Family Security - Riley
It was habit to try to impose order over chaos. It was one of the reasons I thrived so much working to-go’s at Stella’s. I tracked, I planned, I organized. However, the first week home was unpredictable. I attempted to keep track of everything, to learn patterns in all of Poppy’s behaviors and needs. I had an app to manage all of her feedings - both breast and bottle, - diaper changes - distinguishing between wet and blow outs, - her naps, how long she slept for. Even Nica’s recovery naps. It was overwhelming, contradictory, and completely failed to predict Poppy’s behavior. Every time I held Poppy though, I felt peace and satisfaction. She might have brought chaos into my world, but this love was the only thing that truly mattered. She was the result of my shared love with Nica and Cole
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