I am losing my head, I swear. Every f*****g body is so normal like nothing is going on. Like I don't have my birthday in a couple of days. Like they won't kick me out and make me forget everyone I have loved. My family, my people. How can everyone's life go on normally, even Jay's, while mine is falling apart in front of my own eyes?
We got into a fight earlier today morning. He is f*****g asking me to calm down and it is not even funny anymore, I swear. Calm down? Really? How do I calm the f**k down? I walked out on him after breaking a plate or four.
What's annoying me more is that he is so calm. It's like he doesn't lovee... Not love but you know, like me? Like they won't miss me. I mean Carol is more bothered about my potential absence than Jay is and she only knows me for like a lit
