WHAT DOES LIFE MEAN?

Hello guys my name is Eris,to think carefully I'm not willing to do this kind of thing ,I'm just a scumbag which can order by anyone to do this kind of thing ... you can see me a far that l*****g the shoes of one of my classmate which is embarrassing already to begin with.I can't stop thinking on how I ended up becoming the nerd and always beaten easily by the school gangster leader name BUZZ. before I came on this Nimpus University ,I have many experiences in my high school life .coward,weak,nerd,lossers and always in the dark corner of the room noone speaks and no one will befriend with me. And the situations I was encountering now will determined if I will have to be the prey ? or the predator ?.absolutely no one wants to choose the prey but the question is ...do you think that they will agree if you're the one will be predator?. This is a simple questions thats keep tickling in my head while seeing Buzz is starting to punch me in my face with his knuckles in hand and big body that can match wrestler in one on one challenge. Everything his punches are touching in my bodies I see my classmates are whispering and gossiping .Pitiful smiles from the predator and scared puppies from the prey . The school bell was rang and the students in the hallway is starting to desperse one by one ,but one man has not stopped that is buzz that keeps satisfying himself to relieve her anger on me.... Mom! I'm home ! arriving on my house ,What's happen to you my dear?? my mom's said. I saved a cat from tree and fell down that's why i have some little scratch on my face,But I know for sure that my mom is not that easily to deceive .... My mom got me some bandages and midkit ,suddenly my mom is look at me in the eye.Dear!! I know it's very hard to make friends with other people but plss if you have says something just report it now that I can help you. I look at my mom ,but I didn't talk to him ,always that word in any hardships and problems I have encountering this words from my mom is always the heart ache for me .seeing how the merely words can reach those people ??is there any chance?. I just got back to my room after that . I'm just thinking what life means to be?is there meaning live to be happy or is just word that can easily said to anyone to calm there overflowing emotions from the hardships they encountered?