like before like Boyet did ( My Step cousin, his actually my crush because he is nice and he can make me smile) He give me what I wanted , and his family really loves me too the way my parents did, I appreciate that very well. I become rude in some situation, I feel so hopeless and miss my parents because I know I will never felt that love again. I felt guilty that I think it’s my fault. I feel so bad just like what I am before, I love being bad to show my feelings so I am back, literally that never fall, strong, always on top and believe that I can pass through this situation, and pursue my dreams but I did nothing. I’m not going to school, just having happiness with myself and with friends at Mall. One day, Boyet saw me shopping instead of holding the test papers. Boy ”What are you doing here?”, “Do I needed to say what am I doing here?”, Boy”Yes, look at yourself”, “Not that clean anymore?”, Boy“I’m begging you!”, “What’s the problem!?”, Boy“ I know everything just please stop!”(his eyes was very emotional), “Why would I?”,Boy”I like you, don’t be afraid to fall, I’m willing to be there and help you in every way, just please stop doing this, continue your dreams...” he go out without my permission. When I got home I secretly go to Boyet’s room, I saw their pictures together with his family, he has medals that I thought he don’t have. He is a pursuer, loveable, and also famous, I saw a box, as I opened it, I saw a lot of letters, love letters, I was amazed telling myself that he’s so cool having that pictures, medals and letters so I decided to make him amaze like he do. I go back to school and go back what I needed to be, really hard to change but thats not the reason to fall out and crawl. Boyet cheer me up, help me though I don’t need it. Then, finally I made it! I graduate and pass the LPT. Really glad to have it though I didn't make it ti be valedictorian, I'm still happy. The family of Cruz of Boyet suddenly go to America to have vacation. Boyet told me that "Actually I know your not part of the family since then you came, your step father told me about it (he smile like so? What do you want?) I love you (he hug me so tight and kissed me Surreptitious,I got shame and thrill over my mind) Wait for me, ok? Don't worry I'll back as soon as possible." And I answered very quick and never think "I think you should go, they're waiting for you, your mom's calling you!" Boy "Ok! I will missed you! Bye! " That was so fast like I never expected he'll leave me by my side I was so lingering to wait for Boyet to come I explore life and find my own family. I was happy to meet my relatives but sad to hear that my parents were gone in an accident when going to a vacatiom, and they search for me so long but they didn't know where I've been through, they thought I'm with them when the car explode. I was so happy to see their pictures taken before the accident happened, my mom was beautiful as my step mother, and my father was diligent as my step father, their smile as they hold me as baby was nice and lovely, I take it as I felt to have them windy and soul. They accompany me to cemetry, since then, I always go there where I take out all the pain I felt in every thing. And now, it's my 27th Birthday, I'm so happy to celebrate it with my co-teachers. And when I went home, I saw a man who is familiar and got shocked it was Boyet. It was so long and I felt so happy and excited to have him but... As I go nearer, I don't feel good like I felt so worried and don't wanna go. Boyet saw me "Hey! There you are! " And a girl cut out my attention "Hi! I'm Grace Shiella McVeigh, soon to be Cruz (she was so gorgeous and lovely as he suits her sandals, and attires) So I response "Hi! So happy to both of you! " (I smiled but I feel so less) "Amh... Hi Rhina! Meet my girlfriend, Grace, we're going all night here and getting married next month, and baby meet my cousin Rhina" He told me that line like he forgot his promise, "I'm so excited Babe!" they kissed in front of me, and shock! It hurts me so "Anyway I gotta go, I have a lot of doings, you know, teacher" I go out very quickly. I cried out loud in the house but never let them hear all over night. Tomorrow, Boyet talk to me "Rhina! I'm sorry if you waited, I know, I told you, but.. That was yesterday, you ignore me a lot when were together so I don't know if you like me or what, you never told me or given me any signs", "No, it's ok. I understand. Forget about it. Bye" my voice were very husky, "Where are you going? "he asked, "At school, I'm going to teach bad vibes" I answered, "Sorry... ", "I'm just joking! HAHA! Bye!!! " I smile like things were ok. I forget him like I suppose to respect his decision. I accept everything as I ruminate that yeah, he's right, I never show my feelings to everyone. Instead of begging for something, I used to show my face in front of people , I help children inside the Orphanages, I smile and laugh like totally loved them. I felt loved and hopeful to them which made me realise not all the things I expected will happen but God wants will help me to assure peace and enjoyment of me. I may not have the best memories of other who have, I'm still lucky that God gave this opportunity who make me good, better and best version of me. Thanks God. I'm proud where I am now. I finally made it I found the answer of Who am I.