Today is the day I am leaving, probably forever. I thought I would have been super emotional and crying and things but surprisingly I am as calm as anyone can be. I dress casually, just like any other day and make sure that I have a lot of cash stacked away in my car. I steal Carol's pacifier and a drawing of the three of us that she once made. And of Jay, I take a tee shirt and the perfume that he uses every day. It smells like him.
I cuddle a lot with Carol that day and then tuck her in for a nap after she is already asleep in my arms. She is sad. I got her many toys and stuffies and a lot of frames with our pictures in it in the hope that she doesn't forget me anytime soon at least.
I then go to Jay. Maybe I should have one last f*****g session with him. I mean, for how long can one c
