The Silent Sorrow (GXG)

29. Call my girlfriend that do not talk?

I am not joking. I haven't seen or heard from Dandy in three days. She has not sent me a text and she has not been at school for two days now. It is worrying. Maybe I was too harsh or that I really hurt her, but she has to understand that it can't be serious if she is just keeping everything about her away from me.

She cares for me, I can see that all in her eyes and the way she treats me, but I believe if she never trusts me then she will never love me. I love the way she is, how she cups my cheeks to read my face and eyes. I love the way she smiles, and only to me. I love how much she takes care of me like she did when we were lying in that tent and when she dragged me up from the lake.

"Are you okay?" Andrea ask worried as she stands next to me in front of my locker. I sigh as I turn to look down the hallway, but no Dandy.

"No, not really." I answer my cousin honest, with a shrug.

"Have you tried to call her?" She asks and I raise my eyebrow.

"You are telling me to call my girlfriend that does not talk?" I ask which makes Andrea roll her eyes off herself.

"Texted her?" She corrects herself.

"No, I haven't. I am waiting for her to tell me what happened to her and this Nicole girl or whatever, but it seems like that is not happening." I close my eyes from the pain of saying that.

"I really, really like Dandy, Andrea, but..."

"Dandy really likes you too, and whatever happened, must have been tough since she can't tell you, Jamie. Maybe she is just scared that she will lose you or maybe it still hurts." She says and it leaves me thoughtful.

Andrea has right Dandy is still hurting. I saw it all on her face when that Ashely woman shouted at her. I have never seen Dandy so small before and it was so awful that I wanted to scream in Ashely's face, but that woman was also in pain.

Whoever Nicole was, she must have meant a lot to all of them. I still do not know what happened, but it sounded like Dandy had something to do about it. It might be connected to the no talking and the scar on Dandy's shoulder.

"Yeah, you are probably right." I smile lightly at my cousin.

"Just... I don't know. Give her at least more time." Andrea shrugs and I nod to her words.

"Okay, I see you later." I smile as I close my locker and start heading home. I thought about going over to Dandy, but maybe she needs some time for herself. To think about what happened at the mall and that argue we had.

I mean, there must be a reason she is not texting or even show up at school to see me. I am so used to have her eyes on me all the time and now it's different. It feels strange like I don't have any clothes on. Most of all, I have fallen off the bed this night. I scared my little cat. He was running around confused as if the whole world was falling apart. Maze might be a little jumpy compared to other cats.

I miss Dandy holding me tightly when I sleep. She is the only one that can keep me from the floor. And god, how I miss how gentle she touch me no matter how strong she is, and her kisses. Dammit. She really knows how to make me weak for her. I need her. Dammit.