The Silent Sorrow (GXG)

17. What is it with you today?

Dandy and I are sitting in the back seat. I am watching my grumpy cousin in the front seat of the car. Andrea had to sit on with us because her parents couldn't come and she is not happy with it at all. I don't really care, because Dandy is sitting next to me, staring as I meet her eyes.

She looks wonderful today, Dandy always do, but there is just that big smile on her face. She had that smile this morning and my heart felt very weak for it. I don't know why she just started to look so happy all of the sudden, but I don't mind. Watching her is just pure heaven.

There can't be anyone as beautiful as Dandy. I like that she usually has her hair up in a ponytail because then I can see her strong cheekbones and her amazing, glowing eyes. I wake myself up with shaking my head as I realize that Dandy is watching me confused. Then I just smile at her before looking out the window. I was staring at her much longer than I should, longer then Dandy's staring.

"What?" I ask as I find Andrea watching me annoyed, but she just rolls her eyes and looks forward again. This argues we are in is just starting to be stupid. It's always been stupid but is getting too far. I hope she will change her mind now that Dandy is coming with us. I grin as I feel the blue-brown eyed looking at me again.

"Stop." I chuckle and meet her amazing eyes.

"What is it with you today?" I ask as she has that smile on her face again. Dandy seems confused now.

"I haven't seen you smile so bright before." I smile as well, but with red cheeks. That smile on her face and the look in her eyes just has that effect to turn my skin warm. I don't know if that is a good thing or not, but I love her smile. I need that now, since we are on our way to one of my living nightmares, with a grumpy cousin.

Dandy shrug, still smiling to me and I struggle to keep my eyes from her. That is one of her effects as well. It's hard to not look at her.

Dandy is looking around curious even though it's late in the evening and completely dark, except that there is light from the cabin. We are all tired since we had to sit an hour in a traffic line. There was an accident on the way here and waiting was just torture, but still Dandy was smiling and that made it better.

It's very cold outside now, probably around ten degrees below, but then I realize what Dandy is actually looking at and that is the sky. It's so full of bright stars and the high trees with the snow on is so cozy. The cold breeze makes my body shiver, but it's such a fresh air that I could have been out here all night.

I still don't know what we are going to do with the sleeping places. The cabin might be big, but my grandparents are here, plus my uncle, aunt, and their kids. Then there is mom, Dandy and me. I usually lie in the same room with Andrea, but that is not going to happen this time. Especially, since Dandy is with me. We can't be separated, and I don't mean that, because I need to have her next to me. She can't lie in a room with some of my cousins she does not know. That would just be... no, it's not going to happen like ever. Even if we have to lie in the living room.

Which happened, but I am not complaining. Most of my family was already at sleep, but my uncle, Joe was nice enough to help Dandy and me to find a couple mattresses to put them in front of the fireplace. To keep us warm.

Dandy is staring at me with half-closed eyes, but you should know how beautiful she looks right now. The only light in this room comes from the fire and that makes everything warm and lovely. Just like the way Dandy is. I wish I could lie in her arms, but if we woke up like that and someone saw us. They would get the wrong idea.

My eyes widen of my own thoughts, which turns Dandy confused as she narrow, her eyes. I roll my eyes of myself and Dandy smiles to that. What if I want my family to get the wrong idea because I want it to be that way?

I like Dandy a lot, even though she doesn't talk, but that doesn't matter the way I feel for her. It's the way she is, she is Dandy the girl with the golden heart. There can't be anyone as lucky as I am to have met her. It's like winning a lottery. How can someone be so damn perfect? And I mean that.

Dandy is struggling to keep her eyes open. It's cute to see how much she fight's it. I smile very lightly as I stroke her cheek with my thumb. After a little while, I know she is gone, deep into her dreams. Where only I could wish to be. I smile and then lean in to put my lips on her warm forehead as Goodnight.