The Found Half-breed

I wake up like I do everyday to the sound of my alarm, feels like it screams at me every morning. But that could just be me being awake at 5 am everyday. Ready for work at 7 am. My name's Ze short for Zelda but no one has called me that in a long time not since I was 12. I'm 19 years old living in a small Welsh village Langstone near a town called Newport. I live close by to the Celtic manor resort, which is nice we get a few visitors from all over every year for a trip away. I came here about 6 months ago it's the longest ive stayed anywhere since I left my home, always felt like I had to keep moving but here I feel more settled. Even with the constant feeling of being watched from the shadows. I've been running since I was 12 years old as I had no where to go, i found out that I was adopted after my "mother" passed away of cancer from my drunken "farther" at her funeral. I was found on the steps to the church they helped out at on Christmas day. I was about two days old in the year of 1996. He got really angry and told me it was my fault and that everything bad happens because of me, I only got to stay because of her so he kicked me out with just my back pack and A large sports bag for my things. Luckily I had some money saved to help get me by for a month. I've worked odd jobs ever since to help keep moving, I grew up in London and I've been most places but here seems to be the safest I've felt since my "mother" was alive. I work in the resort and A cafe down the road called 'Paddy's cafe', when needed which isn't often but happy to help. it's owned by a old Irish feller and his wife and daughter she's about 26 and there both in their 50s. Luckily I get to stay in the resort for free and get plenty of free meals or discounted food, i would like to stop in one place and make a home but where ever I go trouble follows. Maybe my old man was right maybe everything bad is my fault. Last time I tried to make a home about one year ago was in Scotland in edingbrough, I had a boyfriend and some friends. But that soon changed I was there just over a month and things went bad. My boyfriend was found dead after he cheated with my friend and I was the main suspect but was proven innocent but people didn't believe I was because I had motif. So I got my stuff and left, people around me always got hurt wherever I was. Luckily here it's been safe and I'm glad. But like I said before the feeling of being watched is constant. "Hey Ze, are you okay looking a little zoned out" A soft voice from behind me, I look up and see my boss Angel "Hey sorry just abit tired not much sleep again" I replied with a smile I get back to sorting out the emails from our clients "Nightmare again? You should speak to someone about them" Angel says again I smile softly with a "I will do eventually" She touches my should in a supportive way and heads back to her desk in the room next door, she's the main manger for this place. I'm like a receptionist and her assistant plus many other things, she pays me well enough I can't complain. After all I get to stay in the little studio cottage out the back and she only lives about five minutes away. I get back to sorting through emails and getting any maintenance reports sent over to our handyman. And get any extra things in place for special guest that often come for a visit. Once I checked and sent out all the necessary emails I head to the empty rooms make sure there all ready and set for new guests and drop off any dry cleaning that was sent from our guests. And I get started on some of the rooms that people checked out of late last night, there not ment to but they do. I like to do them myself sometimes the lady's we have don't always do a full job so I often either do them myself or go in after them to make sure everything is done. It's why I'm trusted with so much to say I've been here 6 months. I hear someone softly knocks on the door, so I look up and smile as it's Mark and Liz they are the kitchen cooks. "Morning guys, it's gonna be a busy one today" I say with a bright smile "Morning lovely, we saw your email first thing. By the way thank you for that, we appreciate the heads up, helps us prepare for the day" Liz says and they both smile warmly "Its okay guys, if rather have my team ready for the day ahead, I've also printed out any food allergy for specific guest and there room numbers as well" I say kindly to them They both say thank you and head down to the kitchen, they often say hi when they get here and appreciate the help I give by doing the little things. I finish up the rooms so there all ready for any last minute guests that might come by, we always keep three room empty for such occasions, it's not often but it's best to be prepared. Once I've done all my jobs I head to the kitchen were I'll grab some breakfast and have a little chat with Mark and Liz, sometimes we get Angel that comes down once she's done with her work and meetings. I get there and as always I have a coffee, pancakes and pastry waiting for me, I will admit it's nice here the people are kind and friendly. But I'm scared something bad will happen. Maybe I should start thinking about moving on to another place? But this place feels like it could be home. I try shake of the feeling that I have all day and try think of something else.